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i'm already SOOOOOOOO bored holy, i should probably just start locking in and studying cuz 12th grd how fun, but LIKENRTJBGURTGUIRUIGHRIGT IM JUST TOO LAZY RN, there's so many things to watch but it just feels so monotonous, and idk a lot of people where i live yet (i moved last dec, i know people, but its not like people i can randomly hit up to rant and walk w me in the park or smt) so not like i can go out here with friends either

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i have a bunch of random interests, unfortunately i dont play any games, i watch anime, all kinds - slice of life, bl, stuff like jjk and mha; i read a lot (i used to, i should probably pick that up again, i have a bunch of books lying around like song of achilles; i listen to a bunch of different genres of music, i like debating and going to muns

IM SO BORED THAT IM NOW MAKING the 17f pwease text me 🥺 uwu posts HELPPPPP jgifuegfgiuergerhig

I have my first chem exam of the yr (12th grade) on Monday, and as usual, my procrastinating ass is starting to study from the basics (I'll lock in during the summer break and won't pull this same shit for midterms, trust). So I got 3 chapters:

Solutions - 17

Electrochemistry - 19

Haloalkanes and haloarenes - 14

I genuinely suck at chemistry in general, i never really got a hang of it, and i've always just skipped organic so i dont even have the proper foundation for that. So considering that halo might be the hardest to understand and study for me.

My teacher is also genuinely the worst teacher EVER, but that's a rant for another day. She does not even TEACH but her papers aren't fucking easy either. I'm not fully trusting her on this but she told to skip the overtly complicated lengthy NCERT in-text q's but solve the rest and to refer the CBSE student support material for chemistry.

What's the most important topics I MUST cover for each chapter, which videos would be most helpful for explanations, and how do I just approach chemistry in general for this exam. I might just skip halo or do the bare minimum for it because the other two chapters on their own will give me 37 marks which is enough for me, for this exam atleast. I just want to score minimum 30.

I have my first chem exam of the yr (12th grade) on Monday, and as usual, my procrastinating ass is starting to study from the basics (I'll lock in during the summer break and won't pull this same shit for midterms, trust). So I got 3 chapters:

Solutions - 17

Electrochemistry - 19

Haloalkanes and haloarenes - 14

I genuinely suck at chemistry in general, i never really got a hang of it, and i've always just skipped organic so i dont even have the proper foundation for that. So considering that halo might be the hardest to understand and study for me.

My teacher is also genuinely the worst teacher EVER, but that's a rant for another day. She does not even TEACH but her papers aren't fucking easy either. I'm not fully trusting her on this but she told to skip the overtly complicated lengthy NCERT in-text q's but solve the rest and to refer the CBSE student support material for chemistry.

What's the most important topics I MUST cover for each chapter, which videos would be most helpful for explanations, and how do I just approach chemistry in general for this exam. I might just skip halo or do the bare minimum for it because the other two chapters on their own will give me 37 marks which is enough for me, for this exam atleast. I just want to score minimum 30.

I'm in 12th grade, it is currently 12PM and I have my math exam on Monday

It's for 50 marks, 2 hours long, it's the first exam of the year and my teacher DECIDED TO GIVE LIKE 5 AND HALF CHAPTER. We literally only have 13 chapters for the wholeass year, she should've given this for term -1, AND OMG SHE DIDN'T EVEN TAKE DIFFERENTIATION BUT WE HAVE THE WHOLE INTEGRALS COMING.

I don't have much time left to study but I'll sleep at 12ish or maybe a bit later today and 11 tomorrow (I'd sleep late tmrw asw but my parents aren't letting me).

Portions:

1. relations and functions (section e case study is from this chapter which will be 4 marks) - total: 10 marks weightage
2. inverse trigo - 6 marks
3. matrices - 2 marks
4. determinants - 11 marks (total two 5 mark q's - one of them is from det.)
5. continuity - 7 marks (only first exercise is coming)
6. integrals - 14 marks (full chapter - one 5 mark q from this chapter)

I only know matrices so far, i know, im gonna get fucked by the exam, but i need like bare BARE MINIMUM being 25 marks, i sure as hell need to pass and get atleast 30+.

Idk jackshit in any of the other chapters but i'm gonna start rn, integrals i studied in tuition so i have a basic idea of some parts BUT THERES JUST SO MANY FORMULAS IN ALL OF THESE CHAPTERS.

I JUST KNOW THIS EXAM IS GONNA HAVE SOME TOUGHASS Q'S TOO.

My teacher always gives q's from kumarswamy so i was planning on doing textbook first and then that. How and what all do i study to make sure i get those 30 marks?

I'm in 12th grade, it is currently 12PM and I have my math exam on Monday

It's for 50 marks, 2 hours long, it's the first exam of the year and my teacher DECIDED TO GIVE LIKE 5 AND HALF CHAPTER. We literally only have 13 chapters for the wholeass year, she should've given this for term -1, AND OMG SHE DIDN'T EVEN TAKE DIFFERENTIATION BUT WE HAVE THE WHOLE INTEGRALS COMING.

