I want movies which will make me cry on the floor , i don't want anything specifically with a "bad ending" , i want one which i might find relatable as a miserable person.
Plenty of chances that I've already watched what you'll recommend but I'll still give it a go
Reposting because if i don't hide their usernames it's against reddit ToS , i didn't know that earlier.
The chronic emptiness just doesn't go away , on nights when I'm wide awake I just start crying for no reason at all . My brain just starts showing me visions of myself getting some life threatening illness and every thought comes down to dying and being freed of this exhausting cycle.
The dissociation is uncontrollable and sometimes peaceful too , but it gets lonely aswell , it gets tiring , my mind never stops . I get visual and auditory hallucinations too sometimes . And it just takes a big toll on my head when I'm aware that this is part of this disorder but i can't do anything to help it.
I genuinely feel tired , both mentally and physically , it's just not about my family , they're already abusive enough but i myself can't find an out from this hellish loop. Sometimes i wish i was never born , sometimes i feel like I'll make it , and sometimes i feel i wish could give my life to someone else who'll make something of this.
I avoid people , skip meals , dissociate , lash out quickly , feel this pain in my chest like something's crushing it . I don't know where I'll be in life in the future but it sure doesn't seem like I'll ever be happy like a normal person . I wish i was normal .
My dad wants to get a new pair of shoes and his priority is comfort for long hours , his budget is strictly under 4K. And he has given me the job to do research and pick the best pair under this price range although i told him i have little to zero knowledge about shoes.
So please help me pick the best pair under this price range or else he'll start complaining to me 🥀🙏🏻
The top is from a local shop , the jeans are from H&M and yes maine saans leke pet andar kar rakha hai vapas moti mat bolna varna mar dungi 🥰
I'm a bit too tight on budget rn , i have a close friend who's birthday is coming up next month and i want a cute dress to wear for the birthday party , I've tried looking online but the reviews are mixed , if anyone has bought a similar dress online then kindly share the link , or else I'll have to look in offline markets in this जानलेवा heat 💔🥀
PS: the reference photos are from pinterest
Hi people , I'm kind of in a desperate situation rn , my relationship with my parents keeps worsening and they've decided not to give me any pocket money or money for my hobbies or food or clothes . I just get a strict travel allowance to reach and come back from college.
I'm still in my first year of college , and I'll start prepping for CAT soon , i don't think i can find and manage a job rn given my mental health which is already below zero . So I'm thinking of drawing these cute art of people's reddit avatars for a small fee to save up and buy stuff for myself while i manage to do my undergrad .
I'm tired of the constant arguments and discrimination and mental abuse I've been facing in my house for as long as i can remember. I plan to move out for my masters but that will take time .
For now , I'm stuck in a desperate situation , and I've decided to do this small side hustle , I'm 80% sure people will just make fun of me or ask me to "get a job" , but wtv , puchne me kya jata hai so I'm putting it out here for anyone willing to help :)
I know it's not perfect or great , I'm not a very good artist , but I'll try my best to make you happy.
I'm not looking for any kind of job referrals , and i certainly don't want any shady offers . If you're down to get your reddit avatar or pfp (must be within my skill level 😭) then kindly shoot a DM .
The dress is from savana , if you have any suggestions then I'm happy to hear .
These days , i haven't been feeling very well , i just feel like I'm surviving instead of living like a person. I barely feel excited for anything. I just feel numb all the times and i feel like I'm not a real person. Like i don't feel most of the emotions , i feel this emptiness inside me most of the times.
I feel bitter and angry towards everyone and everything pisses me off. I feel like a miserable and frustrated piece of sh*t just waiting for it all to end one day so then i can be free.
And it's not that I'm lonely or anything , i have friends. But i just zone out and i can't even think of anything to say or keep the conversation going , i don't feel like talking to anyone , i don't know what's wrong but maybe it's my parents and my toxic household , but i seriously don't understand why all of this is happening to me .
