u/OnyxStarzz

Meine Mutter respektiert meine Pronomen immer noch nicht. Ich bin frustriert.

Ich bin out seitdem ich 13 bin. Ich bin jetzt 16. Auf Deutsch benutze ich seitdem er/ihm auf Englisch they/them. Meine Mutter nennt mich vor meinen Freunden er und spricht mich vor meiner Familie bei der ich geoutet bin jedoch immer noch mit sie/ihr und Maus an.

Sie benutzt ihre Generation als Ausrede um die falschen Pronomen zu benutzen. Sie nennt meinen cis Bruder er/ihn und Bärli. Ich sag ihr oft meine Pronomen zu benutzen sie hat es sich für einige Zeit angewöhnt nur um es wieder zu ignorieren. Ich bin momentan im Prozess von legal meinen Namen & Personenstand zu ändern und sie tut auf supportive aber ist im Endeffekt die ganze Zeit am misgendern und versuchen mir das Transitionen auszureden aber will gleichzeitig dass ich mich bei meinen Großeltern oute damit ihr Leben leichter ist wenn sie mich aus Versehen meinen neuen Namen vor ihnen sagt obwohl ich weiß das meine Großeltern Enby-Phobisch sind.

Ich nehme an ab nächster Woche werde ich mich weigern mit meinen Eltern ein Wort zu wechseln bis sie aufhören mich zu misgendern. Ich hab sie lieb und sie mich auch aber sie (besonders meine Mutter) behandeln meine Trans identität besonders meine Dysphorie als wäre es etwas das repariert werden muss obwohl sogar meine Therapeutin sagt Transitionen ist meine beste Möglichkeit.

Punkt ist meine Mutter ist blind vor Angst das ich zu Jung bin um sowas zu entscheiden und es später bereue oder das die Politik schlimmer wird und ich in Gefahr bin. Es ist so frustrierend das sie meine Identität als ein Ding behandeln das repariert werden muss.

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u/OnyxStarzz — 20 hours ago

Can I make my clock alert to my heart rate even if it's not resting?

I'm currently being assessed for a disorder that makes you have an extreme heart rate while standing and I'd love to be alerted by my clock before I faint or get pre-syncope but it says I have to be resting with a heart rate over 120 for 10 minutes before it alerts. Can I somehow change that?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 6 days ago

Ist es dysphorie sich jeden Tag Top-surgery zu wünschen?

Ich bin Non-binär und wünsche mir schon seit dem ich 12-13 bin Top-Surgery. Ich bin 16 und seitdem ich vor ein Paar Monaten 16 wurde wurde dieser Wunsch zu etwas täglichem zum Punkt wo ich die ganze Zeit Content darüber konsumiere und teilweise sogar weine weil ich warscheinlich nicht eine Top-Surgery vor 18 kriegen kann.

Es schränkt mich ziemlich ein und ich wünschte ich wüsste wie man Top-Surgery mit 16 in Österreich kriegen könnte. Weiß jmd was darüber? Ich bin mir nicht sicher ob ich es bis 18 mit meiner Brust schaffen kann.

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u/OnyxStarzz — 11 days ago

How do I quit my phone addiction?

So I want my mental health to get better and one of my old coping mechanisms was using my devices way too much to the point of where I became addicted.

I've been getting a bit better going from 11 hours daily to 7-8 and sometimes even just 3 but how do I keep the 3 hours consistent? Do you have any advice?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 12 days ago

How do I take care of a buzz?

So I am going to buzz my wavy (2a/b) hair today bcs of dry hair and bleach/hairdye damage. What products do I use to have non dry hair until my hair gets a bit longer again? Also: How do I get rid of dandruff while my hair is buzzed?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 13 days ago

Can I still call myself a lesbian?

So I used to call myself enby but now ik I'm boyfluid (fluctuating between all genders exept female). Would it be weird to call myself a lesbian? When I feel like a boy I call myself straight but most of the time I'm enby & call myself a lesbian.

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u/OnyxStarzz — 13 days ago

What's my hair type?

