u/Such_Palpitation3755

Hey everybody,

I had terrible insomnia for years, I never had good sleep, but the last 7 years were terrible, and it got worse and worse and worse.

To the point that I only slept like 2-3 and I was mostly just "resting" in bed, mostly reading or just daydreaming. You could talk to me at nearly any point. After 1.5 years of this phase, there wasn't much left of me.

- Lost a ton of weight
- Constant pressure headaches
- Brain fog
- Terrible gut issue
- I was cramping all the time, and I was super stiff to the point that in the morning I walked on my toes because normal standing would hurt/stretch to much.
- I was completely lost and had these short phases where my body would just shut down.

In summary, it was a nightamre.

I went to the doc and he prescribed me amitriptyline (a mild antidepressant that is often used for sleep in low doses), which worked wonders. I finally slept "normaly" sort of and my gut improved. I gained 12 kg( around 25 lbs) but my sleep didn't feel refreshing.

After 1-2 years of using it my doctor said that I should reduce it, I went from 25mg to 20mg to 10mg and my sleep quality went to zero again.

I lost weight and felt terrible....

I went to a Hans Zimmer concered when I noticed I had some multivitamins that I never used. I just popped 2 and after 2-3 hours I felt "calm".

2-3 days I felt tired for the first time in 7 years. I wondering what this feeling even is?!

After 4-5 I started sleeping again because amitriptyline (and low B-Vitamins) cause bad REM-Phases + taking B6 causes vivid dreams.

The first few days I had the most exhausting and vivid dreams I ever had ! I woke and felt tired from sleeping. I felt into sort of a delrium. After 2 weeks I recovered.

What happend?

It turned out I have low B12 since childhood, and in my teens everybody forgot about it and it never got treated. Also doctors told me: Yeah your B12 is low, you should stop being Vegan. I told them I eat meat every day, but they didnt believe me.

Also I didn't know how bad low B12 can be for the body. I started to take B12 only, and after 4 weeks I felt invincible UNTIL I hit the wall again because you need all of the B-Vitamins. (To keep it simple they work together, also there are co-factors etc. )

I recommend taking a vitamin B-complex (I take a spray because my gut can't absorb it). Overall, my sleeping quality went from 1/10 to mostly 8/10.

I take amitriptyline only every few days (because I don't trust myself yet) but I also forget to take it sometimes (which before would never happen, even when I was drunk or busy).

Hey everybody,

I had terrible insomnia for years, I never had good sleep, but the last 7 years were terrible, and it got worse and worse and worse.

To the point that I only slept like 2-3 and I was mostly just "resting" in bed, mostly reading or just daydreaming. You could talk to me at nearly any point. After 1.5 years of this phase, there wasn't much left of me.

- Lost a ton of weight
- Constant pressure headaches
- Brain fog
- Terrible gut issue
- I was cramping all the time, and I was super stiff to the point that in the morning I walked on my toes because normal standing would hurt/stretch to much.
- I was completely lost and had these short phases where my body would just shut down.

In summary, it was a nightamre.

I went to the doc and he prescribed me amitriptyline (a mild antidepressant that is often used for sleep in low doses), which worked wonders. I finally slept "normaly" sort of and my gut improved. I gained 12 kg( around 25 lbs) but my sleep didn't feel refreshing.

After 1-2 years of using it my doctor said that I should reduce it, I went from 25mg to 20mg to 10mg and my sleep quality went to zero again.

I lost weight and felt terrible....

I went to a Hans Zimmer concered when I noticed I had some multivitamins that I never used. I just popped 2 and after 2-3 hours I felt "calm".

2-3 days I felt tired for the first time in 7 years. I wondering what this feeling even is?!

After 4-5 I started sleeping again because amitriptyline (and low B-Vitamins) cause bad REM-Phases + taking B6 causes vivid dreams.

The first few days I had the most exhausting and vivid dreams I ever had ! I woke and felt tired from sleeping. I felt into sort of a delrium. After 2 weeks I recovered.

What happend?

It turned out I have low B12 since childhood, and in my teens everybody forgot about it and it never got treated. Also doctors told me: Yeah your B12 is low, you should stop being Vegan. I told them I eat meat every day, but they didnt believe me.

Also I didn't know how bad low B12 can be for the body. I started to take B12 only, and after 4 weeks I felt invincible UNTIL I hit the wall again because you need all of the B-Vitamins. (To keep it simple they work together, also there are co-factors etc. )

I recommend taking a vitamin B-complex (I take a spray because my gut can't absorb it). Overall, my sleeping quality went from 1/10 to mostly 8/10.

I take amitriptyline only every few days (because I don't trust myself yet) but I also forget to take it sometimes (which before would never happen, even when I was drunk or busy).

Hey everybody,

while writting this post, I finished the book "One Up on Wall Street" by Peter Lynch 10 min ago. It is by far the best finance book I ever read.

