u/SkittlesSupreme

I met a girl in 2024 and we clicked instantly. Everything felt so perfect and as we got to know each other more and told each other very personal things we got closer and we started dating 3 months after we met. She struggled with her mental health a lot and all in all she couldn't handle the distance (US & UK) I loved her so much that the distance didn't bother me as much, and I reassured her constantly that we would meet. As long as I had her I was okay. Of course I wanted to have her and touch her but that anticipation is what made it better for me. We broke up 2 months after dating and we have had on and off communication. Fast forward to now and yesterday I told her that I can't keep pretending that I'm okay just being her friend now because I am still very deeply in love with her. She said that she can't love someone in that way through a screen so maybe things would've been different if I lived in the UK and it's so hard dealing with that possibility. It kills me to imagine her with anyone else but I don't even have a choice. I want her in my life, but the only 2 options I have is to continue being her friend and engaging with her on a level that I know I'm not happy with or not have her in my life at all. I feel bad because I miss her and I want her in my life but it just hurts so much to be constantly reminded that things will never be how they used to be and it's dragging my mental health down so much. She seems to be over me even though her actions sometimes have suggested otherwise but I haven't been okay and I just desperately want her back. She said she didn't want us to drift apart but that's what happened. I thought I could be her friend and I tried to because I thought having her in my life was better than nothing at all but it's heartbreaking pain.

I'm trading both these sets from flee the facility.