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I wasn’t ready for this one. For two days now, someone inside is feeling very awkward about wearing my breasts. They haven’t identified themselves, but I’m thinking it’s one of the littles, the young male protector, or someone I haven’t yet met. Possibly even the persecutor, who has been very busy for a couple of weeks keeping me from sleep.

So it’s not like I can pop my breasts off or something. This is contributing to the severe insomnia I’ve been experiencing (which put me inpatient last month). They aren’t large. I guess I could flatten them with a sports bra, but I don’t think it’s how they look that is the problem. I think it’s just having them. I can feel the part being aware of them. It’s weird.

Any insights?

So, how can thinking, “I notice that I am frightened/sad/angry/etc right now.” Help with overwhelm?

And my living area is a wreck. Luckily, no food left out, but it’s going to take a lot of time and effort to get things back in order.

Newly discovered OSDD system. I’ve been in and out of crisis, mostly in, for about a week now. It’s gotten to the point where I really can’t function. I have a hospital I used to go to for depressive episodes and the psychiatrist knows me, but I have no idea how they’d approach stabilizing a system in crisis.

I have a T, but I’m wondering if there are any dissociative disorder programs in Orlando for crisis stabilization.

If not, how do you get through a total parts war?

I’ve been taking 650mg of ferrous sulfate daily for a year, and my ferritin went from 60 to 70. Fer cryin out loud.

Haven’t heard from my sleep specialist yet. How do they get insurance to pay for infusions?

Just a big fat rant

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I’m a quiet, fairly solitary person. And now they tell me I’m never alone? That I never can be? Fuck that!

Call me selfish, call me immature, I DON’T WANT THIS!

I’ve cleansed and charged stones under various moon phases. What do we think about charging under a conjunction?

Not sure how to flair this.

Is it possible that members of my system didn’t know about this? Someone, and maybe several, have been in tears for a week. I’m OK, just exhausted from lack of sleep and constant upset. I’m going about my business, albeit gingerly, but my eyes are leaking almost constantly.

Am I even the host?

Very, very recently diagnosed. I saw my Primary for an imaging order today, and told her the news. She was so empathetic. It’s as if she has a diagnosed loved one or some other close, personal experience. It was very reassuring.

My diagnosis is IBS-C, but spasms are my biggest problem. Getting backed up or eating wrong things gives me painful spasms. When it started back in the ‘70s, Lomotil relaxed the spasms which fixed the dysmotility. Now it’s hyosciamine, but only as needed because that’s some heavy stuff.

I’m starting to wonder about my dysmotility specialist. He got me all the tests I needed and got me on some good meds, but he keeps mentioning senna even though I’ve told him it seizes me up and painfully so.

Now he wants me on Ozempic (I’m on metformin for insulin resistance) and I’m worried how it will affect the IBS. The metformin seems OK because it doesn’t constipate me.

Because I dislike experiencing reality. I’m lucky I never got into regular substance abuse. My life would be infinitely more complicated.

I just need to learn self soothing so these psychosomatic issues might ease up. There is no way to avoid stress. Life is stress. I’ve been avoiding stimulants for years because of insomnia and restless leg.

I don’t know. It’s less than a week since I was diagnosed with this one. I’m just a mess right now. I was already dealing with cptsd. This is cptsd on steroids.

I was diagnosed with DPDR Monday. My therapist has suspected DID for a long time and I filled out a dissociative disorder questionnaire. It showed definite DPDR and I’ve been working on that. Several walls came down and it’s emotionally overwhelming.

Called her for moral support today, which I almost never do, and we talked about alters. I’m usually pretty level-headed, but I’m a mess right now.

I was diagnosed with DPDR Monday. My therapist has suspected DID for a long time and I filled out a dissociative disorder questionnaire. It showed definite DPDR and I’ve been working on that.

Called her for moral support today, which I almost never do, and we started talking about alters. I’m usually pretty level-headed, but I’m a mess right now.

I’m 67/F, in the USA, and been in treatment for medication resistant depression since my teens (with multiple hospitalizations and one s/a). My long-time therapist has been suspecting c-ptsd and a dissociative disorder for a long time, and we did a questionnaire today that came back dpdr. I thought I knew at least a little about mental disorders, but I know nothing about dpdr. Maybe I’ve been repressing knowledge of it or maybe I ignored it because of the panic aspect, which I didn’t see as an issue for me.

My trauma was undefined and in infancy, and I grew up with a high functioning, but violent, autistic older brother. It was the ‘60s and autism was still relatively unknown. I think the name for it at the time was “child psychosis.” The depression hit in 4th grade and the first panic meltdown I remember was in 5th grade. I had one panic attack in my late teens and always shut down before it got that far afterward.

My dpdr symptoms were greatly reduced by the TMS I underwent for depression in 2021, but I still have plenty. I’m familiar with grounding, but that’s about all. I’m a rank beginner when it comes to understanding and coping with the disorder. My S/O asked how it was not diagnosed until my late 60s, and it was just then (today) I realized that I thought it was just part of the c-ptsd.

I’ll do some reading and watch some YouTube between now and my next therapy session.

Thanks for reading.

K