u/Throw_away144

I've always been wondering this but never got the chance to ask as I didn't want the parents or child to feel mocked.

I'll start by saying that I'm a 28F, and right now, I'm not an easy person to deal with because of my mental health.

I've been a bigger girl since I was 17, and after 11 years of struggling, I finally decided to get help with my eating disorder. Unfortunately, as a result, I've developed another eating disorder. I'm now scared to eat, and when I do manage to eat something, I don't look forward to it. I cry and feel guilty at the thought of eating. My friend of 15 years has been begging me to eat and has been genuinely worried about me.

This whole week has been hellish. I've been picking fights with him, nitpicking at him, and generally taking my frustration out on him. He kept asking me if I was on my period and insisting that something was wrong. Eventually, we got into another argument.

I told him it wasn't that, and we both kept insisting that we were right. Unfortunately, it ended with us insulting each other. He called me a lost cause, and I called him arrogant. Eventually, though, we made up and tried to move on from it.

While I was out shopping, another friend video-called me and noticed that I was upset. I told her what had happened, and she got involved and messaged him, which unfortunately caused even more issues between us. He blocked her and unfriended me.

Within those 24 hours, I started bleeding. I hadn't realised my period was coming because my cycles are irregular, but for some reason, my friend has always been surprisingly good at predicting when it's about to happen.

I feel awful because, looking back, I should have considered that my hormones might have been affecting me. I started crying over something that happened in 2017 and picking fights with him over it, which is completely unlike how I would normally react to something so old.

After that, I went to the gym and then to the doctor. I couldn't sleep for two days because I was having horrible stomach pain. No matter what position I tried to lie in, I was still in pain and crying. Eventually, I vomited on the bathroom floor and just broke down crying.

I was so scared, and everything seemed to hit me at once: the arguments, the lack of energy, the mental exhaustion, and my eating disorder. I genuinely felt like I was going crazy.

There are also things that I'm terrible at explaining because I'm autistic, so please forgive me if some parts of this don't come across clearly or if something seems confusing. I'm not trying to excuse my behaviour; I'm just trying to explain what was happening to me at the time. I'm genuinely happy to receive advice and perspective.

I also want to make it clear that my friend (33M) isn't a bad person. I genuinely hope that we can work through this and speak again. He's my best friend, and I care about him very deeply. I know that I have things to apologise for, and I intend to apologise to him when we're able to talk again.

Let me start by saying i don't have only male friends, i don't centre myself around men or think I'm better than other women. I'm hyperfeminine but I've never put down other women and girls for being tom boys.

Yesterday I was in this live talking about where many men go wrong in the process of dating/finding women to date and i said "I don't believe men like women, they like the idea of a woman but they don't want a woman. They want a mommy to mother them and not challenge them. They want 50/50 but also demand traditional women because they are cheap, they want 'a traditional woman' without being a traditional man. You can't go after a big fish when your a small fry" I feel like that was respectful and to the point.

At first everything was fine and most of the panel was being reasonable and agreeing with me. Some men joined that said some crazy things like how we bleed because our bodies can't control our wickedness. They were drop but some time after things went downhill dramatically, the live started to attract these far left people and fake feminists.

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It went from a genuine discussion about relationships and how to respect women to misanderists. There was this lady popping off in the comments and talking about how dangerous men and i agreed at first. I mentioned that I have 6 nieces and she went off on what I can only describe as "insane far left misanderistic hate speech" this woman was 50, crying and screaming into the mic and ended it by saying "your trying to devalue me by asking if I'm married! I'M BETTER THAN MEN ! I HAVE A MAN AND HIS DICK IS HUGE!" I felt genuinely embarrassed and it felt like a teenager.

than because she was on the panel more people like her started to pour in. Than someone said "if it's a male, abort it." That was the final straw for me and i disagreed and they attacked me and called me a pick me and insulted me one man called me a pick me for being against what was said. I said "this isn't about making men better as people or holding them accountable. This is a bunch of far left 'feminists' and their 'nice guy' lapdog speading hate and hiding it behind activism"

the truth i am a feminist, I'm just not a moden feminist, I'm a classic one that believes "if you wanna work, work. If you wanna stay home, stay home." I don't believe men are evil i believe any man can be dangerous and stranger danger. I just don't believe in stripping away someone's humanity to the point of "if it's male, abort it" if your demeaning other women your not a feminist and if you hate men your not a feminist, your a misanderist and a misogynist all in one.

I'm 27 and my mum is 63 and I'm embarrassed to be seen with her more than usual lately. She's always been a plain Jane kind of person. She's never really worn makeup or dresses but it feels like after my parents separated in 2018 that she's given up completely.

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She looks messy and says its embarrassing for her to be seen with me dressing how i do (cottagecore, lolita and princess style) i told her that I'm putting effort into my appearance and that I'm more embarrassed of her than she'll ever be of me. To say I'm her polar opposite would be on understatement. It annoys me when she pulls my skirt down and ruins my outfits, it annoys me when I'm shopping for makeup or looking at shoes and she rushes me and it annoys me that she pushes me when I'm taking pictures.

