When you're manic, do you ever think that what people call mania is...

...actually our natural, baseline, healthy state and that every "normal" person is just mildly depressed all the time? And that "bipolar disorder" is just a made up thing created by "normal" people to try to suppress and gaslight truly happy people? And that really you only get waves of depression and otherwise what others call your "mania" is how we are actually all meant to be? Aka truly, genuinely happy and joyful?

Trust me guys, I know this might sound toxic/triggering/etc of me to ask this. I'm not saying I *actually* believe this, I'm just saying this ALWAYS crosses my mind EVERY time I'm manic. like, I just feel SO good (not even "too" good like some people say!) and I am CONVINCED that that must be true haha! Anyone else have similar thoughts? Just curious. Again, please don't judge me for asking this, I just want to see if anyone else gets similar thoughts while manic, that I'm not the only one feeling this way.

edit: I'm actually manic right now lol. but don't worry, I'm still taking my meds and taking care of myself and NOT spending money lol. just thought I'd mention that to make it clear.

edit #2: i'm getting a lot of negative, judgmental, and fear-mongering (this one especially!) vibes in the comment section. if that continues I'll just delete this post lol. but seriously, enough with the fear-mongering. and don't try to act like your fear-mongering is just "being realistic" or "grounding me" or "being rational"; it's really not necessary! okay I'm going on a walk now haha, forget everything I said jeez I was just sharing a thought

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 2 days ago

Bought three different cotton blankets from Sferra, here are my thoughts after the first wash

I bought the Camilo, the Spinato, and the St. Moritz. They all felt amazing right out of the box so I kept them all even though I had planned to return one or two of them after feeling them.

Camilo: this one is by FAR my favorite. It's so luxurious, weighty, has a beautiful weave pattern, looks incredible. Stayed almost just as soft after the first wash.

Spinato: This one is also up there, but it lost a little more of it's original softness after the first wash. However, I think it just needs to be broken in with use. Overall has a very smooth feel. I LOVE the cream color it comes in, it looks simple and gorgeous. Also quite weighty but slightly less than the Camilo.

St. Moritz: I am highly, highly disappointed with this one. It is a brushed cotton blanket and after just the first wash (I washed and dried exactly as instructed on the label), it has completely lost its softness and feels rough and stiff. It now reminds me of those knot blankets you would make out of flannel from Walmart as a kid after some use. I honestly feel scammed by this one because Sferra said on a card that the blankets would get softer after washing. I honestly cannot believe how shitty this blanket feels now. Oh well.

That's all :)

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 2 days ago

Followed wash/dry instructions exactly on my new Sferra brushed cotton blanket and it came out super stiff and rough like cheap fleece from walmart

meant to say "flannel" in title not "fleece"

They said the blanket would get softer with every wash. I followed the instructions exactly, and was even extra careful with the drying process, I tumble dried it on "ultra low", air dried it for a while, and then finished drying it with an "air dry" cycle.

I am so disappointed. I feel scammed. Sferra is NOT cheap.

Is there anything I can do to restore the original softness or is the blanket fucked for good?

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 2 days ago

A customer service rep at Linoto told me you should never ever use vinegar as a softener for anything

He also said that you SHOULD use a regular fabric conditioner every now and then on your linen.

He also mentioned that you should NOT air dry your linen all the way, that you should tumble dry for a little first and *then* air dry the rest of the way.

This guy really sounded like he knew what he was talking about. Thoughts/opinions?

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 3 days ago

What is the SOFTEST natural fiber blanket money can buy that's not cashmere or silk?

I'm looking for a natural fiber blanket (not too thick) that is extremely soft to the touch, but not cashmere or silk. I've tried the 365 blanket from Muslin Comfort and it is nice but not as soft as I'd like it to be. I also have a linen sheet that is awesome but not really a blanket. Any general or specific product recommendations? Thanks!

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 6 days ago

Who is that ambient artist that made music dedicated to 9/11 a few years ago?

This is really bothering me! It's a guy, he made I think an EP or album dedicated to 9/11. It's so heartbreaking. You can hear subtle rumbling sounds of the towers falling in one of them, it's so sad. Does anyone remember this?? It's from quite recently, within the last 4 years maybe. Help!!!

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 10 days ago

Shaking new bedding like those ropes in the gym really helps loosen the fibers and make it softer

What the title says. I got a new linen sheet and a new muslin blanket and I have found that shaking them and making waves/ripples with the fabric (like how those people shake those ropes at the gym and make waves with it) for a few minutes every day REALLY does soften them up and loosen the fibers quite a bit. Just a little tip!

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 15 days ago

LL Bean Pima percale is way better than their Egyptian Percale...

I bought both sets because I was curious to compare the two. The 280TC Pima is significantly better than the 400TC Egyptian even though it costs less. It is much more soft and substantial. I have tried a LOT of different brands and this is by FAR the best percale I have ever tried. This and a Wamsutta Dream Zone set I recently got from ebay.

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Just letting you guys know in case you're looking for the best percale!

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 16 days ago

I LOVE BEBE

Recently got REALLY into her music. New Religion is sooooo addictive!! I also love "Visions" and her new amazing song $.H.I.T (this one hypes me the fuck up haha). Just thought I'd share!!