I read some Seth Klarman, Benjamin Graham, and Kostolany, but this book resonated with me. In this post I won't write a real summary because you should read it yourself.

Summaries don't represent how awesome and well written the book is. It's the same when I give you a 5-minute summary of Lord of the Rings and say: " Thats it, you dont need to see the movie anymore".

The book, despite being nearly 40 years old, is still 100% actual, it blew my mind. The problems they had 50-60 years ago we still have today. War, crises, crashes, hysteria, ship are stucked due to an embargo or war etc. etc. nothing really changed.

What I love about this book:

My favorite quote: People rather admit to smoking crack than to admit that they are not long-term investors! - I nearly died laughing reading this, 100% true.

Think longterm: A reason why Boomers outperform so many is because they hold it 10-20 years and they dont care. My stepdad bought 50k worth of Alphabet stocks for around 110€.

The art of keeping it simple: Focus on the fundamentals and keep it simple. I see so many posts that are overcomplicated and simple but good post get downvoted.

Hysteria and Emotions: 100 years - 50 years, and today nothing really changed.

What I learned:

I realized that I was a much better investor (10 years ago) than today, despite knowing much more ! I caught myself in this "fast trading business". I used to hold stocks for 5-10 years... now its max. 2 years.

I got influenced by too many "opinions." Example: I bought AMD at 80€ and made post about it.

The comments:

1/3 AMD = Advanced Money Destroyer
1/3 You DD sucks, just because you are a gamer and everybody is buying AMD and their knew products look good (+ sales are looking good) doesnt mean the company will go up !
1/3 You should sell and buy XYZ.

And I sold at 160€.. 2 bagger yes but still !

Same went with Intel, bought at 24€ and sold at 18€...

Its my fault !

I realized what I know and what I dont know and Iam leaving this carousel of insanity and sticking to the books! Focusing just on your performance and your choices is the best thing you can do! Just be honest with yourself!

Fun fact: Paul Bilzerian, gets named in the book many know his son Dan Bilzerian...

Overall 10/10 book would recommend.

Hallo zusammen,

ich sehe immer mehr Leute, die unglücklich sind und sich "gefangen" fühlen obwohl wir noch nie so frei in der Gestaltung unseres Lebens sein konnten wie jetzt.

Ich habe mir viele Geschichten angehört und es scheint oft daran zu liegen, dass die einfach nicht handeln. Nur weil man frei sein kann, heißt es nicht, dass einem alles auf dem Serviertteller gebracht wird. Man muss dafür Ackern !

Gleichzeitig wird selten Verantwortung für sein Dasein übernommen. Ich bin unglücklich oder nicht erfolgreich, WEIL *ein externes Ereignis passiert ist*. Ich höre sehr selten nur noch, "weil ich es verkackt habe".

Das Leben passiert und jeder hat sein Päckchen zu tragen! Manche hatten mehr Glück, andere weniger. Heißt aber nicht, dass es unmöglich ist. Ich hatte weniger Glück und trotzdem bin ich weit genommen (zumindest weit genug, dass ich zufrieden bin).

Ich meine, am Ende des Tages ist es dein Leben. Man kann 20 Jahre damit verbringen, sich in Trauer, Wut, Neid etc. zu wälzen, oder man macht das Beste draus mit dem, was man hat, und damit kann man sehr weit kommen, wenn man will !

Gleichzeitig merke ich, dass das Mitgefühl füreinander immer geringer wird füreinander. Jeder denkt gefühlt immer mehr an sich bzw. erwartet, dass die Welt sich an ihn anpasst! Ich habe XYZ alle müssen lernen, damit umzugehen.

Diese "Crab in the Bucket" Mentalität ist teilweise brutal. Wir haben teilweise eine Kultur, die sich gegenseitig untenhält, statt uns gegenseitig zu fördern.

Mein Kollege hat sich letztens ein Haus gekauft und wir haben über den Preis gesprochen und wie viel er von seinen Eltern bekommen hat, und am Ende hat er mich gebeten, es für mich zu behalten, weil damit die meisten nicht umgehen konnten. Sowas finde ich extrem schade!

Sogar ich hatte Freunde, die mir erklärten das ich alles geschenkt bekomme habe im Leben obwohl die 1 zu 1 wissen wie ich aufgewachsen bin.... Die sagen es einfach um es zu sagen, auch meine eigne Familie empfindet zum teil Neid.

Ich kann sowas nicht nachvollziehen und sowas verletzt mich immer sehr ! Weil ich wirklich jedem sein Erfolg gönne egal ob er es alleine geschafft hat oder mithilfe seiner Eltern !

Hey everybody,

I made several posts here about my journey with SIBO and low B12.

