u/WishboneFlashy1442

99.999% of us believe that sex offenders deserve no support. Why is there a whole group of people supporting sex offenders?

Smart phones were invented and then handed out to nearly everyone on the planet.

Minors have sexually experimented since the beginning of time, but smart phones allow them to take nude selfies and share them with people. People are shit, so these invariably get leaked and end up all over the web.

I Google-searched for nude selfies of minors because I'm an evil, bad, broken person.*

Google served me search results for nude selfies of minors while also reporting my activities to law enforcement.

I was charged with possession of child sexual abuse materials (CSAM) and accepted a plea deal to avoid prison time in exchange for lifetime sex offender registration.

I lost my job, all my friends, all family members, and my personal Google account containing a lifetime of memories in "my" cloud. Quotation marks because you don't actually own anything passing through or stored on Google servers. Google owns all that stuff (per the Terms of Service which nobody reads before accepting).

I once posted about my situation on r/suicidewatch, and it caused the readership there to break rules en masse (telling me I'm an exception to suicide prevention). Instead of banning hundreds of random users, it was easier to just ban me. I don't disagree and would have done the same if I were moderating.

I still have a PHD (TECHNICALLY), but PRACTICALLY it doesn't exist in a way I can use it for any career. Turns out the kinds of careers a PhD is useful for all require you to pass a background check, which I will never again be able to do.

Lots of people have sent me DMs here affirming that I deserve to die. I happen to agree with them. I've tried to get several of them to kill me, offered to pay for their travel and lodging, and also to help take any steps to minimize the possibility of their being criminally culpable, but they have all ghosted me the moment they realize I'm serious about the offer.

At the end of the day, while I still live the American taxpayer will be financially supporting me wholly for the next 40 to 50 years.

*I was in denial at first, but years of reflection and sex offender treatment have opened my eyes. I do deserve everything that has happened to me. I do deserve to die.

I come from a universe in which a common phrase, "putting food on the table", is a euphemism for materially providing for one's family.

Today, I spent hours fighting against hundreds of reddit users that had only ever heard of "putting money on the table".

After hundreds of downvotes and many hours arguing, I am questioning whether "putting food" was ever accurate in any universe???

Might be born some time in the distant future. Unlikely in our lifetime though.

Store cashiers and Reddit are the only places I interact with humans.

2 months ago, I was jogging in the neighborhood and a group of 3 women were standing off the sidewalk. When they saw me coming, they moved onto the sidewalk forcing me to go around in the mud. I sprained my ankle and was unable to run for 5 weeks.

Yesterday, I was running in my neighborhood and a man was walking down the sidewalk playing a banjo. He saw me coming for at least 2 blocks but made himself wide to take up the whole sidewalk. While trying to go into the street to avoid him, I AGAIN sprained my ankle off the curb.

What is their purpose in getting me repeatedly injured? Why don't they just try to kill me? What's with all the passive aggressive games???

That's the entire post.

45M, I've been a lifelong skeptic, atheist, scientific researcher.

I've also had a tremendous amount of trauma and misfortune, accelerating in the last 3 years in the complete ruin of my career and reputation, losing all my family and friends, and my wife.

In deciding to exit this life, I am opening up my belief system one last time. I've had mostly harmful interactions with humans, so I'm wondering if I might find understanding with a non-human entity, if they even exist at all.

Web searches for basic information somehow always leads to individuals or orgs trying to sell me something, and I'm trying my best to not dismiss it all as charlatanism as I would have in the past.

I would very much appreciate anybody that could point me in a direction that provides intellectually honest information for a novice.

Ironically I have all the time in the world while simultaneously running out of patience with this meaningless slog that is life.

I think the GPS is hacked. What else could it be?

I was trafficked as a child. Never had parents. I was encouraged to show off my body to adults. I had no idea that downloading videos of teens sharing nude selfies was wrong.

Even though the case docket lists Google as my victim, I now know that those teens were my victims. Even if they will never know I exist, I still victimized them.

I have a felony now. Have to register every year for the rest of my life. Can't work because I'll never pass a background check.

I did not consent to being born. None of us did. Some of us are happy in retrospect, but many of us will never know that way of being.

I am a trash human. Im either going to end my life or steal enough food to get me into prison, where I belong.