I don't think I could ever become Christian, and that's okay.
I went to a coptic church recently and fell in love with it after researching their theology and traditions, but I don't think I could ever be baptized or be a part of it because I believe in different theology that just came naturally to me. (Agnostism, Pantheism, Omnism, Multiple Gods, etc) I believe in Christ and the trinity, but I believe in other Gods of other faiths too. I get my wisdom, philolosphy and knowledge from other faiths aside from Christianity too. I feel pulled to the othodox church because of the way THEY see God (unknown and unseeable) but I acknoledged that I cannot be baptized or take the sacraments because I'm not willing to throw away my beliefs or force myself to belive in different things that didn't come naturally.
I'll still go to the church sometimes and participate in the liturgy, but I'm okay with taking a blessing from the priest instead of the eucharist. I dunno. This orthodoxy stuff has been tormenting me for weeks and I can't make it stop.