u/Umbreon_is_the_Best

maybe once i’m buried

six feet below the ever changing earth

as my body begins to rot

as my flesh begins to fall 

cleanly from my ivory bones.

maybe once i have made my final mistake

and left my final mark 

without fear of future failings.

maybe once the roots of flowers grow

through the still partings between my ribs,

i can finally be beautiful.

maybe once i’m buried

six feet below the ever changing earth

as my body begins to rot

as my flesh begins to fall 

cleanly from my ivory bones.

maybe once i have made my final mistake

and left my final mark 

without fear of future failings.

maybe once the roots of flowers grow

through the still partings between my ribs,

i can finally be beautiful.

maybe once i’m buried

six feet below the ever changing earth

as my body begins to rot

as my flesh begins to fall 

cleanly from my ivory bones.

maybe once i have made my final mistake

and left my final mark 

without fear of future failings.

maybe once the roots of flowers grow

through the still partings between my ribs,

i can finally be beautiful.

sorry this post will sound pick me but i am dying and tbh i dont really care bc chances are no one reads it. my whole fucking life ive been told that ohh looks don’t matter you shouldn’t obsess over them, and in many ways and for many years i agreed. But holy shit what i would give to have someone develop a crush on me, what i would give to not hate how i look every time i look in the mirror, what i would give to be someone’s gay awakening, what i would give to have someone see me in the street and be thinking abt me for months, what i would give to not have a fucking face that looks like a mix of a third grader and jd vance. and i know that like in the future im probably going to find love, but i know for a fact that i will not be the one that gets asked, i know for a fact that i will never be the one that gets crushed on, i know that i will always be the poet and never the muse (in the words of the great Elio Mei), I know that this is a fucked way of thinking about things and that “true love” is more important but god i don’t want a love if i know that to get it i begged (in the words of the incredible olivia rodrigo), i don’t want to live my life always chasing for people while knowing that i don’t deserve any of their love. And before yall come at me saying that “oh you can’t be that ugly” or “everyone has different tastes in guys”, ik that but i also know that it is true that i am objectively less attractive then most people and most people aren’t attractive enough to have what i am wishing so desperately for and im being selfish and vain and in the end the chances are that i will never be able to experience any of it and that fucking kills me. sorry for long rant, hopefully no one sees this i just wanted to put it somewhere, hope my friends don’t find ts bc it sounds pick me af

This is after I phone banked so I may be set as spam but idk why it’s happening at a set time every day. iPhone 16 most recent ios and just wondering if anyone can fix

1. The sharpest lives
2. Mama
3. sleep
4. i don’t love you
5. the end. or house of wolves (i can’t choose ;-;)

like if they could reach the same dopamine levels every time and the brain reacted the same way to that amount of dopamine. would everything give them an insane dopamine response? what would the side effects be?

idk i love mag but feel like i never get value from his ult bc people either jump out of way, shield, or tank it head on and i have nothing to follow up with. pls give tips (obv i will ult c&d when possible but like otherwise)

i will constantly switch between wanting wider shoulders and bigger pecs and arms, to wanting to look like i have never touched a weight, and very little in between and it pmosm

why choose NYT, I see most posts here from progressives that should really be pushing against the NYT and it’s consistent zionist messaging as well as hit pieces on people like platner. I am genuinely confused. (to be clear i use it bc i get NYT for free from my university and I can’t be bothered to pay for a different one)

I have tried to start running like 10 times this last year and every single time, within a day or two, my achilles tendon is flaring or my knee is in pain or my lower back can barely move or whatever else. anything I can try to actually manage to get into running?