So I have damaged hair and normally my hair is flat af but if I use conditioner and scrunch it looks like that. It's still pretty damaged from dryness and dying my hair but do you know what hair type that could be? My friends all say it's definitely textured.

u/OnyxStarzz — 13 days ago

So I get like really really bad dysphoria like to the point where it literally almost feels physically painful to be in this body. My chest dysphoria is the worst of all and I can't really bind because of asthma and I'm scared of taping (I'll try it in a few days though). Sometimes I get actual thoughts about how if I don't get Top-Surgery soon I think I won't make it to 18.

My therapist is behind me and she doesn't even know the extent of my dysphoria. She just knows that I've been dreaming about having Top-Surgery/my trans friends already having had Top-Surgery and me being jealous.

My parents are kinda supportive-ish? They think ppl that transition young regret it oftentimes but are too scared to say anything. They even thought that I already regret it after I was socially transitioned for a year. They took a long time to accept that I'm a they/he now and even longer until they saved me as my name on their phones, etc.

I think maybe awareness would help them? I've got therapy on Tuesday and I could talk about it then. The issue is my therapist is equipped with being able to diagnose you with gender dysphoria but isn't able to tell you the legal stuff but there are clinics in my city that are able to.

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u/OnyxStarzz — 14 days ago

Whenever I get happy someone tells me I'm being annoying. I just want to be happy but it feels selfish to be happy when everyone including my friends gets annoyed and pissed off at me.

I'm generally quiet and rarely talk if I'm not asked to but get louder and talk a lot when I'm happy/confident and people always tell me to stop and that I'm being annoying or they ignore me and I hate it.

I wish I could just never talk again but whenever I'm happy I automatically do. Idk what to do. Those social issues always make me go silent and I get intrusive thoughts about how I should just kms.

I'm in rehab for autism soon but idk what to do and I just wish I wasn't so annoying

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u/OnyxStarzz — 17 days ago

So my parents recommended sending me to rehab since I'm having an autistic burnout and we're currently informing ourselves on local possibilities.

I struggle with change a lot and idk what to expect and it's FREAKING ME OUT and makes me extremely anxious. Do any of you have experience? What can I expect? I heard that one of the local rehab centres is really good and the brother of my brothers friend had a good experience there. I'm still nervous though.

Please don't tell me horrible stories I just want to know what autism rehab is and the program and if they try to kinda cure all of your autism symptoms except for the giftedness (kinda like some ABA therapists)

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u/OnyxStarzz — 17 days ago

So I'm currently creating a series where I'll have 6 related languages from one languagestem (I'm sorry for the incorrect language English is my third language) for the 6 countries in my high fantasy world. I want to be detailed and be able to speak them irl (or at least 1 should be a speakable language I can speak irl)

I have no experience in linguistics.

How can I create these languages? I'm okay with any resources I'm planning on taking a long long time on Worldbuilding.

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u/OnyxStarzz — 17 days ago

So I have slight waves but they turn extremely straight after brushing. How do I prevent that? I have dry/damaged hair could that be the cause?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 23 days ago

So I'm an enby lesbian and there's a character I really relate to. She has a "crush" on a boy once (just blushing and it's over at the end of the EP) but in all other cases she refers to her love as female always and dates another lesbian. She even refers to education as "I have a new crush and her name is education!" (Might give it away to some but whatever).

I've had this too, I used to date a boy in elementary - early middle school until I realised I'm actually a raging lesbian. Do you think it would be offensive to headcanon her as lesbian/some microlabel with a strong preference to women?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 23 days ago
▲ 3 r/mha

So I want to reread and rewatch it but all the websites/apps I used either cost money now or are down. Do you know any apps that work and don't shove ads down your throat when you're in the middle of a chapter/episode?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 24 days ago

So I don't believe in an all-powerful being like god, I'm Hellenistic but I'm really interested in religions and I'd think about reading the bible but I'm still not sure because I feel like that would betray my chosen religion and idk if I'm even fully comfortable with reading the bible. Do you have any thoughts?

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u/OnyxStarzz — 24 days ago