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 17 days ago

Just wanted to share that the 0.5-1.0g range is VERY therapeutic for me

So I've eaten a lot of shrooms in my life, haha. I've done large doses and microdoses. I don't really care for either anymore at this point in my life. Recently I started eating about 0.65g about once a week and my GOD have I been experiencing SO much healing, not only while they are in my system but the whole week after! I've genuinely healed deep-seated trauma, reconnected with loved ones, and felt so much more love and joy in life. Try it if you just need some good healing! All the love 🫶🏼

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 17 days ago

Unable to log back into deactivated account

Last night I deactivated my account and set it up so that it will reactivate in a week. I'd like to get back into it before then, but I cannot get back in. I've tried logging in on my phone, on a web browser, on an incognito tab, and resetting my password but nothing works. Can anyone help me?

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 18 days ago

I can clearly sense what anyone is thinking about me at any time no matter where they are

It could be positive, negative, or neutral. Is this something everyone experiences? I can either look at them or just picture them in my head and I know. I can *feel* it in my bones and heart. When it's positive, my heart feels full, and when it's negative, I feel horrible and paranoid and self-conscious. They don't have to say a single word out loud, I just *know*. Is this something everyone experiences or....???

Edit: it only works for people that I've been in the consciousness of. People who know me or know of me or have seen me. It doesn't work with people who have never seen or heard of my existence.

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 19 days ago
▲ 6 r/islam

Feel deeply called to Islam - any good introductory (modern) books?

I suddenly have been feeling this deep calling to Islam that I can't explain. There is a mosque near me that I might visit soon, I might be one of the only white people there but who cares? I see Islam as such a beautiful and truthful faith solely based off the little bit of research I have done into the Quran and I feel I will be welcomed into the community with love. Not to mention Islamic music and prayers - one of my favorite sounds in the world, nothing is like it, it sounds so divine.

In the mean time, do you guys have any ideas for introductory books (like books written about Islam for those new to it, not the Quran, but I'm sure I will get to reading the Quran eventually, I just feel a little intimidatd by it and don't want to jump straight into it).

Thank you you guys for your help and support. I know zero muslim people (most people here are Christian and I was raised Catholic but I simply do not believe in that faith and feel no connection to it. Nothing against it, just not for me I realized and that realization freed me so much...) which is why I'm coming to reddit for this. Any other feedback or suggestions for becoming Muslim would be appreciated.

Again, thank you, and much love to all of you.

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 23 days ago

Is it okay to use Calgon when washing nice sheets/blankets?

We have hard water which is what I think is keeping my muslin blanket kind of rough feeling, so I looked into installing a water softener but don't feel like paying for that right now. Is it okay to use Calgon? Particularly for muslin and cotton percale bedding

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 24 days ago

Best city for single gay men who love hiking/nature and the arts

31 years old for reference. Would like to meet someone and settle down in this city. Preferably somewhere that's more liberal but the nature part is most important (though I still want a city). Thank you for any recommendations!

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 25 days ago

Do bedding companies actually lie about thread count?

People on this subreddit make it seem bedding companies are advertising false thread counts left and right. How could this be the case considering it is illegal to do so? Isn't there anyone regulating or enforcing any of this?

edit: i'm on reddit so much that I forgot Google exists lol. i guess there is a loophole having to do with twisting weaker strands into one strand and counting each individual weak strand twisted into that primary strand. that's why you should look for "single ply"

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 26 days ago

Sometimes I don't know if I'm manic or just normal

Anyone else know what I'm talking about? Also, sometimes I feel like I don't actually have bipolar disorder -- that is, I feel like I *only* have depression which comes and goes, and otherwise I'm just a normal healthy happy person and not "manic". Idk. Just getting this off my chest. Aren't I allowed to just be happy, alive, energetic, passionate, and sociable sometimes?

It's like when I'm depressed, people wish I were happy, but then when I act happy and at peace, people think I might be manic and question whether or not I'm taking my meds. Like...I thought you wanted me to be happy? Which one is it??? So confused

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 27 days ago

My friends don't like any of my posts and it makes me feel like they're secretly judging me

Does anybody else know what I'm talking about?

(I know, first world problems, bla bla bla, but most of us in this world use Instagram and you have to admit it's weird when your friends consistently don't interact with your posts even though they're literally just photos of nature haha...maybe my photos are too boring for everyone? I find them to be quite beautiful though so idk 🤷🏼‍♀️ anyway I'm going to keep posting anyway tbh)

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 28 days ago
▲ 346 r/Bedding

sleeping under only two layered sheets is amazing

I'm a pretty hot sleeper during the summer. I just discovered that if you sleep with just two layered cotton sheets and nothing else, it feels amazing. It's completely different than the feeling of just being under one sheet. I layered a sateen sheet over a percale sheet and because they have a bunch of wrinkles and bumps (I don't iron my sheets, I prefer them wrinkly so they feel cooler to sleep under with all the air pockets), when they are on top of each other it creates this feeling of a fluffy blanket that's super breathable. And when the two fabrics rub together it feels incredible. I'm laying under them right now and I am in absolute heaven. I'm also high rn so that could be contributing but I swear this is objectively amazing haha

I'm curious to know what 3+ layered sheets would feel like, but these are the only two sheets I own haha

edit: TIP! fluff/pull/bunch the sheets all over and it will feel even more cozy and fluffy!

edit: was a bit cooler last night so I did three sheets since I got a new one and it was perfect 😍 definitely more of a blanket feel than two, sooo cozy

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u/Smart_Ad_5212 — 29 days ago