As a child i just wanted to grow up and be free and happy and make people feel loved . And now i just want a permanent break from everything iykwim. And i wasn't like this before , but suddenly it's this dreadful feeling which has possessed my mind.
Just a casual fit , nothing special here and not seeking suggestions either , the top is from ajio and the jeans are from H&M . If you do have suggestions then feel free to drop.
Loose fit jumper from H&M , leggings from local store , and the boots are also from H&M. Just wanted to share since my last post got a lot of love :)
Bought this dress from savana , although I've already received some suggestions to add accessories and people have said it looks good , so just wanted to share too :) let me know if there's any criticism
WARNING - This review contains mild spoilers for the book so please keep that in mind.
Finished this recently and absolutely loved it , it made me feel so much and some parts of it have hit me close to heart because they were kinda relatable .
This is my first book review here , and I'm not a hardcore reader so pardon my english if i say something wrong .
Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine By Gail Honeyman
Many people review it as a book about loneliness , but it's way more than that , the turn it takes teaches alot about life in general , whether you live alone or have a perfect family.
The starting felt to me as kind of confusing and awkward at the same time , as eleanor isn't the best at real world communication skills and understanding what people actually mean behind their words , she's very logical ig? And a person who lives alone and follows a basic routine . But as it slowly introduces more characters as raymond, sammy, bob , Raymond's mom , etc and my personal fav - Glen
Her obsession with the musician , her socially inappropriate lines , vodka weekends sounds all kinda strange in the beginning, but as the story unfolds you really start to see her for she really is , the trauma , loneliness , isolation , lack of genuine human connection . It will hit you if you've went through these , it hit me hard too because I've suffered from emotional isolation and trauma due to parental abuse . While reading the parts where she calls her mummy actually kinda paced my heart and made me anxious.
It also makes you laugh at times at her bluntness or boldness towards people , whatever you wish to call it . But when i actually understood the reason for the bluntness as the story unfolded , i kinda felt guilty and uneasy and sad for her .
And Raymond , i genuinely wish that every person gets a friend like raymond in their life , the way he doubts her or gets weirded out by her remarks in the beginning , but slowly as he starts to understand her , he feels for her and stays for her and helps her , to me it felt like he helped her how to live as a person instead of how to survive as a human.
And the best part? The book ACTUALLY shows a realistic take on healing from childhood trauma and loneliness rather than a magical jolly ending . It shows her healing process , how she tries her best , to recall , and to bring out her trauma , and face it with courage .
This book is gonna stick with me for a long while...
I lost my earbuds a few days ago and i couldn't find them anywhere , I looked everywhere in the house and tried to find them in my college classroom too the next day but couldn't find them. I asked my dad to buy me a new pair , because they're a necessity for me , I can't travel without them and I can't watch movies or listen to music without them.
But he declined with the reason being they're a waste of money , I tried my best to explain everything to him and how much I need a new pair but I still got declined in the worst way that they're a waste of money and apparently I'm very needy .
But the thing is that if it was my sis , he would've INSTANTLY bought them for her , and I know it for sure , from a long time I've been feeling that my parents have favoured my sis over me , for literally anything , whether in a house argument or giving an opinion about anything in the family , everything.
And slowly I'm starting to feel suffocated because my mother is the same , she doesn't go against my sister's opinions or wishes but if I want something it's suddenly an expensive or useless demand .
Just recently my sister asked them to buy her a new pair of sneakers , and they bought it for her even though she already has two pairs and she doesn't even leave the house that much. When I was her age , anything i asked for was instantly shot down without a reason.
What am I supposed to do? I'm still a student in my first year of college and I can't even move out before I'm done with my bachelor's degree. Any advice would be much appreciated.
PS : please don't make it about the earbuds or some "work hard and buy them yourself" advice , this is not about the earbuds , I want advice on how do I say this to my dad that it actually gets to him because I've tried many times , and it's like this from childhood , and it's mentally draining for me to live in this house.
Bought this from savana , but the color is a bit diff , is the color Yay or Nay?
And please suggest a good pair of heels to go with this dress , I'm keeping it for occasions .