In summary: I had all the terrible B12 deficiency symptoms and strong SIBO symptoms, I had all of them. My SIBO came back after treatment 6 years ago and my low B12 was never treated since childhood.

To just give the worst:

• Brutal insomnia (I slept 3h to 4h at most)
• Brain fog (on bad days I did not even know my name)
• Skinny and malnourished (I eat a lot)
• Terrible gut problems
• Muscle pain and stiffness (in the morning I was on tippy toes because standing was too painful due to cramps and stiffness)

First treatment phase: I just took B12 and a multivitamin for 6 weeks and it already changed my life. I felt like SIBO was gone and all the symptoms improved a lot. I could sleep, eat and train with close to no symptoms. My guts did a crazy restructuring but overall everything became much better.

After 6 weeks I started to hit a wall again and everything went back to normal. I discovered cofactors (the main one is B9). I also bought magnesium, potassium and a ton of other stuff.

I got better but I never had that high like I had after 4 to 6 weeks, BUT overall I did much better! NO DOUBT.

2nd treatment phase:

I did the classic SIBO treatment Xifaxan plus PGGH plus Allimed 450mg. I took PGGH plus Xifaxan for 2 weeks and Allimed for 6 weeks and of course I followed a diet. I stopped everything else because it can feed the SIBO bacteria. Die off was okay and overall it improved everything!

3rd treatment phase (right now):

I was still skinny but my guts felt inflamed or irritated (it is normal after such treatment). So I kept a diet for 4 weeks and it did not improve. I also checked my bloodwork (with B12). Everything is normal and Holo TC is in range, not perfect but overall solid. (Which is crazy "low" considering that I supplemented a high dose of 1000uq to 2000uq for nearly 6 months).

After that I started slowly with Vitamin B Complex spray. (No more tablets because my guts cannot absorb them due to a gene defect and/or my guts still being inflamed).

It worked wonders again, my sleep went from 5 out of 10 to 10 out of 10. I slept like a baby and felt much better.

I also started introducing enzymes but I have only been taking them for 2 days and I cannot say much now.

Overall I am 8 months into treatment and it worked wonders. I am still figuring stuff out and it will take me a while but I am in a much much much better shape!

My current supplement stack:

Prokinetika 2x at night 1 in the morning (8/10)

PHGG 1x spoon in the morning (7/10)

Omega 3 1x with a meal (cannot tell, too soon)

B Complex Spray (10/10)

Magnesium Citrate (7/10)

Magnesium Bisglycinate (7/10)

Enzymes (cannot tell, too soon)

Potassium (9/10) I really underestimated it

My goal is to slowly reduce it to 1 to 3 supplements but time will tell!

If you have questions ask me anything.

I also made a lot of detailed posts of my journey and a summary of it linked with older posts.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ibs/comments/1qh30sm/3_month_b12_update_my_expierence_guide_ibs_and/

Hey everybody,

I made several posts here about my journey with SIBO and low B12.

In summary: I had all the terrible B12 deficiency symptoms and strong SIBO symptoms, I had all of them. My SIBO came back after treatment 6 years ago and my low B12 was never treated since childhood.

To just give the worst:

• Brutal insomnia (I slept 3h to 4h at most)
• Brain fog (on bad days I did not even know my name)
• Skinny and malnourished (I eat a lot)
• Terrible gut problems
• Muscle pain and stiffness (in the morning I was on tippy toes because standing was too painful due to cramps and stiffness)

First treatment phase: I just took B12 and a multivitamin for 6 weeks and it already changed my life. I felt like SIBO was gone and all the symptoms improved a lot. I could sleep, eat and train with close to no symptoms. My guts did a crazy restructuring but overall everything became much better.

After 6 weeks I started to hit a wall again and everything went back to normal. I discovered cofactors (the main one is B9). I also bought magnesium, potassium and a ton of other stuff.

I got better but I never had that high like I had after 4 to 6 weeks, BUT overall I did much better! NO DOUBT.

2nd treatment phase:

I did the classic SIBO treatment Xifaxan plus PGGH plus Allimed 450mg. I took PGGH plus Xifaxan for 2 weeks and Allimed for 6 weeks and of course I followed a diet. I stopped everything else because it can feed the SIBO bacteria. Die off was okay and overall it improved everything!

3rd treatment phase (right now):

I was still skinny but my guts felt inflamed or irritated (it is normal after such treatment). So I kept a diet for 4 weeks and it did not improve. I also checked my bloodwork (with B12). Everything is normal and Holo TC is in range, not perfect but overall solid. (Which is crazy "low" considering that I supplemented a high dose of 1000uq to 2000uq for nearly 6 months).

After that I started slowly with Vitamin B Complex spray. (No more tablets because my guts cannot absorb them due to a gene defect and/or my guts still being inflamed).

It worked wonders again, my sleep went from 5 out of 10 to 10 out of 10. I slept like a baby and felt much better.

