u/_michaeldied

Can't word or fit this in the title for the life of me. I'm not looking for anything edgy but I will take it. Basically I need songs touching on the following topics in romance:

- Feeling crazy, don't know what emotions and signals to trust

- Obsession, in the way of constantly thinking about the person and needing to have them as yours

- Avoidance, unavailability, distance, never say everything you need to, are barely around each other at times

- Having to mask the feeling and bottle up, can't just show it

- (Best) friends to lovers

- Reuniting after not seeing each other for a long time

- The love interest seemingly moving onto another person

- Emotional cheating

- Messy first love

- Holding onto feelings for a long time without action

- Hiding your mutual feelings from the world

Examples of songs I already have for this:

Left Outside Alone - Anastasia

Good Luck, Babe! - Chappell Roan

Smalltown Boy - Bronski Beat

Should've Been Me - Mitski

My Hallelujah - Autoheart

Line Without A Hook - Ricky Montgomery

If I Leave - Mitski

Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want - The Smiths

William, It Was Really Nothing - The Smiths

Only You - Yazoo

Andrew In Drag - The Magnetic Fields

Running On A Treadmill - Oingo Boingo

Filter - Gazzoleen

Think - Sister Machine Gun

I'll Be That Girl - Barenaked Ladies

Roulette - SOAD

Drivers License - Olivia Rodrigo

Memories - Conan Gray

Everything here is true and it only gets more cartoonish and crazy. So, ask away.

As the title says, I am not and have never been on testosterone or puberty blockers. These are in order showing my transition since starting high school, unless Reddit fucks it up. I don't get clocked as trans but I do get clocked as gay, probably cause of my clothing.

I apologize for the crunchy text and images. I will provide clarification if needed. I'm excited to read from all of you.

I already have myself typed in every system I've came across but this sounds fun. You don't have to read all points

• I'm an older teenage male.
• My second favorite show is Evangelion: My favorite characters are Asuka, Mari, Rei, and Kaworu, though I hold them all dear.
• I don't like the color blue but it matches my personality most.
• I have a passion for writing, music, psychology, and sociology. I have trouble sticking to one story.
• A year ago I was extremely isolated, now I've come out of my shell and culminated a large friend group of around 20 people.
• I used to be an "Anything but pop/ country" sayer.
• My most used emoji is 😋
• I am extremely neurotic in the way I feel haunted by nostalgia and regret along with being—let's say "mystical". However, I hardly experience panic or fear. My neuroticism is mostly internal.
• I have hyperphantasia which I abuse
• I can't sleep without specific conditions due to the world being quiet
• All my life I've been called a "prodigy" and I despise that. I am repelled by the idea of being special.
• I am a social chameleon.
• My humor primarily involves tricks and pranks.
• I can't stand hot food.
• During my edgy teenage phase, I identified as an atheist to reject people I deemed hurtful. I am now a developing Christian.
• I am exceptionally controlled, but I create schemes to seem more impulsive and human than I am.
• The indie pop songs I relate to most are My Hallelujah – Autoheart and If I Leave – Mitski.
• I have a good sense of timing and space but it all goes downhill when a baseball bat is involved. I'm best at speed ball (the sport)
• My taste for aesthetics range from angel to goth to cyber.
• A lot of my time is spent trying to be normal.
• I'm not much for romance.
• I'm great with kids, and they're drawn to me.
• I have the opposite of recency bias. I better enjoy and trust for things that have built upon for years.
• My idea of hanging out with friends is talking in my room for hours.
• My greatest annoyances are ignorance, entitlement, and posers.
• I naturally psychoanalyze people as a subconscious process, and sometimes it leads me to not-so-nice conclusions of people I barely know.
• I can't let someone suffer alone.

That was a lot. I had more than I thought and just kept going. This is probably pretty easy, I challenge you to assign me types in other systems too