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I like it my body feels great but my mind goes bananas

I should have been reporting a colleague to HR for a while now this person has unpredictable, aggressive outburst, and I always just let them go because this person has always acted this way and it seems like my company just accepts it for what it is so I thought that they were just OK with it at times they’ve been directed at me but overall yes, not productive in the workplace and can make me really uncomfortable. I’ve been walking on eggshells with this person, even working with them for about six months now and so recently, I’ve been under a lot of stress at work. The stress from my colleague doesn’t help And so now there’s a possibility that I will be walking into an HR meeting to explain my recent behavior and abrupt attempt to leave my job permanently and I’m sure they’re going to want to understand some accountability but my truth pretty much is is that I have been stressed For many work related reasons and working with my colleague really doesn’t help that has gotten to the worst of possibilities and my feelings were hurt and my work was minimized to a gray area so that they don’t have to admit that I’m working beyond my actual job description so even if I do make it to an HR meeting instead of just being held to my own words, which was that I’m leaving What am I even supposed to say?

I work for a company where it’s actually really common for employees to flip out and just cost at their bosses. I never wanted to be one of those people but now I think I see why that happens so often and why they have such a tolerance for it I didn’t cost anyone, but I argued back-and-forth with my supervisor pretty bad Probably ruined our work friendship and I likely lost a promotion letter that I just Signed tensions have been pretty high for the past few weeks over a lot of things and I just got so stressed out and upset. I started crying and hyperventilating at work so I left and I didn’t come in the next day and I said that I was not coming back at all and after I got a significant amount of sleep, I reached out to my supervisors and said that I did want to stay with the company. HR already knows all about it so I don’t really know what’s gonna happen before I was accused of not caring so now I guess at least it’s good. They know I care so much that I had a meltdown

I always thought that by at least 30 I would have a solid friend group self-esteem and a romantic partner. I’m not ungrateful for what I have. I do have friends but none of them really know each other. I say that I think everyone knew because no one is ever surprised I think it was just me that held onto Hope and it was a little delusional And I think I held onto hope for so long that it hurt me to realize that I had to let it go that maybe I don’t have the personality that I need to have what I thought I had I would have. I wonder why I thought I could be so naïve But I really thought that one day I would just be a different person. I don’t know why I was just hopeful that I would come out of a shell or maybe the right people would find me most of the time. I feel like I’m living a strangers life. It just doesn’t feel real because I immersed myself and daydreams that we’re so hopeful for so many yearseven though I created my own pain and grief it still hurts

I have scars from SH and stretch marks from rapid weight loss and weight gain. I’m concerned I’ll never find it because my confidence is destroyed from rejection and watching rejection.

I certainly did. I don’t know why I always thought that one day I would wake up and I would be this outgoing, friendly likable person, and I would meet people and they would like me and I always thought that I’d be in a long-term stable, romantic relationship and I thought I could do everything and I’m almost 30 and it kind of looks like I can’t really do anything. My nervous system kind of limits me and so every weekend I go into a space that is my own but it’s suffocating nonetheless it’s lonely. It’s only clean if I clean it I just want to be held and I just want to be loved and understood and cared for and I’ve never experienced that in my whole life. I’ve been waiting for love my entire life, romantic love specifically it just never happened.

I am not a danger to myself or others but I cannot wait for the day I no longer have to be me. I am not worthly of love or opportunity I can barley function and I just don’t wanna be here it’s not fair that I have to be and there’s no pill on this earth that can relieve the pressure of my mistakes and failures and the weight of the people who willingly left my life or chose to not be a part of it and NEWS FLASH it’s never someone else’s loss it’s actually yours if they never gave you a goddamn chance in the first place

For context, I’m a very honest person and so I interviewed with this company about four or five months ago and when they asked why I was looking to leave I explained the budget of my current company and how they just couldn’t afford to pay me more that hiring manager knew one of my managers and I never got the job so now I’m interviewing again With only people from that company and I’m wondering how I should go about it because to speak plainly, I do the job of what they’re looking for my normal every day tasks are exactly what they need. It’s just for more commensurate pay, which would significantly increase my ability to survive as a human being so what should I be incorporating in my interview answers that I’m not Obviously I’m not gonna go into detail about what I’ve said other than making it obvious that I was leaving for money. I do love my job and I’m not quiet about that, but the higher-ups have made it clear that they’re not willing to pay me and I need to make away For myself