I also started introducing enzymes but I have only been taking them for 2 days and I cannot say much now.

Overall I am 8 months into treatment and it worked wonders. I am still figuring stuff out and it will take me a while but I am in a much much much better shape!

My current supplement stack:

Prokinetika 2x at night 1 in the morning (8/10)

PGGH 1x spoon in the morning (7/10)

Omega 3 1x with a meal (cannot tell, too soon)

B Complex Spray (10/10)

Magnesium Citrate (7/10)

Magnesium Bisglycinate (7/10)

Enzymes (cannot tell, too soon)

Potassium (9/10) I really underestimated it

My goal is to slowly reduce it to 1 to 3 supplements but time will tell!

If you have questions ask me anything.

I also made a lot of detailed posts of my journey and a summary of it linked with older posts.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ibs/comments/1qh30sm/3_month_b12_update_my_expierence_guide_ibs_and/

Hey everybody,

I made several posts here about my journey with SIBO and low B12.

In summary: I had all the terrible B12 deficiency symptoms and strong SIBO symptoms, I had all of them. My SIBO came back after treatment 6 years ago and my low B12 was never treated since childhood.

To just give the worst:

• Brutal insomnia (I slept 3h to 4h at most)
• Brain fog (on bad days I did not even know my name)
• Skinny and malnourished (I eat a lot)
• Terrible gut problems
• Muscle pain and stiffness (in the morning I was on tippy toes because standing was too painful due to cramps and stiffness)

First treatment phase: I just took B12 and a multivitamin for 6 weeks and it already changed my life. I felt like SIBO was gone and all the symptoms improved a lot. I could sleep, eat and train with close to no symptoms. My guts did a crazy restructuring but overall everything became much better.

After 6 weeks I started to hit a wall again and everything went back to normal. I discovered cofactors (the main one is B9). I also bought magnesium, potassium and a ton of other stuff.

I got better but I never had that high like I had after 4 to 6 weeks, BUT overall I did much better! NO DOUBT.

2nd treatment phase:

I did the classic SIBO treatment Xifaxan plus PGGH plus Allimed 450mg. I took PGGH plus Xifaxan for 2 weeks and Allimed for 6 weeks and of course I followed a diet. I stopped everything else because it can feed the SIBO bacteria. Die off was okay and overall it improved everything!

3rd treatment phase (right now):

I was still skinny but my guts felt inflamed or irritated (it is normal after such treatment). So I kept a diet for 4 weeks and it did not improve. I also checked my bloodwork (with B12). Everything is normal and Holo TC is in range, not perfect but overall solid. (Which is crazy "low" considering that I supplemented a high dose of 1000uq to 2000uq for nearly 6 months).

After that I started slowly with Vitamin B Complex spray. (No more tablets because my guts cannot absorb them due to a gene defect and/or my guts still being inflamed).

It worked wonders again, my sleep went from 5 out of 10 to 10 out of 10. I slept like a baby and felt much better.

I also started introducing enzymes but I have only been taking them for 2 days and I cannot say much now.

Overall I am 8 months into treatment and it worked wonders. I am still figuring stuff out and it will take me a while but I am in a much much much better shape!

My current supplement stack:

Prokinetika 2x at night 1 in the morning (8/10)

PGGH 1x spoon in the morning (7/10)

Omega 3 1x with a meal (cannot tell, too soon)

B Complex Spray (10/10)

Magnesium Citrate (7/10)

Magnesium Bisglycinate (7/10)

Enzymes (cannot tell, too soon)

Potassium (9/10) I really underestimated it

My goal is to slowly reduce it to 1 to 3 supplements but time will tell!

If you have questions ask me anything.

I also made a lot of detailed posts of my journey and a summary of it linked with older posts.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ibs/comments/1qh30sm/3_month_b12_update_my_expierence_guide_ibs_and/

Hey everybody,

My toughts about the sentence: I understand the company/it in my area of confidence

You read a few books, bought the S&P 500, gained some experience in the market and you feel ready to buy your first stock.

How to find hidden gems?

Stay in your area of confidence: "Yes I understand the company," this must be the most told lie in investing. I see here and in private, people explaining to me that they truly understand Alphabet, uranium, car companies, gold, AMD, Nvidia etc.

A master of everything is a master of nothing.

There is nothing wrong with investing in big companies as they are often a safe bet, but pretending that you truly understand them is just a lie.

Example AI:

If I ask traders if they understand AI, most will say yes. So my follow up question is: Did your portfolio (at least the AI part) go up 400% to 600%?

If the answer is no, then something went wrong. Either they didnt understand AI truly or they dont know how to invest.

Because four years ago most tech companies (big ones) started to invest into AI, two years ago these companies announced that they would build data centers.

If you truly understood how AI works, all you need to do is buy the companies that build or produce parts for these data centers and thats it. RAM, storage, chips etc. No special hidden companies, just the already established companies.

