u/Ok-Instance2782

Basically complete loss of willpower, fried stress taking capabilities, lots and lots of dreaming for the better but not being able to execute things....a feeling of disconnection from consequences and many more things.

So i personally used to be a very ambitious person but I think I have had a snowball effect with accumulated stress as I reached my twenties.

I had this realisation that my family is fucked beyond repair and the grief about it has been immense. But what's harder is the fact that I am not able to put myself in a safer condition because of being stuck in the freeze.

Someone please share if you've dealt with this.

I rarely get fever, but got one last night temp ranging from 100°F to 103° F accompanied with cold-cough and body pain.

Who else is dealing with this? I just need some company over here

I struggle to believe myself, I can't look at myself in the mirror for long. I hate who I have become.

I used to literally study way too much all the time ever since I was a child. ( One of the reasons why everyone around me called me a mature kid ) Managed to get admission in one of the reputable colleges in my country and moved out. However as soon as I moved out, i found even the very basic things of day to day to be taxing - in a way more that I never ever thought was possible.

I basically had a crashout and have been going in and out of freeze for last 3 years. I even have a life changing opportunity ahead if I can just get myself to be studying hard for the upcoming few months and I'll be able to stop relying on my dysfunctional family financially.

But it's a major collapse of identity and self belief to see myself struggle so much with basic things because functionality is what literally saved my life and that is the only thing I could ever safely rely on. I feel so tired from exhaustion that I don't believe I can give 'my best' into something or have the will power to deal with stress and still be optimistic in day to day life.

Have you experienced something similar? If yes, then how did you turn this around?

Same as title.

I am having a hard time narrowing down to what posts I am eligible for.

Last year when I took the SSC exam, I went with OBC.

However for certain reasons this year I want to go with general category application but as I was filling the form for Selection post XIV , my category was automatically filled from my one time registration details and displayed non editable.

Can I really not change now?