obvs not done, and ive made more progress than in the image im just not home to take a newer photo right now, but i wanted to share the progress of my costume/cosplay for halloween!
been working on this on and off for 6 months and its about a month worth of total, dedicated work
made it for my boyfriend and left it with him when i flew to visit him, an anniversary gift <3
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Hi im sem, im an 18 year old, soon to be university student, i mainly just wanna yap with people and hop on call with someone who is actually fun to talk to
Ive been really obsessed with hollow knight recently so dont expect to pull me away from that but other games i play are things like minecraft, warframe, the forest, lots of friendslop games like repo, peak, etc.
id love a good horror game reccomendation aswell, really loved both first outlast games and the blair witch but havent had it in me to get similair titles like alien isolation yet
right now i just wanna yap while i crochet a blanket
also i really hate ai and soup
dm me with the word orange and a fun fact baout yourself! i will not answer if you dont include the word orange
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ive been working at a supermarket close to my home for 4 months now, and 3 weeks ago while i was manning the register, a guy ive never seen in this area before came to check out. I dont know his name so im going to call him Carl.
Carl had very loud music playing from his headphones, which were around his neck, and i recognized the song. So, trying to be friendly, i started up a conversation while scanning his items. He was slurring a bit while talking but generally seemed nice, recommended me some other bands, and left.
i thought nothing of this. hes a 40ish year old man who was probably just passing by, and i live in a quiet friendly town. i didnt think id ever see him again.
until 30 minutes later.
he walks back into the store with one of those old photo cameras around his neck and keeps standing around the register facing me while im working. Then he grabs some chocolate from the shelves close by and comes to check out.
i dont really say anything this time and just scan the chocolate. Hes standing there holding his camera at his chest with one hand and angling it directly at me, then asks for a pack of batteries we keep behind a display.
so i go over to the display, he follows me, and continues angling the camera at me while im crouched down under the glass trying to get his batteries.
i go back, scan the batteries, and he insists i keep the chocolate. No matter how much i decline and say im not allowed to accept gifts (i am, but he doesnt need to know that), he just leaves the chocolate on the conveyor and walks out.
the next day he does the same thing.
buys me chocolate. insists i keep it. leaves.
and then the next day too.
neither of those days did i really reply to him or try to spark conversation because at that point i felt unsafe and honestly a little insane. I told my coworkers and my mom about it (im 19 and still living with her), and they all told me i should be flattered.
i had two days off after this and stayed home crocheting and playing video games. When i went back to work, he showed up again, this time with his phone.
he bought a ton of stuff and then shoved his phone in my face, like he was trying to hand it to me. Im confused and ask why hes giving me his phone, and he replies that he wants to leave it there to charge.
i said we cant do that, but hes free to buy a charger from the store and charge it somewhere else. He keeps insisting and almost starts yelling over it.
i call over my manager, who tells him to leave and then stays at the register for a few minutes to give me a second to breathe and go drink some water.
the next day im working again. He stops by, doesnt say anything to me, and walks out.
soon after, a local comes to the register and says some guy in his 40s is hanging out back and asks if hes meant to be there. I ask them to describe him and its the same guy. Carl.
i tell my manager that at this point im legitimately scared, and she again tells me its probably nothing and hes just some hobo with nothing better to do.
then i have 4 days off.
on my 3rd day off i go out to walk my dog. Im only around my apartment building, i dont go further than that little cluster of buildings in my area that nobody has ANY business being in unless they live there or are visiting someone.
and i see him.
i see Carl standing around with the children at the playground in the middle of these houses.
i immediately go to visit my neighbour, whos also my moms friend, instead of going home because i dont want him to know exactly where i live if he didnt already.
she tells me to call the non-emergency line.
so i do.
and they essentially tell me that i dont really have proof and they cant do anything, kind of implying that unless i actually get hurt hes just some random regular guy and im being paranoid.
and now ive called in sick from work for a week because im terrified of showing up and him being there, following me home, maybe already knowing where i live, or breaking in while im gone.
everyone around me is saying im anxious or that i have no proof he took photos of me, but you dont angle your camera at people like that casually.
he was very poorly hiding the fact that he was taking photos of me.
he had no business being around my house.
he had no business buying me so many chocolates.
and he had no business getting aggressive with me over not being able to leave his phone at my workplace to charge.