Its that simple and somehow I dont know one person who did that. I myself have expertise in AI (it was part of my degree and I developed AI projects for my company) and I didnt see that because I am not an expert in this field. Sure some people bought them few month ago but they already went "viral" and it had nothing to do with their knowledge about it.

Even Warren Buffett doesnt invest in everything because he doesnt understand everything. There is nothing wrong with jumping on the hype train, but pretending that you truly understand the company is a lie.

I dont want to attack anyone but these Posts like:

Is Company XYZ truely underrated ?!

A stock went up 50% should I invest now ?

I bought comapny XYZ and it dropped 10% should I sell now ?

Bashing companys or roasting peoples ideas just because the stock price went down a lot and you are angry at them.

If you understand the business you wouldnt ask others...

This has nothing to do with Investing and should be deleted.

Cheers I had a blast here, time to say goodbye, wish you the best

Hey everybody,

My toughts about the sentence: I understand the company/it in my area of confidence

You read a few books, bought the S&P 500, gained some experience in the market and you feel ready to buy your first stock.

How to find hidden gems?

Stay in your area of confidence: "Yes I understand the company," this must be the most told lie in investing. I see here and in private, people explaining to me that they truly understand Alphabet, uranium, car companies, gold, AMD, Nvidia etc.

A master of everything is a master of nothing.

There is nothing wrong with investing in big companies as they are often a safe bet, but pretending that you truly understand them is just a lie.

Example AI:

If I ask traders if they understand AI, most will say yes. So my follow up question is: Did your portfolio (at least the AI part) go up 400% to 600%?

If the answer is no, then something went wrong. Either they didnt understand AI truly or they dont know how to invest.

Because four years ago most tech companies (big ones) started to invest into AI, two years ago these companies announced that they would build data centers.

If you truly understood how AI works, all you need to do is buy the companies that build or produce parts for these data centers and thats it. RAM, storage, chips etc. No special hidden companies, just the already established companies.

Its that simple and somehow I dont know one person who did that. I myself have expertise in AI (it was part of my degree and I developed AI projects for my company) and I didnt see that because I am not an expert in this field. Sure some people bought them few month ago but they already went "viral" and it had nothing to do with their knowledge about it.

Even Warren Buffett doesnt invest in everything because he doesnt understand everything. There is nothing wrong with jumping on the hype train, but pretending that you truly understand the company is a lie.

I dont want to attack anyone but these Posts like:

Is Company XYZ truely underrated ?!

A stock went up 50% should I invest now ?

I bought comapny XYZ and it dropped 10% should I sell now ?

Bashing companys or roasting peoples ideas just because the stock price went down a lot and you are angry at them.

If you understand the business you wouldnt ask others...

This has nothing to do with Value Investing and should be deleted.

Cheers I had a blast here, time to say goodbye, wish you the best

Hey everybody,

I wanted to make a post about how important it is to not overcomplicate things.

In today's society we get bombarded with information on how to do things the "right way". Its a nonstop fire hydrant of information, and maybe a few drops really apply to you and your situation.

At the same time, there are 1000s of coaches who make you feel insecure in the first place, just to sell you something that will fill out the gap !

They give you excuses why you are in this position and create a whole system that just makes you feel better (for a while). They want you to change everything except focusing on the basics.

My friends:

My friends group is a prime example of what benefits you have focusing on the basics instead of the details. If you see us at the gym or talk to us in private, you would think we are the most degenerate group there is. You can't behave more "ret*red" than that.

When we grill, we do shots and max pull ups and dips (shirtless or in underwear; don't ask why) ! We talk about if f*cking a robot is *gay*. You really cant go lower than that.

At the same time, I have a M.Sc. in Eng. + won few science prizes, and I have one of the "lower" educations in our group. Half of them have a PhD and are currently applying for jobs at Apple, Alphabet, Amazon, etc. ! I earn 87k € per year and I am the lowest of my group.

What do we do ?

Talk is cheap:

We sure talk shit, but at the same time we hustle. We are all very goal-oriented, and we work really hard for it.

I see so many making plans and talking about how bright the future will be at the same time they do nothing to improve it. They spend rather 10 hours talking about it instead of 30 min working on it.

Stop complaining:

Reaching your goals is hard, but crying about it won't change anything except that you are wasting your time. If you want to cry, that's fine. Engineering broke me, a few times. I call my mom or my girlfriend, cry for 5 min, suck it up and move forward.

Make excuses:

Reaching your goals,is never straightforward. You want to run a marathon? After 3 months of prep. Your knee starts hurting, and you stop because its to "hard".

No matter what you do, there will always be something that goes wrong, and instead of giving up, you should be able to pass through it.

