u/Tachytwo

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Context: 4 months ago I felt kinda like I should get out of my regular slump of scrolling and after I broke up with my boyfriend and so I decided to go out drinking. I only had 2 drinks but had the best time ever(this was my first time) and so a couple weeks later when I decided to do it again I really didint have fun before it felt like the shackles of social pressure was off of me but this time it was worse than ever. Afterwards I had a mini mental breakdown and decided I wanted to divorce myself from worldly attachments.

Its been about a week since then ive been meditating but I cant figure out if the changes happening to me are because im becoming more at peace or because Im just becoming depressed.

Ive noticed:

i used to feel like doing "girly stuff " to feel good

But i no longer feel this way

Its now much easier to sit down and work

I find myself not really having emotions

My libido which was previously Extreemly high has been dead and I almost feel like im forcing myself

I hate socializing and avoid people at every chance possible.

Is this a normal result from meditation or should I try treating depression before indulging in meditation any responses are appreciated

Thank you in advance

Context: 4 months ago I felt kinda like I should get out of my regular slump of scrolling and after I broke up with my boyfriend and so I decided to go out drinking. I only had 2 drinks but had the best time ever(this was my first time) and so a couple weeks later when I decided to do it again I really didint have fun before it felt like the shackles of social pressure was off of me but this time it was worse than ever. Afterwards I had a mini mental breakdown and decided I wanted to divorce myself from worldly attachments.

Its been about a week since then ive been meditating but I cant figure out if the changes happening to me are because im becoming more at peace or because Im just becoming depressed.

Ive noticed:

i used to feel like doing "girly stuff " to feel good

But i no longer feel this way

Its now much easier to sit down and work

I find myself not really having emotions

My libido which was previously Extreemly high has been dead and I almost feel like im forcing myself

I hate socializing and avoid people at every chance possible.

Is this a normal result from meditation or should I try treating depression before indulging in meditation any responses are appreciated

Thank you in advance

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So for the last couple months ive been having this itch to be with people particularly clubbing

I just turned 18 and went to my first club and it was great and I enjoyed it soo much the week after I went I just had all the motivation to do my school stuff every assignment and id even do it before going out to make sure

The problem is because if my controlling mother and her moeny problems I cant go out and ive been having just no motivation for anything I have no motivation to do any of my hobbies and the only thing that makes me feel better is my anti depressants but they only last for a couple hours ive tried organizing meetups with friends but they flake on me and on dating apps ppl ghost me

All of this disappointment leave me super unmotivated to do anything during the week cause I just spend my weekend scrolling and my hobbies feel empty or I cant do them cause my home life isnt good I feel like I got a taste of freedom and it was taken away from me.

I thought it was the alcohol but I tried drinking by myself and it was terrible I just felt sleepy and sad so it wansent the drinks

What do I do about this and how do I become more introverted?

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So for the last couple months ive been having this itch to be with people particularly clubbing

I just turned 18 and went to my first club and it was great and I enjoyed it soo much the week after I went I just had all the motivation to do my school stuff every assignment and id even do it before going out to make sure

The problem is because if my controlling mother and her moeny problems I cant go out and ive been having just no motivation for anything I have no motivation to do any of my hobbies and the only thing that makes me feel better is my anti depressants but they only last for a couple hours ive tried organizing meetups with friends but they flake on me and on dating apps ppl ghost me

All of this disappointment leave me super unmotivated to do anything during the week cause I just spend my weekend scrolling and my hobbies feel empty or I cant do them cause my home life isnt good I feel like I got a taste of freedom and it was taken away from me.

I thought it was the alcohol but I tried drinking by myself and it was terrible I just felt sleepy and sad so it wansent the drinks

What do I do about this and how do I become more introverted?

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So for the last couple months ive been having this itch to be with people particularly clubbing

I just turned 18 and went to my first club and it was great and I enjoyed it soo much the week after I went I just had all the motivation to do my school stuff every assignment and id even do it before going out to make sure

The problem is because if my controlling mother and her moeny problems I cant go out and ive been having just no motivation for anything I have no motivation to do any of my hobbies and the only thing that makes me feel better is my anti depressants but they only last for a couple hours ive tried organizing meetups with friends but they flake on me and on dating apps ppl ghost me

All of this disappointment leave me super unmotivated to do anything during the week cause I just spend my weekend scrolling and my hobbies feel empty or I cant do them cause my home life isnt good I feel like I got a taste of freedom and it was taken away from me.

I thought it was the alcohol but I tried drinking by myself and it was terrible I just felt sleepy and sad so it wansent the drinks

What do I do about this and how do I become more introverted?

So for the last couple months ive been having this itch to be with people particularly clubbing

I just turned 18 and went to my first club and it was great and I enjoyed it soo much the week after I went I just had all the motivation to do my school stuff every assignment and id even do it before going out to make sure

The problem is because if my controlling mother and her moeny problems I cant go out and ive been having just no motivation for anything I have no motivation to do any of my hobbies and the only thing that makes me feel better is my anti depressants but they only last for a couple hours ive tried organizing meetups with friends but they flake on me and on dating apps ppl ghost me

All of this disappointment leave me super unmotivated to do anything during the week cause I just spend my weekend scrolling and my hobbies feel empty or I cant do them cause my home life isnt good I feel like I got a taste of freedom and it was taken away from me.

I thought it was the alcohol but I tried drinking by myself and it was terrible I just felt sleepy and sad so it wansent the drinks

What do I do about this and how do I become more introverted?

Ive been taking lexamil for about a year now and while it was alot more effective than steriline, because I take it consistently around 12 every day everyday around 12 I feel this wierd lowering in mood that tells me I havent taken my meds.

I have really low self esteem form this period then a wired high whare I feel great before it mellow out and disappears after a few hours

Is this normal and should I call my doctor

The lows have been giving me really bad body dysmorphia so im worried

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Okay so i 18M bisexual have been thinking about actually getting with a girl sexually and I think because of my particular set of traumas im not really afraid of women just more have an extremely unhealthy relationship with approaching them in a romantic or even platonic manner.

Ive tried everything to fix this i even have loads of female friends but those relationships alone stress me out. And im not a virgin ive had sex with a man before. If that helps just not women

Im hoping this experience will breakdown some of the social barriers ,like me not feeling like im forcing them cause im paying for it also helps with consent im trying to face my fear but I feel like getting into a real relationship is too big a step and very unethical

(side note if i do this ill make sure they are profesionals who know what they are doing paid fairly not exploited ect)

Have any of yall done this what has been your experience? I really hope none of this is against the rules.

Okay so i 18M bisexual have been thinking about actually getting with a girl sexually and I think because of my particular set of traumas im not really afraid of women just more have an extremely unhealthy relationship with approaching them in a romantic or even platonic manner.

Ive tried everything to fix this i even have loads of female friends but those relationships alone stress me out. And im not a virgin ive had sex with a man before. If that helps

Im hoping this experience will breakdown some of the social barriers ,like me not feeling like im forcing them cause im paying for it also helps with consent

(side note if i do this ill make sure they are profesionals who know what they are doing paid fairly not exploited ect)

Have any of yall done this what has been your experience? I really hope none of this is against the rules.

Ive been having the problem whare im like 18 and an 40 or 30 year old man messages me and I dont wanna just leave em on read or block them especially cause they somtimes send me their albums with dick pics but I also dont wanna end up in a situation whare this person thinks im into them