Spotted for 15 days straight, 3 days of super heavy bleeding, 4 days of light bleeding, had 7 days break and then started spotting again.
Can't eat, nauseated, can't sleep. I randomly wanted to cry for three hours. Because I felt incredibly angry for 2 hours before that.
My doctors appointment is still couple weeks away.
I see no point of this. None at all.
Whenever I have a big project due for my work, and my hyperfocus kicks in, many of my other work related, hobby related mental obstacles just vanishes.
Let me explain- I'm in the middle of a project, let's call it Super Big Project, or SBP for short, that is challenging and taking a lot out of me. I was in the middle of depression when I started SBP and through work, that got managed.
I have a few hobbies that I'm doing on and off for a while. I was able to figure out several solutions, with out much effort while I was wrecking my brain over SBP. a couple of craft thingy and watercolor thingy. I also overcame a mental obstacle while I was not even thinking about it. Just did it.
I haven't been able to start a side hustle thingy because I couldn't figure out so key stuff. I was talking to a couple people, who would like to invest and would love to help me out. But those were all talks. Neither of them actually did anything, because they were also very busy people. Let's say it has been closer to 6 months that this is in talks. I figured everything out one night while I was doomscrolling before falling asleep. Took me 1 hour. And sorted the budget. Talked with a few people, hired one.
All while I am hyperfocused on SBP.
And I know, after this is over in a week, I will be put of commission for atleast a month. I would go all vegetative state. But the solutions usually stays. Hopefully. The side hustle would be up and running.
So, my friends, is this an ADHD thing? Or is it just me?
Where can I get them? Preferably online. Preferably custom number on the back.
উত্তুরে জানালার খটখটানি থেমে গেছে,
দক্ষিণের বারান্দায় মুকুলের তাজা ঘ্রাণ,
কুয়াশার চাদর ভেদ করে সূর্য
এক আজলা তাপ রেখেছে টাটকা রোদের সাথে।
সান শেডে চড়ুইয়ের সংসারে
কিচিরমিচির জানান দিচ্ছে নতুন প্রাণ।
নতুন কুঁড়িরা উঁকি দিচ্ছে ডালের কোল থেকে
গাঁদা ফুলেরা ঝলমল করছে
প্রজাপতিরা খেলা করছে তাদের সাথে।
পাখিরা নেচে বেড়াচ্ছে গেয়ে গান।
ঋতু বদলের সমাচার,
বসন্তকে স্বাগতম।
It makes my blood boil.
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I'm still carrying my baby weights, 2 babies. So every ailment I got, loose weight is the only advice.
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I got PCOS, I suspected since I was 30. Got my diagnosis when 40. And no meds. Just loose weight.
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I got high BP, loose weight. My dad has BP. It's genetic. But no...
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My cholesterol is borderline. My mom is a thin high cholesterol woman. But I have to love weight.
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I'm pretty sure I'm going through peri menopause and I know, just know the doctor will dismiss everything, all the symptoms and i have to live with this hell for 10more years or whenever they'll deem me worthy of a valid diagnosis and treatment.
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I just don't go to the doctors anymore and just learn to live with whatever I got atm and lots and lots of anger.
It makes my blood boil.
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I'm still carrying my baby weights, 2 babies. So every ailment I got, loose weight is the only advice.
​
I got PCOS, I suspected since I was 30. Got my diagnosis when 40. And no meds. Just loose weight.
​
I got high BP, loose weight. My dad has BP. It's genetic. But no...
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My cholesterol is borderline. My mom is a thin high cholesterol woman. But I have to love weight.
​
I'm pretty sure I'm going through peri menopause and I know, just know the doctor will dismiss everything, all the symptoms and i have to live with this hell for 10more years or whenever they'll deem me worthy of a valid diagnosis and treatment.
​
I just don't go to the doctors anymore and just learn to live with whatever I got atm and lots and lots of anger.
It makes my blood boil.
​
I'm still carrying my baby weights, 2 babies. So every ailment I got, loose weight is the only advice.
​
I got PCOS, I suspected since I was 30. Got my diagnosis when 40. And no meds. Just loose weight.
​
I got high BP, loose weight. My dad has BP. It's genetic. But no...
​
My cholesterol is borderline. My mom is a thin high cholesterol woman. But I have to love weight.
​
I'm pretty sure I'm going through peri menopause and I know, just know the doctor will dismiss everything, all the symptoms and i have to live with this hell for 10more years or whenever they'll deem me worthy of a valid diagnosis and treatment.
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I just don't go to the doctors anymore and just learn to live with whatever I got atm and lots and lots of anger.
Please don't send dms, I'll not reply.
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I'm planning on launching a website. I can make them on Wix, by myself. But I need help/guidance with payment/checkout process thingy and making it searchable by google. The seo type stuff. And I also have a bunch of questions, that I refuse to talk to AI with. There are also security stuff.
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If you can figure out what kind of help from the gibberish above, please comment.
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If not, it's okay. I'm pretty sure I didn't make any sense.
My mood swing is giving me whiplash. I have been spotting for 2 weeks, before I started bleeding like I have been cut in half, for 48 hours, then it's gone like someone put a plug on it. Been nauseous the whole time, hardly ate 1 meal a day. Living on coke zero and coffee. Because I hate everything else. And I'm beyond exhausted. I was exhausted 2 weeks ago. Now the fumes I was running on, ran out. I am not sure I'm going to make it through this menopause thingy.
My ears are itchy, I'm hot all the time. And I'm getting cold flashes. It's middle of the summer here. I'm sweating through every pores of my face and my feet are always cold.
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What is the actual point of menopause? If I have hysterectomy, can I avoid this whole thing?
Recently FB is offering me profile monetization, not page, but my personal profile. And I'm a lurker.
I was curious if anyone else is getting the same offer and took it. If yes, what's it like ?
I'm 41. And a half, if that matters. I also have PCOS. Married. To figure out what is happening with my body, I went through a long list of checklists. I'll go see my doctor, as soon as I'm ready to accept that this is what is happening.
But I'm not ready mentally. Denial is a river in Egypt that flows by my house. And I'm not in Egypt.
Does it happen to other people? I'm surely not unique. Right?
When did you figure it out? How did you feel? Am I stupid or something?
Also, how, if it did, did your marriage survive?
I have a 9 and 3 year old. And I'm a mod swing madness. Kids are starting to get scared of me. And it is breaking my heart. When I'm not a monster. Those moments are becoming more and more far between.
How do you manage a toddler with almost non existing pre frontal cortex? And a pre-teen,with their raging hormones? While you have raging hormones?
Help, please 🙏🙏🙏.