Hoping for the perfect start:

I see people prepare for 6 months to start something because they want to have a perfect start. Maybe they start a little better, but you lost 6 months of doing it, which will always outweigh it.

Or they never start because they hope the world will align for them...

People did the same stuff before the internet and before you, no worries you will figure it out with time, you ONLY just need to want it really bad and thats it.

See the bigger picture:

If something should change in your life you need to want and stick to it. I have the same Gf since Iam 19 (today 35) and I had so many chances to cheat on her. DMs, Booty Calls, on holidays with the boys.

To be faithfull all I had to do is just say: No

Its maybe hard in the moment but it pay offs longterm and its not hard if you want a longterm relationsship ! Always ask yourself is the decision you make now helping you reaching the goal!

Conculision:

Just do it, if I can do it, you can too! Just push trough it, it will be hard it will be brutal but it will be worth it !

The most important thing is being honest to yourself ! I see so many people lie just to justify something. Nobody is perfect and thats okay !

Bonus:

Failing is okay, I failed so many times, I founded 5x times and only once it worked for 2 years until Corona hit and I lost it. 2 Years work gone. I tried to countless times wining a science prize and I failed !

I tried to lift xyz and failed and thats okay. You just say: okay and keep going. Sometimes you will reach your goals and sometimes you wont. Some are easy some are hard but the victory tastes always sweet !

Good luck.

Hallo zusammen,

ich versuche, ein guter Mensch zu sein, und habe Freunde, die in "Not" geraten sind, nie aufgegeben, aber mittlerweile wird mir das alles zu viel.

Beispiele:

Mein bester Freund aus der Schulzeit:

Mein bester Freund aus der Schulzeit entwickelte Schizophrenie (Gott sei Dank, recht „mild“). Die ersten Jahre war er sehr schwer, jedoch habe ich ihn nie aufgegeben und immer unterstützt. Seine Familie unterstützte ihn auch in jeder Hinsicht (finanziell und Emotional)

Über die Jahre ist zwar sehr stabil geworden, aber auch sehr „bequem“: Er rührt für nichts seinen finger sondern erwartet, dass alle ihn sofort retten.

Wenn der mich anruft will der immer 4 Std. telefonieren und ist genervt, wenn es nicht klappt. Gleichzeit sind die Gespräche 95% er 5% ich.
(Wir reden nicht wenn der in akuter Psychose ist oder sowas. Wichtig ist hier zu unterscheiden, dass Menschen mit Schizo mit Therapie und Medikamenten durch aus "normal" sein können)

In der Zeit jammert er nur wie keiner dem helfen will und alle sich von dem abwenden (was nicht stimmt), auf jeden "Lösungsvorschlag" reagiert der immer bissig.

Beispiel:
Er: Ich würde so gerne mit anderen Sport machen (in Berlin) ?

Ich: Es gibt doch viele Online Gruppen. Schau, habe paar rausgesucht !

Er: Ne sowas mache ich nicht, die müssen mich entdecken. (5 Minuten später: Oh Mann, ich bin so einsam, wie finde ich jemanden mit dem ich Sport machen kann, ich würde alles tun? usw. usw. usw. )

Trainingspartner:

Während unserer Sportlerzeit waren wir sehr sehr enge Trainingspartner und unternahmen sehr viel, auch ihn hat es mental erwischt. Der ist eine sehr liebe Seele und wirklich sehr intelligent, aber er schickt mir jeden Tag 20-40 Reels über die letzten 3 Jahre.

Sogar wenn ich ihn anrufe, schickt er mir während wir telefonieren "Reels" wenn ich mal nicht drauf reagiere, schickt er mir 10 YouTube-Links mit 1 Std. videos über Whats App....

"Kollegen":

Auf meiner Weltreise lernte ich so 2-3 Dudes kennen und irgendwie werde ich die nicht los. Die spammen mich immer zu, dass die mich besuchen wollen. An sich sind die ganz "normal" aber charakterlich sind wir komplett verschieden, wir leben in komplett anderen Welten, und ich finde, wir haben nichts gemeinsam.

Wir treffen uns 1-2 Jahr aber irgendwie ist es immer super anstrengend, weil die einfach vieles gerne unnötig kompliziert machen.

Dazu kommen noch:

Ich helfe ständig einem Ex-Nachbarn bei Jobinterviews und Anträgen, Ehekrisen-Berater, helfe immer bei Umzügen etc. etc.

Abschließend:

An sich bin ich auch ein "Character" und Leute haben mich auch oft unterstützt und ich weiß, wie schwer es sein kann. Gleichzeitig habe ich auch wirklich alles getan, damit es mir besser geht! Natürlich kann man vieles nicht heilen und bleibt limitiert, aber egal wie schlecht es einem geht, man kann seine Lage verbessern. (Step by step) Vielleicht nicht heute, oder morgen oder in einem Monat. Wir reden von einem langen Horizont, aber in vielen Fällen ist es möglich !

