u/NoisilyDeafening

i played it on release date and then had to take a very long break after a few days of playing it due to pc issues, just got my pc working again mostly and now im curious: did they make some of the bosses and enemies easier? i struggled WAYYYY harder at some of the ones i easily beat now. the one greymoor long pathway one i just beat again and i sweaaaar they were way harder

Instead of like the hypo good feeling I mean

Long story short; insurance hiccuped two months ago due to an incorrect paper they sent and I am still applying for the forth time in a row to get it back. Can’t see my psych so I’ve run out of refills and am tapering my last half month dose as the insurance is fickle right now and cold turkey has always been dangerous for me.

I always hear talk and see memes about how people coming off their meds makes them feel good or that they get a little mania about not wanting to take them. I’ve never had this, I always feel awful when I’m not on my medication. For instance I’ve been on seroquel about a year and a half now and I’m quite content despite creative blocks and emotional numbing occurring occasionally. It doesn’t bother me as I just wanna be myself 🥲

But this withdrawal shii crazy I hate how I constantly feel nauseated and the falling sensation and the mood swings how is it such a popular trope that we wanna stop our meds when manic bruh I get scared to stop them when I feel hypo 🤣 is it just a difference between person to person?

ive seen a hundred of these on here and i need one and i cant find it help me out chat i scrolled for a half hour and missed it probably

ALSO THIS IS WITHOUT COOKING IT IF POSSIBLE lets not overheat him

back at it again at krispy Kreme aka my last post i got a little quirky about the intel not showing a temp, but turns out that was normal,

but using other programs like hwmonitor i just found out the intel p cores keeps peaking and hanging 70s 80s when playing certain games that otherwise maybe shouldn’t for their settings or didnt before? (bg3 on lowest, palworld on lowest, that delete fer . al game remade by the community, various other games that DO NOT usually overheat this thang

so my specs are this :

model; 16irx8

intel: the minimal one for this laptop, its i5 something

nvidia: 4050

ram: 32 gb crucial brand cus thats what was on hand at the time

Windows 11 whatever preinstalled from lenovo

thermal and fans replaced in oct 2025, after a move from a super dusty place had made one of the fans go out halfway (the weird fan noise when they aren’t centered in the barrel)

uhhh basically i dont know jack shit about seeing what could be wrong. i dont have money much at all and my pc is the only thing keeping me afloat with that, so i cant just drag it to a repair guy when i have a lot of stuff i gotta do - so any tips on “try this and see what that does “ is welcome even if it doesnt solve anything, im just trying to rule out stuff and keep him on the lower temp end while i can and prevent any issues until i do have money sometime

sometimes when I’ve tried google results it hasn’t helped me figure out anything so im just asking redditors :)

im talking about dolphin emulation to be clear - not physical hardware. i know the pc version works but across 3 newer computers i cant play them, because newer hardware seems to speed up the audio and fps before the actual animation syncs with it and i cant really play it X'D

Already have:
Paul Ruben’s creamy oil pastels
Pentel art pastels
Crayola pastels
Mungyo gallery pastels
Zenacolor pastels (so far my only disappointment)

So ya boy loves oil pastels but has been depressed. I want to window shop for several months from now. Spill your oil pastel tea. Give me the deets on why you like them if you want. I’ll read everything.

You can also share ones over my budget if you want but I won’t ever afford 120+ nice sets yknow keep in mind but I’m all ears.

Please include where you found them if you want! Not required tho

ALSO SEALANT HELP WHAT KIND WHERE WHEN HOW I’ve been a hobbyist too long

long story slightly shorter, (wordy and infodumpy be warned! i ramble due to short term memory)

spelling errors due to arthritis and im kinda dramatic im in a phase teehee

i have been dealing with medical issue upon medical issue since i was basically born. mother wasnt secure or safe with meds/infections when pregnant w me, didnt get me checked on for a lot of things, etc.