i feel crazy for thinking im being stalked. I was even told by a family member that im "not hot enough to be stalked", which is just INSANE.
i dont know. i just need to be told im not actually crazy and this does sound like stalking
Ive been making this blanket for my boyfriend for a few months now and im going on a trip to visit him in 2 weeks, so i need to finish it by then
wish me luck
Hi, so ive never dyed my hair before, but ive wanted to since i was little. im getting it professionally dyed instead of doing it on my own, and im unsure what would actually suit me :(
Im thinking something more on the vibrant side but not too hard to upkeep like calico hair, but homething like vibrant fox tips instead
i do want something a bit more vibrant, maybe not green but a good suggestion might make me change my mind, any advice or opinions are welcome
thank you
Hi, so ive never dyed my hair before, but ive wanted to since i was little. im getting it professionally dyed instead of doing it on my own, and im unsure what would actually suit me :(
Im thinking something more on the vibrant side but not too hard to upkeep like calico hair, but homething like vibrant fox tips instead
i do want something a bit more vibrant, maybe not green but a good suggestion might make me change my mind, any advice or opinions are welcome
thank you
Hi, i got my tongue pierced professionally 2 and a half weeks ago, its been healing well and im quite comfortable with it now, but while brushing my teeth over the past few days ive noticed theres a bump/growth right next to the bottom exit hole of the piercing. is this something to worry about? healing tissue being weird?? i looked it up but im really anxious about it being infected or something since ive started returning to a normal diet and used to chewing again, i just want a second opinion, it hasn't been downsized yet but it will be next week
thank you
So im not very familair with mending thoigh ive done embroidery before and have lots of embroidery thread, im a bit stumped on how to fix these as theyre very light weight and stretchy, cooling gloves. i dont know how i could approach it without ruining how the fabric stretches or cause more damage from improper mending or something. but i also dont want it to feel bulky since the gloves are cooling and almost feel like they arent even there
just throw out ideas at me, thanks to anyone who comments
In another universe
i was not alone
not with the kind of childhood that teaches you early how to read danger in a room
how to change yourself before anyone has to ask you to
how to make your presence less noticeable so nothing got worse than it already was
not with abuse that rewired what love was supposed to feel like
turning care and fear into things my body stopped being able to tell apart
not with bullying that followed me in ways that wouldnt stop when I got home
it changed shape
more internal
something i carried instead of
something i escaped
not with harm becoming a language for things i didnt have words for yet
not with learning how to turn pain inward so it wouldnt spill outward where anyone could see
not when i was eight and left outside longer than i should have been
and nobody came to correct it
nobody came to wonder where i went
like i had already become opional in a way no child should ever be
a child in the wrong place of the day
waiting for something that never came
not the days after i failed to die
when i woke up and everything kept going anyway
and i had to understand that even escape doesnt always mean release
just continuation with more weight attached
in another universe
someone would have noticed without me needing to understand and explain it myself first
someone would have stepped in before i learned how to become small enough to survive attention
someone would have come
another universe would have spared me
but not here
here i learned how to endure without sound
how to keep my body moving while i wanted nothing more than to stop
how to make surviving look like nothing so it wouldnt invite questions i couldnt answer
i learned how to expect absence so completely
that even hope started to feel like something wrong
and then
the universe gave me you
and i dont know how to explain what that does to me
it doesnt fit anywhere in what i learned
you do not leave when i prepare for it
you do not disappear when i go quiet
you do not turn into the kind of empty space i know how to survive
and i feel it in a way that is almost physical
like hunger
its persistent
something in me keeps reaching even when i tell it not to
i dont know how to hold that without flinching
because everything in me was built for distance
for self containment
for handling things alone before they become too heavy to carry
but you interrupt that system
and i find myself leaning toward you anyway
instinctively
like something in me recognizes a source of warmth it was never taught how to trust
i am not healed
i am not suddenly different
but when i reach for you
you are there
and thats the part i dont know how to stop wanting more of
photo taken right as i put it in the dish washer, i see them everywhere now after watching the movie and listening to the audiobook
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Hi, im sem, its around 30 mins past midnight as im posting this and im mildly delirious but mostly tired.
I love being on vc w people when gaming and often stream it to whoever im on call with but yk people have lives and not everyone is available at this time, so i call upon reddit users who happen to not be incels
Message me with the word orange if you wanna treat me as a background video for whatever youre doing tonight (ill be playing the game 8am)