u/Substantial-Rock-581

I am 26F and I am scared to die. I have talked about it on here before but I feel like it helps to vent sometimes. I am always scared especially the closer I get to death (it feels like it’s coming any day) I don’t want my consciousnesses to cease to exist so badly. I am so scared everyday because I feel like we just stop existing that’s it and it makes everything else feel unreal/ flimsy. I wish I could describe this feeling better but truly I don’t know how to get this to go away or end b it I wish it was how it was when I was younger and I only thought about death at bedtime or on the occasion throughout the day. At the point it is always on the back of my head and my mind and I do try everything to distract myself and I try to make goals and stay focused I just really wish I didn’t have to die and im scared man I’m so scared it makes me sick like literally sick and brings me to tears .

I just had a cystoscopy Wednesday and I felt a lot better afterwards I took my pain medicine as prescribed until finished and but now it is Sunday and I’m stuck in the bathroom feeling terrible again. I’m also having issues with my clitoris I know this is stemming all with pelvic floor issues and I try to do my therapy on YouTube everyday. I am a 26F and I just feel like I can’t live like this anymore. I only ever drink water that’s it I do not allow myself to drink anything besides water and yet I’m still just having the worst problems. Idk what to do I feel like the doctors don’t know what to do. Ever since this pain in my urthera and clitoris has started my whole life has changed and never went back to normal I feel like I took the old days for granted and I’m just so sad and in pain all the time. I don’t want to leave the house I only go to work so I can still live and pay rent. I csnt enjoy life like this idk what to do

I 26F have been experiencing extreme bladder problems. It was hard for me to find proper care but I finally got with a urologist who has given me a cystoscopy today and let me know there was extreme irritation and some blood they told my mom (she took me to the procedure) that is 100% IC although I don’t go see him again until the 13th of July. I have only been drinking water for months as pop caffeine even juice anything that’s not water hurts me very badly. I’ve been doing pelvic floor exercises at home to try to stretch and relax those muscles in my body. I am scared that this is also other things such as IBS or endometriosis or even something else as I am also just always tired and having other symptoms. I am scared and I feel like my whole life and how I eat has to change. Knowing this last forever instead of being able to fix it really has me down. Does anyone have any advice on what I should do ?

I am a 26F and I have always been scared to die. I know it’s a natural process I have read stories of hospice patients and I have tried coming to terms with it. I just can’t I hope this gets better with age but it just seems to get worse. I can’t seem to live my life because I’m so scared to die. I tried getting therapy and talking to someone but I felt like they didn’t really understand or it wasn’t helping. The only thing that helps is distracting myself and the second I’m not distracted I start thinking about the fact that we’re gonna die. I want to be able to live my life and not be so scared all the time in every free moment I have. Is it normal to think about death on a constant basis everyday? Is something wrong with my brain? Any advice is welcomed

For context (26F) I have always been easily aroused or aroused at times when I didn’t want to be I have also climaxed without touching myself but thought this was normal. I have also had a history of re-occurring UTIs. This last UTI had given me painful clitoral swelling and this swelling and pain/ pressure or just noticeable feeling is constantly there. I have no UTI anymore and at this point I keep climaxing or feeling like I have to do bad that I just touch myself. Sometimes it feels worse sometimes it feels better after. This is accompanied by urinary issues such as pain and retention. I can’t keep living like this doctors aren’t helping and hospitals aren’t helping I am going to see a urogyno soon. Could this be PGAD?????

I have had re-occurring UTIs for awhile but this past UTi brought on a swelling of my clitoris that has not gone away even after the infection is gone. I have gone to the hospital multiple times they won’t do anything they don’t even look at the clitoris. I have an urology appointment on Thursday this is my second one the first one they put me on a daily macrobid. I also see the primary care again tomorrow. I cannot live like this I cry every day and look forward to just being asleep so I don’t have to deal with the pain. I don’t know what to do and I’m scared is going to be like this forever I’m so scared and feel so dismissed by my doctors. I also cannot empty my bladder fully I have terrible urine retention in a way I’ve never had with a UTi before. Something is seriously wrong ! Any advice I will take it ! So far I’m doing pelvic floor exercises I am trying coconut oil I take probiotics I take cranberry supplements I drink lots of water all day I don’t drink caffeine pop or any sugar. What do I do I can’t live like this anymore

My clitoris has been swollen and reddish purplish since my last UTI. I get UTI’s often and take a daily macrobid already. I have a primary care appoiment (again) tomorrow and an urology appoiment on Thursday. I have been to the hospital but they just prescribe a lidocaine ointment said there was no immediate medical issue and sent me home. I am in serious serous clitoral pain and although is doesn’t necessarily hurt to pee I cannot pee fully and I have urgency without going or little streams. I have started sitting in the bathroom 30+ minutes trying to pee. I really need help I can’t live like this. I cry everyday and k feel so dismissed I look forward to being asleep because atleast I can’t feel the pain. I don’t eat as often work is miserable and I have to force myself through it or I won’t survive.i just don’t know what to do I’m at a loss I will take any advice out there. Currently I am doing pelvic floor ex therapy at home daily, using coconut oil on my belly even as well, taking my antibiotic as well as probiotic and vitamins such as krill oil women’s multi and cranberry supplement.

I have had re-occurring UTIs for awhile but this past UTi brought on a swelling of my clitoris that has not gone away even after the infection is gone. I have gone to the hospital multiple times they won’t do anything they don’t even look at the clitoris. I have an urology appointment on Thursday this is my second one the first one they put me on a daily macrobid. I also see the primary care again tomorrow. I cannot live like this I cry every day and look forward to just being asleep so I don’t have to deal with the pain. I don’t know what to do and I’m scared is going to be like this forever I’m so scared and feel so dismissed by my doctors. I also cannot empty my bladder fully I have terrible urine retention in a way I’ve never had with a UTi before. Something is seriously wrong ! Any advice I will take it ! So far I’m doing pelvic floor exercises I am trying coconut oil I take probiotics I take cranberry supplements I drink lots of water all day I don’t drink caffeine pop or any sugar. What do I do I can’t live like this anymore

I have had constant UTI’s but this past time my clitoris swole up and never went back. It’s been weeks of a swollen clitoris the hospital can’t help me they gyno isn’t doing much and I just keep making new appointments. I have another primary care appointment tomorrow and an urology appointment on Thursday.I cry everyday and look for any type of relief. I would do anything not to feel like this and I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m stuck suffering forever and I’m so scared. I don’t want to live in this pain anymore I’m scared to die but all I do is look forward to falling asleep so I don’t have to deal with this anymore.

I feel crazy and at a loss. I have had multiple hospital trips so many doctor trips gyno trips and urology trips and nothing is helping. I have had UTIs on and off for a long time now and it’s been an ongoing struggle. This past time it caused my clitoral gland to swell up and become painful and or uncomfortable and it will not go away. It is sensitive and pulsing the uti pain is gone but this pain is consistent. I also cannot empty my bladder fully in a way that has never happened before with a uti. It’s been over a month the uti has gone away and came back the hospital will not help urology doesn’t know what to do and I can’t get answers from gyno. I have been tested for everything treated for any uti or infections I’m on a daily macrobid to keep utis away I take cranberry supplements I take a probiotic I drink lots of water. I can’t keep living my life like this honestly and the hospital cannot help me the last time I was there they gave me lidocaine to put on it. I just don’t know what do can anyone help.