u/Time_Physics_6557

Starting a new internship next week at manufacturing plant. I'll be in the office and on the plant floor so I figured I would get a mix of business casual clothing and more practical stuff just in case.

I went to the Carhartt store and another store that was supposed to carry women's workwear. In both of them, the women's workwear section was dwarfed by the men's section which was kind of expected.

Out of all the women's clothing, there was no petite sizing and no size 0 or smaller, which I could've managed with a regular inseam. I tried the size 2 and it was cartoonishly large. On top of that, literally none of the women's jeans were 100% cotton either. Okay fine, I guess I'll find something online.

So after wasting an hour and a half, I was in the mall anyways, so I figured I would get business casual pants. NOTHING FIT. Nobody carries petite size 0 slacks or chinos. So after wasting 4 hours of my time shopping today, I guess I'll try to find something at Kohl's or TJ Maxx tomorrow 🤡 I should've taken care of this a while ago

Whenever an 18 or 19 year old has the audacity to complain about anything, there will always be someone telling them to jUsT moVe oUt. Maybe it was easy back in their day but I genuinely have no idea how anyone is moving out at 18 now without having substantial savings built up or living with 5 slob roommates.

I'm moving out for the first time at 20, almost 21, and it's only possible for me because I'm getting a housing stipend from the company I'll be working for. My rent with a $700 stipend applied is the same rent my parents paid in the 2000s for a bigger space. Maybe young adults are allowed to vent without some out of touch dickhead telling them to force themselves to live paycheck to paycheck in this economy

I haven't celebrated my birthday since I was 12. Nobody outside of my immediate family cared so I didn't bother planning anything. I actively hated my birthdays from like 13-18 and would just spend all day wallowing, now I'm more indifferent. But I kind of figured I should do something for my 21st since it's a big milestone.

I'll be moving to basically the Canadian border next week so I was thinking about a Montreal trip. It's been something my friend group has been talking about for a while, several of them are staying in the area I'm from and it's still day trip distance from them so it's kinda feasible.

But I feel like such an egomaniacal cunt for even thinking about it. My brain keeps telling me that nobody gives a shit at all so why even bother. I feel so guilty, I feel that asking my friends to spend money on anything relating to me would be such a waste of money. I don't even feel important enough to ask them to bar hop with me or something. I usually don't harbor these feelings for any other circumstance, it's just my birthday that makes me feel so fucking miserable

I was a huge tomboy growing up and I wish I wasn't that way because I think it partially led to my social development being stunted in adulthood. I never learned how to dress nicely, never learned how to do makeup, never learned how to talk to guys, never had a close female friend group. Now I feel way behind because I'm still figuring that stuff out in my 20s. Every time I try to dress really feminine or do my makeup, it doesn't feel right. Doing my makeup feels like putting lipstick on a pig, and every time I try to get better at it I just end up feeling worse.

I think what feels the worst is that I've genuinely never had a romantic interaction with a guy, and I also don't have any close female friends. I don't have anyone to have girls nights out with or do anything stereotypically girly with. I straight up wonder what's wrong with me because when I try to make friends I feel like nobody likes me. I had a golden opportunity with having two roommates my freshman year of college, and what happened was me being excluded from both of their friend groups. I was the only person who never got invited to any of their group chats or social outings, while they would talk about them right in front of me.

Maybe I'm being paranoid but I have medical testing coming up as a part of a pre-employment screening. It's at a large manufacturing company and they're going to check my blood work, EKG, vitals, hearing, and vision. Then I have to do a full physical exam.

I wouldn't say I have any health problems that interfere with my daily life, but I am technically underweight and have low iron and wear prescription glasses. That's about the extent of my issues. Would this be enough to medically disqualify me from working in an industrial environment? I'm terrified that they'll think I'm unqualified because I'm a smaller woman with these issues. Sorry if this is dumb as shit, I was just curious if anyone has experience with this because my anxiety is through the roof

(also it's just an internship)