u/PrudentVast6129

Every single day I fight the temptation to start HRT, it plagues my existence. If I were born in the middle east, Afghanistan let's say, it wouldn't even be a thought! It's not EVER brought up as even a possibility that you could be trans, and even if you figured it out you wouldn't be able to do anything. Why don't we hear of trans people in feudal Europa? Because they never had an outlet too do so. It wouldn't plague my mind, my soul, the possibility that I could change, because I wouldn't have the resources to do so. Perhaps that's freedom in some sense, the most freedom I could have from this degeneracy anyway.

Last night I was once again thinking about being born a girl, which happens pretty much whenever I'm not doing or thinking about something else. This time In my head I just started referring to myself as she/her in different scenarios like at school or work. I haven't smiled so hard in such a long time. I felt amazing like if I where being held but 1000 times intense. Is this Euphoria? Is this how people feel normally? Am I just insane? idk but I like it.

Last night I was once again thinking about being born a girl, which happens pretty much whenever I'm not doing or thinking about something else. This time In my head I just started referring to myself as she/her in different scenarios like at school or work. I haven't smiled so hard in such a long time. I felt amazing like if I where being held but 1000 times intense. Is this Euphoria? Is this how people feel normally? Am I just insane? idk but I like it.

This wasn't a problem when I was younger or single but now that I finally found a girlfriend I have a problem, I literally can't sleep in the same bed as someone. She doesn't snore at all I just feel so odd. I've had to start sleeping on the couch which really hurts her and is making things complicated. Does anyone else strugle with this?"

this is what happens when I open chrome

I think this is the file that's causing it but I'm not sure and I can't delete it

Like two days ago I pirated some stuff and now this is happening. Let's just say I've learned my lesson and my morals have improved. I installed Malwarebyets and that didn't work because it said I didn't have anything wrong, but as you can see that's false. I'm honestly considering resetting this thing and getting a new google account, but that's going to be a hassle. Any help would be greatly appreciated.