midwest emo is so cool
i don’t even know if the promise ring is midwest emo actually so don‘t flame me if i’m wrong.
anyway, if you have any recommendations from them that would be #awesomesauce
thank you bye bye
bro i read the first volume of jjk like yesterday after watching the anime a bit ago. anyway it was a little difficult for me to like picture where each character was standing.
i don’t really know why that is, but if there are any manga you think would be easier for me to read then feel free to comment your recommendations below.
okay bye bye thank you
little backstory:
around mid-late may of this year, i began taking my porn addiction seriously. i tried to stop oversexualizing girls i see online, and obviously i tried to remove porn from my life. i was pretty successful early on, and even went around 2 months without masturbating to porn. but around 2-3 weeks ago i gave in. i gave in the next day as well, then stopped for 2-3 days, and now i'm back to using it every other day like i did before taking this addiction seriously
what i need help with:
i noticed that i had a ton of self control and discipline when i was not using porn. i would meditate without getting bored for longer periods of time than i do now and i would work on creative projects a lot more frequently. it was significantly easier for me to get myself to just sit down and begin doing something productive.
for the past 2 days, i've noticed that i haven't been doing much. i have a ton of time on my hands that i used to spend writing, drawing, and editing videos, that i now spend watching youtube and masturbating to porn. i also have recognized that i am more angry. i believe this is because i feel shame for looking at porn. i know that i shouldn't feel this guilt or shame, and i don't most of the time, but that occasionally moment where i do makes me upset with myself. i feel weak for not being able to choose to masturbate healthily, and i feel weak for not having control of how i spend my time. this not only makes me upset with myself, but with other people that don't deserve it.
idk how to get back to the state i was in a few months ago. the state where when i desired to masturbate with porn, i always was able to encourage myself to instead do it without porn, or to spend my time with one of my aforementioned creative outlets.
i'm not even sure what i'm asking for here. i just want my life back in my hands so i can work on myself more effectively, and eventually get a girlfriend.
anything helps.