i have a ton of physical issues, chronic gastritis and colitis and such, interstitial cystitis, had my gallbladder removed from a hundred stones trying to pop it, had malpractice happen with scopes and images in the past but too late to do anything legally, many other conditions such as kidney issues and scoliosis and double vision and a bit of colorblindness and hearing issues, and i often space out and miss whole conversations as if i was put on pause etc

diagnosed with bipolar 2, adhd, autism, ocd, cptsd andother stuff

for the better half of this decade i have tried and failed to secure any jobs; i am too sick often to work long periods in stores and cant drive due to lack of knowledge/my vision issues making everything double, and so ive sustained barely enough to get by with supplies by doing freelance art.

at this point in my life, i have tried to apply for disability 3 times and denied. i live somewhere else than where i got denied as of this post, and my new therapist and psychiatrist and physical therapists and 2 specialists really want me to apply and get on it because i cant keep a job irl due to physcial and i cant seem to find a remote job, and im too up and down with health and mental health to keep workking consistently with my artwork. i can take either mere hours or literal months to finish work sometimes.

everything is slapping me in the face.

im now goign to seek disability in this new area i live at, with my doctors all wanting to sign on it, to help me, and im just depressed i guess, due to my bipolar, because i feel very awkward. the bipolar being a major part of my ability to function, and how stupid it feels. i was raised poorly about mental health as a child, and only as an adult when i left my family situation did i realize how severe it really was.

i feel useless and a waste of resources now, as i try to work to get this disability going. currently getting paperwork for my adhd/autism so i can use that too. im told to get a lawyer who will only take money after i win. i will try that, i have no idea what to do, i will look into it though

but mainly i just feel scared.

because my mental health is so dire. that i cant even work on artwork consistently. that i spend days just crying and talking my self down from episodes, evne on medication - im very resistent to my medications, ive tried over 17 mental health meds and i cant even up the ones that work right now due to too much bad side effects if theyre upped, i just dont know what to do

its probably super dramatic of me but like how do you even go on. how do you keep going. i feel like scum for being unable to function like my peers. im almost in my 30s man

how can i feel better about this? the disability i have to get. does it feel less guilty later?

gonna get "kenalog" and "marcaine" or something, potentially, wondering if it helps or worsens. ive seen a variety of things. have to do a cystoscopy but this time theyre sedating me YAYYYYY i had one done that lasted several minutes before the hydrodistention happened and that made me in so much pain for so long. but now i wont have to suffer fully awake. so anyway if anyones done those instillations let me know because they want to when they do my scope and i can decline but i want to know info

i meant instillation by the way but i cant change the name i guess. also if i wrote bad im sorry. just got off a long phonecall about having to do some procedures like this and a bunch of imaging and im AHHHh

thinking of making a tribute video cus i use to do edits and now i wanna make one of skies but i cant locate any HD recordings super easily and i feel stupid. if yall got any specifics lmk i will yoink them. like even longplays just which are ur preferred to watch? thanks in advance

Trying to find a 4 panel bird comic that circulated like a meme, artist seems in my mind similar to Falseknees but I looked and couldn’t find. 2 birds, one thinks the other (who is puffier) is flirting or smth and the smaller bird is has some relatable I’m struggling enough rn negative comment and puffy bird turns around confused and leaves and the small bird is like ???? or smth. I’m making be scrambling this but I’ve been googling bird comics for hours omg

bonus details: I think one might be a pigeon and one is maybe a dove or bigger pigeon but idk im maybe crossing bird memory wires

been wanting to see all the cut stuff with content and translations since I know a lot of the stuff in the English version was like, ab libbed and rewritten entirely for the localization or completely removed. (or, I remember seeing that being said in a 2015 article) - and I was wondering if anyone had a patch for one of those!

edit: yall getting the wrong assumption w/ what im asking here. i have no problem with the us version i literally have not shut up about this game for 15 years im shrimply looking to see alternative dialog meanings / small cut content lol. have a whimsical time yall we all a fan of the game arent we

when you have episodes I know some folks take Azo. cus nothing super helps. do yall like… idk take it awhile and stop awhile or do some of yall take it every few days if the episodes last a bit and stuff like.. ive never had issues with it but im curious since its not for interstitial cystitis and ive taken it off and on for literal years for episodes cus nothing else works I just lowkey wanna feel less insane like am I the only one who has to keep going back to it eventually