u/Randohcalrissian

I’ve been married for 20 years when I first started dating my wife she was 26 when I was 32 after almost a year of dating she was diagnosed with advanced thyroid cancer. I know she wanted to marry me. She talked about it all the time so I propose to her with a sense that if I gave her a light at the end of the tunnel, she can make it through this cancer.

so after three years and two 9 hour cancer surgeries she was left with a 12 inch cut along her neck with staples.

I was there to feed her give her her special iodine free diet so she could take the radioactive iodine pills and have them be effective. I had to help her shower put her clothes on. They cut through major portions of her neck.

We were great for a few years and then she began drinking and excess.she would put away a bottle of wine a night, at least five days a week.

at first I just thought “well she survived cancer so she deserves to drink or to celebrate”but one year turns into two turn into 10 turn into 15.

I begged her to stop drinking many times if I refused to buy it for here when I did the shopping she would go out and buy it.

One time she threw up in the toilet and was full of blood. I got to the point where I was getting ready to threaten to divorce her if she didn’t stop drinking.i tried getting support from her family and they brushed it off.

during all this time, our marriage became loveless.

being raised by an abusive alcoholic mother and being sober myself the mood was never there.

last week. She told me that she wants to move out and move in with her father and she doesn’t want to be married to me anymore and she needs to find what makes her happy.

It hit me like a cannonball to the chest. She became so cold over the next few days. I wondered if there wasn’t a missing piece,so out of curiosity, I opened up her tablet and I find video chats that have been going on for months with three separate men online one of them with a wife and newborn baby.
the whole time she’s telling them how verbally abusive I am and how toxic and terrible I am and now she’s told this to her family to quote her “my cousin‘s husband’s on standby in case he gets crazy”

at this point, I just want this over with.

has anybody been through something like this? I’m trying to be as civil and kind to her as I can until she leaves this house and I’m free.
because I’m Scared of what she might do or say to get people to turn on me, including the police.
obviously we have to sort out the money. We have a shared checking account she wants off the lease. She wanted to have us both leave the apartment I said I’m keeping the apartment did you want me to be homeless?I

obviously she didn’t care whether I become homeless or not. The change has been so dramatic. I feel like I don’t even know this person.

This track really makes me appreciate my Bowers and Wilkins asw608.
Love the love smooth body bass in this track.

Yves.do you feel it like I touch.