u/PrudentVast6129

I just broke up with my girlfriend and it hurts so bad. I love her but she's straight it'll never work. I can't stop crying, I know she's crying too. I've struggled with suicide through these 19 miserable years of existence but it was only this bad when I was 14. I've been repressing for so many years after I quit being catholic and struggling with an eating disorder I started to delay puberty at around 13. If it wasn't for the fact she'd blame herself I'd kill myself.

I told her I was repressing nearly three months ago after she wanted to move in for the start of the new semester and it broke both of us. She cried and called her friend, I was under the impression she only stayed due to me saying I'd repress till the day I died. She's been really distant since then, and I thought it'd make breaking up easier since I assumed the distance meant she wanted to leave as well but NOPE. I literally have never seen someone so distraught in my entire life. I feel so fucking terrible but I can't keep repressing, I was lucky I hit puberty late due to my eating disorder but with hairs are starting to grow on my face and my voice getting deeper I can't take the dysphoria any more. I knew I had to make the jump or I wouldn't be able to go on anymore, within four years I'll get my degree and transitioning around highschoolers sounds like hell.

On a better note I just bought estrogen and since I literally look 14 years old I think I have a good shot of passing. Thank you all for the comfort this board has given me in the past few years

I recently starting hooking up with people after separating with my long term(year plus) partner and sex feels so different. There are some parts I enjoy like how different girls respond to different things, sexual exploration, and the freedom of it all. But I would be lying if I didn't say it was quite bitter sweet.

During sex with this particular girl I just felt an overwhelming sense of sadness. Also Sex feels TOTALLY different when you don't know the person, for better and for worse. I had only been with my girlfriend before this so it's all so new to me. How has sex been for you after breakups, was it a stress reliever for the better, or more bittersweet like in my case? I'm genuinely curious to see how it has went for different folks.

Like out of nowhere everybody is asking for thoughts if they pass or if they should do hrt, like how did this happen lol.

Well I play piano I primarily play the trumpet mainly playing Jazz. I've always loved Waltz and classical music and have been trying to get into playing more of it, any good songs for the trumpet? Thought about asking AI but I'm trying to quit that for obvious reasons.

So I was kissing my girlfriend right? and she says my lips are fuzzy and starts giggling. I check with a photo and I HAVE A HALF MUSTACH! I literally haven't had this much Dysphoria since I was getting muscular but I could stop that. Like I'm considering getting it lasered off but at that point that's like 40% trooning out so I don't know. God why did you DO THIS TO ME!

This ones for the mods. I've seen tourists from the normie trans come here again and again just to call us path tic, but aren't pinkpilling. So I suggest we add another rule, Don't be an asshole to others. It's simple really, you can be a doomer and be an asshole to yourself, but don't be an asshole to other people for their personal choice. I just think that this would be positive for this sub, and I want this sub to be a healthy safe space for reppers. Thanks all and mods I hope you here me out on this.

So to start off I've been struggling with Gender dysphoria starting at 6, but growing in scale when I was 13, It's quite crippling really. Unless I'm listen to Waltz music I'm probably struggling with the thoughts of being someone else. Do reasons of my own accord I'll never transition, I'm just not going too.

Since February of last Year I made a friend in University and things have taken a serious turn. First it started with chatting outside of school, then getting Frog tanks together, and then romance. She wants to move in together due to the semester starting again and take things further now, but I haven't told her I struggle with Gender Dysphoria.

To be honest I feel really fucking bad like I'm lying to her. She's 100% straight and I don't think she'd be into that at all despite being apolitical. I don't want to fuck things up and ruin what we have for a part of me I hate anyway. Since I'm never going to transition anyway is there really any harm in not telling her? I'm not on HRT so that's not an issue. Am I in the wrong for just keeping this a secret? For the past two days it's been beating the hell out of me, it wasn't a problem before but now that things are getting really serious it's just to much.

I first went to the repper subs but they're biased as hell. I don't want a pity party but any advice for what to do and the possible consequences would be greatly valued.

So to start off I've been struggling with Gender dysphoria all my life, It's quite crippling. Unless I'm listen to Waltz music I'm probably struggling with the thoughts. Do reasons of my own accord I'll never transition, I'm just not going too. Since February of last Year I made a friend in Uni and things have taken a serious turn. She wants to move in and take things further now but I haven't told her I struggle with Gender Dysphoria. To be honest I feel really fucking bad like I'm lying to her. She's 100% straight and I don't think she'd be into that at all despite being apolitical. Since I'm never going to transition anyway is there really any harm in not telling her? I'm not Hrtreping so that's not an issue. Am I in the wrong for just keeping this a secret?

Every single day I fight the temptation to start HRT, it plagues my existence. If I were born in the middle east, Afghanistan let's say, it wouldn't even be a thought! It's not EVER brought up as even a possibility that you could be trans, and even if you figured it out you wouldn't be able to do anything. Why don't we hear of trans people in feudal Europa? Because they never had an outlet too do so. It wouldn't plague my mind, my soul, the possibility that I could change, because I wouldn't have the resources to do so. Perhaps that's freedom in some sense, the most freedom I could have from this degeneracy anyway.

Last night I was once again thinking about being born a girl, which happens pretty much whenever I'm not doing or thinking about something else. This time In my head I just started referring to myself as she/her in different scenarios like at school or work. I haven't smiled so hard in such a long time. I felt amazing like if I where being held but 1000 times intense. Is this Euphoria? Is this how people feel normally? Am I just insane? idk but I like it.

Last night I was once again thinking about being born a girl, which happens pretty much whenever I'm not doing or thinking about something else. This time In my head I just started referring to myself as she/her in different scenarios like at school or work. I haven't smiled so hard in such a long time. I felt amazing like if I where being held but 1000 times intense. Is this Euphoria? Is this how people feel normally? Am I just insane? idk but I like it.

This wasn't a problem when I was younger or single but now that I finally found a girlfriend I have a problem, I literally can't sleep in the same bed as someone. She doesn't snore at all I just feel so odd. I've had to start sleeping on the couch which really hurts her and is making things complicated. Does anyone else strugle with this?"

this is what happens when I open chrome

I think this is the file that's causing it but I'm not sure and I can't delete it

Like two days ago I pirated some stuff and now this is happening. Let's just say I've learned my lesson and my morals have improved. I installed Malwarebyets and that didn't work because it said I didn't have anything wrong, but as you can see that's false. I'm honestly considering resetting this thing and getting a new google account, but that's going to be a hassle. Any help would be greatly appreciated.