Mir fehlt jedoch das Atmen mittlerweile, ich habe selber mein "Päckchen" und ich bin müde davon.

Ich will keinen vor den Kopf stoßen, aber ich will es reduzieren auf ein Minimum. Viele schauen auch so artig zu mir auf, und ich habe ungewollt eine "Abhängigkeit" von mir geschaffen.

Hallo zusammen,

das Unternehmen, in dem ich arbeite, ist in der Insolvenz und wird gerade „restrukturiert“. Das klappt aber nicht so gut.

70 % der Kunden sind weg und sehr viele Partner sind weggebrochen. Wenn wir uns vorher schon nicht halten konnten, werden wir es jetzt erst recht nicht schaffen.

Wir sind ein Mittelstandsunternehmen, und wirklich viel optimieren kann man da nicht mehr, ohne dass wichtige Prozesse wegfallen.

Problem:

Der CEO ist in einer „Traumwelt“ verschwunden, der glaubt an alte Stärke und dass alles gut wird. Er spricht allen Mut zu und erzählt, dass es keine Änderungen geben wird, was Jobs angeht. Er hat die Insolvent als Restrukturierung verkauft.

Das ist natürlich völlig gelogen. Wir rennen nicht, sondern wir rasen gerade völlig gegen die Wand.

Warum ich das weiß und andere nicht? Ich bin recht eng mit der Führung verbunden und weiß dadurch mehr als der "normale" Mitarbeiter.

Die Führung selber ist da sehr gespalten: Die eine Hälfte glaubt an ein Wunder, die andere Hälfte nicht und hat gekündigt (ich bin auch bald weg, so wie ein paar absolute Maschinen, die eigentlich in der Situation unverzichtbar sind).

Ich wurde natürlich gebeten, diese "Informationen" für mich zu behalten.

Meine Gedanken:

Auf der einen Seite war ich dort immer sehr professionell und habe, trotz viel Scheiße, die passiert ist, immer alles vernünftig umgesetzt. Ich bin blieb unparteiisch, ich habe immer im sinne der Firma gehandelt, vieles über mich ergehen lassen bzw. selber gelöst etc.

Auf der anderen Seite, sind das Kollegen, deren Existenz zerstört wird. Es wird wahrscheinlich daraus hinauslaufen, dass Rettungsversuche als gescheitert gelten und alle von heute auf morgen vor die Tür gesetzt werden.

Das Schlimmste ist, dass etwa 80% das gar nichts wissen, 15% etwas ahnen und nur 5% wissen was wirklich abgeht.

Ich versuche, es schon mehreren durch die Blume zu sagen, aber es kommt da nichts an.

Mir ist bewusst, dass es nicht meine Aufgabe nicht ist (bin ja nur ein Mitarbeiter) und mit meiner "Aktion" die letzte Chance auf Hoffnung sabotiere, jedoch muss auch sich bewusst sein, dass niemand so ein Unternehmen retten will. Investorengespräche (Stand jetzt) gelten alle als gescheitert.

Wir sprechen nur noch von Wochen in denn ein Wunder passieren muss und auch wenn teile gekauft werden, fliegt mindestens 50% weg, keiner braucht doppelt Belegung...

Hallo zusammen,

mittlerweile geht mir "Gratismut" ziemlich auf den Sack.

Definition: Ist eine Haltung oder Handlung, die moralische Überlegenheit oder Mut vortäuscht, ohne dabei Risiken, Gefahren oder negative Konsequenzen für den Handelnden mit sich zu bringen.

Beispiele:
- Liken von Bildern, damit Kinder in Afrika nicht mehr hungern
- Im Sozialstudium eine Vorlesung halten, in der man auf Missstände von Frauen hinweist
- Petition zur Stärkung der Rechte von Bienen online Unterschreibt

An sich befürworte ich immer jegliche Unterstützung, wenn sie für einen guten Zweck ist, jedoch kommt da oftmals ein Rattenschwanz an Sachen mit sich, die ich wirklich hasse.

1. Moralische Überlegenheit

Ich kenne wirklich viele die es nur machen, um sich moralisch dem anderen gegenüber besser zu fühlen. Sie nehmen 1x an einer Demo teil und sind damit, besser als alle anderen. Gleichzeitig werden die schnell aggressiv, wenn man sagt: Ahh um so zu leben wie du muss ich nur 1x an einer Demo teilnehmen und mich volllaufen lassen, ansonsten gibt es ja kein Unterschied.

2. Selbstdarstellung

Viele Nutzen, es um sich selber darzustellen, und lösen nicht das Problem, ansatzweise zu lösen. Beispiel: In der Uni (es war Corona), hat ein Prof. 500 Rosen gekauft (auf Kosten des Steuerzahlers), um auf die Gewalt gegenüber Frauen aufmerksam zu machen. Totale Selbstinszenierung, wie er eine Rose zu diesen 499 dazugelegt hat und anschließend niederkniet + eine Rede vor 3 Leuten (konnte ja keiner kommen, war ja Lockdown).

