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I know it’s never been confirmed hence why I said just to theorise. I’ve went deep into the lore about what each wood for a wand represents and the unique requirements they all have for an owner and so forth… so my question is to those that are also very familiar with wand lore and the significance/meanings when someone is assigned a specific combination. So, given the context (his personality, traits, will) what do you think would’ve been dumbledores combo AND why?

EDIT: I mean the wand given to him as an 11yr old when witch and wizards finally qualify for hogwarts and getting a wand, NOT his eventual possession of the elder wand much later in life.

age, 27. gender, female. height, 5’8. weight, 250lb.

and by za I mean weed. I haven’t dared to smoke it since starting on pregabalin the start of this year so it’s been nearly 9 months. before starting I would smoke it for 2-3 days every 2-3 months so not regularly but I’ve been in the mood to smoke it and relax/vibe for the past 3 months but don’t want to in case it could interact negatively with my pregabalin. medication info: pregabalin 75mg twice daily (so a total of 150mg daily) but they are due to increase it in 3 weeks time. vortioxetine 10mg daily, promethazine up to 100mg daily (but it’s as and when required, I very rarely take 100mg in one day, usually 50mg, it’s just a guideline for the max amount I’m allowed in any given 24hrs). that’s it. so with that information in mind do you think it would be okay for me to smoke a little bit?

I used to be able to consume educational content on racism and loved learning all the ways racism presents itself in the world. I want to be knowledgable but especially on the history of black people, past & present. however, my mental health has regressed so much and one of the mental illnesses I suffer from is OCD, so I get debilitating intrusive thoughts and unfortunately after consuming so much race related content online the disorder has exploited that. however, asides from that, it’s genuinely making me feel so incredibly depressed and so I now find myself scrolling past racism posts because it makes me so frustrated, sad, anxious, angry and powerless. for the first time in my 27 yrs of existence I’m beginning to develop low racism self esteem… I’m so ashamed to say this but every time I go online everyone is expressing how much they hate us. I feel guilt that I’m scrolling by a black persons experience of racism, I feel like I’m betraying them by not stopping and listening but I’ve consumed far TOO much of it that I’ve become HYPER conscious of it bordering on paranoia (which is not at all good for the mental illnesses I’m diagnosed with) I’m either paralysed, unable to step away from my phone for hours on end watching video after video about racism incidents or yt people sharing their hatred for us OR I completely shut down and block racism out of my mind and absolutely hate to hear of it because of the negative feelings it invokes. I need to hear from other black women on their experiences with this. or at the very least just one person to tell me I’m not a bad person for feeling this way… racism has become to rampant I don’t know how to cope with it.

dating apps have proven to be unsuccessful and I have the displeasure of running into people that cannot withhold a conversation to save their life. I’ve posted in this sub before mentioning my history of lacklustre conversations and a general distaste for people that are not consistent and don’t put in the adequate effort necessary for a relationship to develop hoping for a change but I got the same people, same results (sigh) hoping this time will be different.

I would like someone that is loyal, devoted, smart, has a strong sense of self/identity, consistent and compassionate.

quick vetting: I’m 5’8, biracial, fem (sometimes fem-ish). out of work due to chronic illnesses and autism but responsible with money. love languages (giving) are gifts, quality time vs (receiving) acts of service, words of affirmation, physical touch (still would like to be spoiled with a gift(s) occasionally though)

I’ll discuss myself more over DMs.

IVE JUST RAGES QUIT TRYING TO DO THE MISSION THAT REQUIRES YOU TO KEEP THE FIRES LIT SO PELLAR CAN DO THE RITUAL TO FIND ANNA AND TAMARA AND THEY SEND A HUGE ENTOURAGE OF WRAITHS!!!! ALL WHILE THOSE FUCKING FIRES KEEP GOING OUT AND NEED TO BE RELIT BUT WHATS THE POINT THE WRAITHS HUNT YOU DOWN AND ATTCK YOU WHILE YOU ARE AT THE STONE TRYING TO LIGHT IT!!!!!!!

I’m a diagnosed ND with a few mental illnesses to keep it company (yay😐🥂) one of them being psychosis and in recent months I’ve been in and out of reality (not entirely, but somewhat. It’s complicated) anyhow, it’s dulled my Ti.

there are moments where I become my normal self again, my mind is sharp, I’m able to mentally steam roll through complex ideas and thinking about things in depths ignites something within me again… excitement to explore. however, this is always short lived before I’m submerged in the irrational thoughts of ocd & psychosis. unfortunately, these periods always last longer than the period I go back to being myself (or at least, the closest thing to myself)
anti-psychotics don’t help matters either… it drastically slows down my processing time so I feel like I’m very dumb. which I think as fellow INTPs you’ll understand how upsetting that can be as our mind and intellect is our prized possession or comfort place.

when I’m really struggling I behave illogically which I’ll be ashamed about when I’m by myself and have the time to reflect. I present more as an unhealthy INFP. I’m reactive, demanding and high strung on thoughts that aren’t real. sometimes I’m able to use my logic to get out of the self destructing loop of buying into what “voices” tell me but other times I crumble. however, my inferior Fe still remains which means even if I’m reactive or high strung I struggle immensely to talk about what’s going on in my mind. It makes this all the more challenging as I’m so used to dealing with my emotions inwardly and privately when I’m by myself so it’s hard to change that. I’m a VERY private person so the exposure is deeply unsettling.
my psychiatrist and I were talking and he said I’m “a very pragmatic person” which means getting certain messages across to me is hard in our appointments… and over the years when I’ve had psych admissions staff members have routinely said I present more as a more serious and articulate patient but that comes with so many woes as it means I have a ton of unresolved feelings and issues therefore the mental illness continues.

the reason for my post is that I’m curious to hear from fellow INTPs that have mental illness in some way and how do I stop punishing myself for being illogical when mental illness takes over? It makes me feel like a fraud somehow