What is a good Liner that glides on? I used to use a L’Oréal crayon liner but I can’t find it so I’m assuming it’s discontinued. I just need a simple reasonably priced liner that doesn’t feel like it’s scarping my skin like this gel stick I have. I just get the liquid one in my eye. Also I tried to do a cat eye and it wouldn’t due to what I’m assuming is early crows feet, any way around that or is that just how it is?

I’m sick right now and have run out of people to talk to if anyone wants to inbox me and complain about being single without sending 18+ pics or asking where I live

So this is far fetched but I was recently hospitalized and they hit me with a small dose of morphine. I immediately forgot about all my negative feelings and got giggly, coherent and just how being high should feel like. Any indica strains that make people feel that way?

What were they building together at the dining table and then they got an Amazon package it looks like a paper house?

I always had depression, but then I was rejected romantically and I typically don’t have many romantic interest on my part anyways and then last year I got into a car accident and it messed with my body. It put me in isolation for three months. I didn’t have a car and I couldn’t go anywhere in a city that is not walkable And I never came back from it now I work in a front facing business once again that is emotionally charged and requires me to be emotionally available and empathetic and even though it hurts me inside, I don’t usually show it so when I feel empathy for people, it just doesn’t present the right way and I was passed up for a promotion Because they didn’t feel that I could effectively communicate or relate to the people that I would serve due to that flaw. I’m kind of scared because I also think they were trying to tell me that I was in the wrong field of work and I might be if I never come back from this, but I think the layers changed me so much that I won’t. I spent my entire early 20s imagining a different version of myself that wasn’t possible due to my personality and now that those years are coming to an end, I’m having a hard time excepting myself because I don’t have a lot of friends and I don’t have things to look forward to. I want the bare minimum out of life and it doesn’t really matter how hard I try to find it, it never works. I’m trying to figure out where those people go and where they work so that I can just disappear and not bother anyone anymore.

I started working somewhere and quickly noticed everyone is openly critical of everyone who works there. Quick to judge/measure others’ competence. I walked in on a couple people talking and one person made a comment that I was a good employee. I quickly said “I don’t care about your opinion of me”. This person immediately filled with rage, started cussing at me. I walk away. Not there for it don’t need it but felt the need to set that precedent. I was told by another employee that this person acts like this all the time don’t worry about it. I end up working alone with this person and they ignore me. I’m only talking about work and they just ignore me. I end up with a concern that will affect operations and I cannot fix it and they tell me to contact the manager who does not answer on weekends. I resorted to staff group chat and said this other person advised me to contact the manager they’re not willing to answer my question, A fellow staff member came in off the clock and was speaking with them and helping me out. This person told me not to trust the manager. Can I just say what an ODD place. I’m more intrigued by what this angry one thinks they’re doing by ignoring work tasks if I’m associated with them. They’re not hurting me or proving a point they’re making themselves look bad.

What have you done recently to make new friends outside of work? I’m really lonely. Makes like unbearable. I don’t need to be around people all the time. Just sometimes would be nice. I’m very hypervigilante about being made fun of and talked about behind my back.

I’m not very well versed in the Wiccan practices. I had a friendship end. They were Wiccan at one point. I don’t think they would do this, but they were angry. Is it possible they cast some kind of spell to keep me single? They knew it was the one thing I wish to change.

What results do you get, more specifically the wording being used, that would make you not want to continue with an applicant after the two min AI quiz where you choose words to describe yourself.

I have never once gotten an interview after taking them. I don’t know what these results are that are so bad a hiring manager wouldn’t want to sit down with me. For example I recently had a company reach out due to my experience and ask me to take one of those two min personality assessments where you choose words to describe yourself. I am baffled that 2-6 min of my time in this assessment would disqualify me and I’m really curious as to what it’s saying.