Ich habe es damals stark kritisiert und daraufhin bekam ich eine E-Mail, ob ich dagegen wäre und was man hätte besser machen können.

Ich schlug vor, vielleicht die 500 € + an ein Frauenhaus zu spenden und vielleicht, statt sich selber reden zu hören, die Geschichten der Frauen anzuhören!

Das kam so gut an, dass ich anschließend fast von der Uni geworfen wurde.

3. Narrenfreiheit und Faulheit

Ich war auf einer Klima-Demo, ich habe mein Soll erfüllt, ich kann jetzt so viel ich will Flugzeug fliegen. Es entsteht sehr schnell „Fingerpointing“. Ich habe zum Beispiel einen M. Sc. in Verfahrenstechnik mit dem Schwerpunkt Energie und Umwelttechnik. Wird oftmals wie das, was ich tue, von solchen Leuten stark belächelt, könnte ich deutlich mehr machen, wenn ich XYZ machen würde (was oftmals utopisch ist).

Auf die frage was die machen würden und warum die nicht einfach das studieren was ich studiere und es anschließend besser machen, reagieren die meistens sehr "aggro".

Hey everybody,

I had terrible imposter syndrome, everything I did, I made sure that I was at the top, otherwise I felt like a useless weak link. It doesn't matter; it could be work, it could be the gym, mobile games, etc. I always made sure that I am at the top.

The root of it is my family. I am the youngest, and despite being some sort of "smart," they always make sure that I feel like an idiot. Everybody had different reasons, but everybody did that to me.

My mother: To have control over me

My father: To feel better

My sister: Out of jealousy

They had a common sort of "enemy", the "idiot" they can all laugh at in unity. To give an example, I was competing at math comps. but have close to no memory because we never talk about it, no one in my family outside my mother, my father, and my sister knew about it. At the same time, everybody knew I couldn't write good and have ADHD. My parents friend knew it but no one knew that I competing in math comps...

Also, they had very strong opinions, which can be mistaken as knowledge when you are a kid/teen.

At the same time, when I turned 30, my mother gave me "my diagnosis" in which you can read that yes, I can't write, and yes, I have ADHD, but I also have a high IQ....

I never knew that....

My turning point was when my company, I work at filed for bankruptcy. I developed a similar relationship with them like with my family. I did everything for them and got nothing in return, I did a ton of extra work to save the company and they laughed at me, until it worked...

I wanted a fresh start and wanted to do it on my own terms, I did everything on my own without any help. (Usually my family got involved and gave me a lot of "opinions" on how to do things). I declined everything this time (they were really shocked and made sure to explain to me that "my way" is very wrong and I wont find a job quickly).

After 2 months I found my dream job and I also made sure that I wouldn't undersell myself, I earn 50% more now, and for the first time in my live, I feel confident in my work and my abilities.

For the first time at 33, I felt like an idependent adult!

Hey everybody,

I had terrible imposter syndrome, everything I did, I made sure that I was at the top, otherwise I felt like a useless weak link. It doesn't matter; it could be work, it could be the gym, mobile games, etc. I always made sure that I am at the top.

The root of it is my family. I am the youngest, and despite being some sort of "smart," they always make sure that I feel like an idiot. Everybody had different reasons, but everybody did that to me.

My mother: To have control over me

My father: To feel better

My sister: Out of jealousy

They had a common sort of "enemy", the "idiot" they can all laugh at in unity. To give an example, I was competing at math comps. but have close to no memory because we never talk about it, no one in my family outside my mother, my father, and my sister knew about it. At the same time, everybody knew I couldn't write good and have ADHD. My parents friend knew it but no one knew that I competing in math comps...

Also, they had very strong opinions, which can be mistaken as knowledge when you are a kid/teen.

At the same time, when I turned 30, my mother gave me "my diagnosis" in which you can read that yes, I can't write, and yes, I have ADHD, but I also have a high IQ....

I never knew that....

My turning point was when my company, I work at filed for bankruptcy. I developed a similar relationship with them like with my family. I did everything for them and got nothing in return, I did a ton of extra work to save the company and they laughed at me, until it worked...

I wanted a fresh start and wanted to do it on my own terms, I did everything on my own without any help. (Usually my family got involved and gave me a lot of "opinions" on how to do things). I declined everything this time (they were really shocked and made sure to explain to me that "my way" is very wrong and I wont find a job quickly).

After 2 months I found my dream job and I also made sure that I wouldn't undersell myself, I earn 50% more now, and for the first time in my live, I feel confident in my work and my abilities.

For the first time at 33, I felt like an idependent adult!