u/Right_Difficulty_444

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hello so I’ve realized lately that my eating patterns are really weird I have extreme preferences and weird things I have to do to eat food like for some examples, I only like bread and extremely processed thick protein i cant stand real food at all I have no interest or like for it i cant eat eggs or anything im not interested in any fruit and I find them useless I don’t like veggies with a passion but I don’t mind their taste i just have extreme disinterest for anything that isn’t extremely processed or bread plus i love to tear things apart one by one and eat it like a cave person i hate large utensils and spoons i only like eating with tiny forks and my hands 2. i cant eat normal when someone eats my food i plan, i like planning to eat ice cream pints but when someone takes single bite i lose all interest and get soooo angry and cant eat in any routine i always have the urge to satisfy my stomach too i cant feel empty and I crave the feeling of constant satisfaction and fullness along with taste and my appetite never ends when its a food i like i finish all of stuff i like when it’s there so i have to portion things just for me or ill eat it all because i love it so much if i get cornbread i need to finish it all or portion it out and plan it same with cookies and stuff plus I never feel full when i eat real food only junk will fill me up and make me happy i hate real food. I thought this because my mom had adhd and i also have symptoms like her but I don’t have them all like i can daze off into spqce and hyperfocus not diagnosed tho

So baisically I started this weird diet of only fruits at 11 yrs because I was pretty overweight for my age at 173 5’3 and had finally realized I needed to improve my health. Fast forward when I’m 12 I start seeing adult diet gym content and OHHHH boyyyyyyyy…. it happened and I developed extreme ana at 132 5’4. At my lowest I had been under 100 and decided to do a semi recovery but then fell into a loop of relapsing and now I have Ana b/p at about 118-126? at 5’7.5 and 13. I need some help to stop failing at recovery when i start gaining some and I need my period back cause I want kids in the future and a healthy relationship with food but I’m too scared to anyone have any tips to cope with gain?

so I gained some weight from very bad anorexia during last school year, and the new school year is happening for now me right? I’ve noticed since it started I have been restricting harder, excercising more and I fell out of my binge habits but I still overeat a little and less often but make sure to excercise it all away or make a deficit for that, plus when I overeat it feels worse and worse no matter if it’s less than last time. I hate myself so much and I’m starting to get triggered by my family’s comments again- I NEED HELP I THINK IM DEVELOPING SOMETHING ELSE??

So for some context, a few years back in the middle of 5th grade I realised I had an unhealthy relationship with food unknowingly stuffing myself with sugary foods and things until I felt sick just for the dopamine- so I decided to weigh myself and figured out I was 176 pounds at 5’3 and I went on a diet of only fruits. Fast forward to summer I get down to about 136 pounds at 5’4, then the school year starts again and I start spiraling down ed Pinterest #the horrible rabbit hole of never ending misery and I start counting calories and restricting to about 1000 a day- once September hits I restrict a lot and stop counting calories only eating dinner at this point something had happened that got my mom to take away the scale the day of my cousins wedding cause she caught me weighing (I was 126 that day) I continue to restrict and only heavily binge on holiday’s or school breaks fast forward again it’s April I go to the doctor after some heavy binging to gain some weight for the doctor I had weighed 107.4 when I went so I definitely went under 100 lbs at some point in the school year. Now today I had gained about 15-20 real pounds I think of weight over the summer months because I’ve been in a b/r cycle and now I’m 5’7.5 inches I’m excited to go back to school this year to restrict easier and not be always able to go to the kitchen and by the time I’d get home from school I’ll just sleep instead of eating- but I think school is causing me to relapse I think because I’ve been eating less these past days and I don’t even feel hungry but I’m more irritable and tired and depressed. ok rant post bye now

I have had trouble with binging 2x to 3x a week for 5 months and I feel like I’m dying.. I eat till I’m sick and I just can’t stop I have gained like 45 pounds I just wish someone in my family would help me they see me do it so much but they just give me ugly looks or make snarky comments and I can’t take it anymore I feel like Im dying I feel like I can’t be heard and I’m in a hole no one is willing to pull me out of. the longest I’ve been able to withold binging is 1 1/2 weeks I feel like such a failure and a burden I feel like I’m too much to even talk to my friends.

A few weeks ago I binged so hard on chocolate I couldn’t breathe and my stomach ached like hell so I took the last drop of pepto we had left, and fell asleep in agony and woke up at like 4am crying and having so much trouble breathing I felt like I was going to faint- and thats how I basically fell asleep again. Pro tip don’t eat a whole tub of moose tracks ice cream, Twix, crackers and a bag of hugs. Love you all get better!

Context: I used to have an ed and I gained all my weight back by the bounce back effect (severe hunger)

So basically I used to have an restrictive ed prior to getting bed and I don’t suffer with severe hunger just I struggle to not turn to food when I’m sad or bored and I binge like I’m on autopilot. And whenever I tell someone about it and my context they just rub it off as severe hunger when it isn’t!!! I’m stressed about my weight and past binges and what I eat then I binge!!! UGHHH

This is a rant please don’t try to deny my OBVIOUS STRESS EATING. YOU ARE NOT ME.

ate a whole box of Reese’s bars… the last of a box of natures own fig bars and like 10 fun sized twix. honestly I’ve been binging for days but just burning it off to act like it’s normal

excercised all day and purged like 8 minutes after the binge. god please help me.

I was doing so well I had not binged for 5 days! 5 FULL DAYS. then I just binge, cookie dough and a big slice of a 3 layer cake and 6 soy eggs. I finished my ed recovery and gained all my weight back but I can’t stop binging HELP!!!

I am 14F and 5’6.5, ( typically sedentary to lightly active) please can someone give me the amount of calories I need a day for recovery?

I want to recover my period back as a young teen but my mind keeps convincing me I’m not skinny enough to recover yet, and it’s hard to accept that i have to get bigger, any advice? :(

Also, I really need immediate help to regain my period because of my ed I'm also losing hair like crazy and typically I grow 4 inches in a year but I haven’t grown at all since my ed so I’m scared

I'm scared to eat too high calorie but I know im gonna binge if I don't eat- please can someonehelp make my lunch with me???(like give me tips) plus I can't buy out food because I'm young.

I first started having problems when I had a restrictive eating disorder a few months ago, one day my mom had made cookies (Context: I had been only eating dinner for a straight month.) and she told me I could always have more than one and just be a kid. Fast forward months later, I begin having problems at one point I was binging almost every day and had gained about 15lbs in a month. Fast forward to current time I’m having insane urges to binge when im emotional even though I’m honoring my hunger cues, it happened today but I noticed this pattern and stopped at a point, the longest I have gone without binging in the past 4 months was 2 weeks. Please don’t criticize my writing skills lol- just joined Reddit today looking for advice.😭