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I'm the youngest of 4 and I moved out at 21 because I got sick of her controlling everything. I painted my kitchen cabinets lilac and added heart handles, she complains CONSTANTLY. She has zero social awareness. When we go to restaurants she embarrasses me by mentioning my weight than tries to make me feel guilty. Even my 17 year old niece said it's a weird comment to say to our waitress.

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The other day we were at a garden store and someone was helping me get soil into the car and she made a big fuss out of moving the car up and completely humiliated me. I had to apologise to the worker. She acts like a child and tomorrow I'm going a friend's birthday dinner with her family (our mums are friends) I'm worried she'll embarrass me or show up looking messy.

We met when we were 15 and 20 and I suppose he's always been my first "love" the issue is my feelings are getting the best of me. I used to be a party girl but 6 years ago I decided to be celibate, at that point I was kind of forced to stop being a party girl thanks to covid. After that it just stuck and I got used to it and I actually started to like it. I don't feel those feelings for men anymore. Non of my past relationships worked and I felt fine I suppose. At most I think i tolerated them for fun because I've never loved a man as much as I love this man. To be honest it made me that i never loved or even liked my exes or crushes.

I always wanted a family and I tried but I couldn't picture it with any of them. But when I picture a family with me as a wife and mother i always picture him and I feel strange when I think of him. I want to know what his skin feels like against mine, I've never wanted someone so badly, I want to grow old together and watch our grandchildren play.

When I think of him with other women my heart hurts and my mother told me I'd know how i feel about him if I picture him with someone and I felt angry and hurt i started crying, I think that maybe I've always felt that way but I was too young to understand my feelings for him, I knew i had a crush but I didn't think he was my person.. when I look at him I feel like I've found my soulmate and I'm sick for days at first I thought i had a summer flu because I kept burning up and I feel like I'm burning alive.

We're now 27 and 33. I just want to be as close to him as possible 🩷 I never cared about how men saw me or my reputation until him. He's the only man who's opinion matters to me and he's never made fun of my fashion or demanded I change. I just wanna lay on his chest with his arms around me as we cuddle 🩷

is this really want love feels like?

His aunt says I'm perfect for him and his family likes me and my family likes him and everyone acts like we're a couple, I always blush when they tell me "what are you waiting for? Go get your man!" My heart feels like it may burst.

The styles I wear are: lolita, jirai kei, ballerinacore, and cottagecore dresses? I need cute accessories and shoes too.🩷 thank you 😊

It's so hard for me to believe that 3 months ago I was 30st (420 pounds) and now I'm 3st lighter. It's slowly going down and I'm so proud of myself and i won't be stopping until I'm a size 8. Thank god for help and it's not "cheating" I still have to eat right and move, isn't as simple as a magic wand. I couldn't do it without the help of my amazing support system like my pharmacy and my mum. I don't always want to move and than I remember how painful it is to be fat and tbh i even listen to toxic motivation video and it genuinely helps me stay focused. I love going on walks and I even started to wear makeup again. Obviously I'm still big but I feel so happy knowing that after July I'll be joining a gym because I'm starting to get over my shyness and anxiety. I can't wait to meet people and make friends and be part of society again 🩷

It all started because I reached out to reddit and amazing people saw i needed help.

Okay so the other day I accidentally said i love you to my best friend and he said he loved me too I can't really tell if he has feelings for me.

I don't feel well, I feel sick and my chest hurts, my head spins, my cheeks burn up. I had the flu this week but this feels different, Warmer and breathless. The thing is i can't understand this feeling or even it's a sickness. I just know I feel like that I feel like I've been on a roller coaster.The odd thing is I described how I feel to mum and she said I'm in love so I asked a few others and they all said love feel like butterflies and that I'm burning up because I'm always blushing. I've been in love before and I've never felt like this. It makes me wonder if I've ever truly loved or cared for my exes and crushes like I do with my feelings for him. When my mum asked how I'd feel if vance (my friend) ever met someone else and see if that thought upset me or not than I'd have my answer and my answer hurt me because I felt my tick in anger, as odd as it sounds..

i think that would be it for me, i don't think I'd want another person. I'd be fine with adoption or ivf and being a single parent, I don't think I'd ever bare the thought of laying down with another man. I'd just live my life. Mum said that it's odd he still isn't married or has children than said if your both single at the same time why not get together? My other friends say that i should do something spontaneous like join him on his next visit to Europe and all i wanna know is: if this is what love feels like than why does it hurt?

I can't describe my feelings and thoughts for him. I want his arms around me, i want his baby, I want to wake up every day with him, I want his kisses and his time and I want us to grow old together. I want to marry this man, I want to be his wife and greet him after work. I want him so badly that it hurts i don't want a big wedding, I just want us to get married and live our lives together. I've never felt this way, I've never wanted someone so badly. My heart feels like it will burst from my chest when I think of him.