I don't have much time left to study but I'll sleep at 12ish or maybe a bit later today and 11 tomorrow (I'd sleep late tmrw asw but my parents aren't letting me).

Portions:

1. relations and functions (section e case study is from this chapter which will be 4 marks) - total: 10 marks weightage
2. inverse trigo - 6 marks
3. matrices - 2 marks
4. determinants - 11 marks (total two 5 mark q's - one of them is from det.)
5. continuity - 7 marks (only first exercise is coming)
6. integrals - 14 marks (full chapter - one 5 mark q from this chapter)

I only know matrices so far, i know, im gonna get fucked by the exam, but i need like bare BARE MINIMUM being 25 marks, i sure as hell need to pass and get atleast 30+.

Idk jackshit in any of the other chapters but i'm gonna start rn, integrals i studied in tuition so i have a basic idea of some parts BUT THERES JUST SO MANY FORMULAS IN ALL OF THESE CHAPTERS.

I JUST KNOW THIS EXAM IS GONNA HAVE SOME TOUGHASS Q'S TOO.

My teacher always gives q's from kumarswamy so i was planning on doing textbook first and then that. How and what all do i study to make sure i get those 30 marks?

Okay so I'm a NRI doing my last year of high school (CBSE btw sighs), and the unis here are either too expensive, have a shit social life, shit faculty or don't provide enough areas of subjects. Like research science, for example, here is non-existent. There's no areas to explore and research in, no facilities to work in. I've been trying to convince my parents to let me study abroad, but they just aren't agreeing.

I just know I'm going to regret studying here, because well tbf I haven't quite yet decided on what I want to major in, but if I study here, I'll just end up doing engineering, computer science, or something physics.

But even then, it's still so fucking expensive to study abroad as well and huge long term investment, and I don't think my parents can handle that sort of expense (this pisses me off so much but they didn't check on the university fees over the past years, so the money that they do have saved up is barely enough for the tuition fees for the first year for a mediocre-ish uni here). Only way out that I have is to study my ass off and score well to even try for scholarships abroad but EVEN THEN I NEED THE MONEY TO GO THERE AND STUDY.

SO, what is there to study here, science related, and with some sort of job placements (job tho is fine anywhere, here or abroad) (no pure chemistry based degrees, its my biggest enemy, also i regret not taking bio in class 11 and 12, but i am willing to do a course regarding it because i enjoy bio and wouldn't mind some sort of degree correlated to it)

Over the past years, I did use to like aerophysics, and then more recently, marine biology; neither one of those being correlated or easy to study and get a job in.

I have been raised as a Hindu, but my parents, especially my mom has been lenient enough to let me have my own opinions about religion. I wouldn't exactly call myself a follower of Hinduism, even though it's probably the religion that I feel most connected with, as I guess, in some ways, I identify as agnostic, and I feel equal respect towards all religions, but I just don't want to be a follower on, atleast not yet in life (I'm 17).

My parents are, ofcourse, (conservative?) hindus. My mom especially is a good fearing superstition believing Hindu, well to be fair she is very open-minded on her behalf except for when it comes to the LGBT+ community. I'd even say she wouldn't be hateful if any of my friends were queer and she found out, like she wouldn't make me cut them off perhaps, but I know for a fact that she would cut me off if I were to come out to my parents a few years in the future.

We had a conversation about this before (I am not quite sure how my dad feels, but I'm pretty positive he wouldn't approve either), and we didn't directly refer to me being queer but it was 100% insinuated, and my mom told me I would not consider you my daughter anymore if you were to be with a woman, and that she would not stay in contact with me if that were the case.

When I was younger, she did in fact tell me to tell her if I ever was attracted to girls so that "she could take me to the doctor". The internet has been ever so helpful for me as a safe space, which has led me to not hate myself or suppress my feelings, and I will forever be grateful for that.

I am an only child, and I just don't want to lose my parents, but I cannot ever be fully honest with them about this part of myself either. I told my mom that hinduism accepts it but she just ignored that and told that it's about society and that she herself just doesn't accept it.

But, my mom is a devout enough Hindu, so I'm just wondering if there's any chance I could get a pandit to talk to her about this in the future, when I'm able to financially support myself of course. I'm from south India, for context, and currently living abroad. Would they be homophobic if I approached someone religious for help regarding this, and would my personal matters get leaked? Obviously, you can't answer the latter, but how would this work if I were to try it.

Met a guy through a MUN, we ended up talking everyday for the months after that. He casually asked me out a few times, but I didn't give a straight answer because i was thinking it through. Then when I WAS gonna say yes, he ended up saying i really need to think about this asw, and we talked abt how our parents would take it, just a long convo; so that led to a roadblock.

i was going through it at that point with drama from a really toxic friend, family problems and miscommunication which made things messy. I also did something dumb during that period which threw him off, and I handled things poorly when he came back after being offline for like 3 months due to finals and strict parents. Because of everything going on, I assumed he had moved on and came off dry, which led to us fading out.

Later, he texted me for closure, but i didnt want to read too much into anything but im pretty sure he just misunderstood me and i was unccessarily dry. I didn’t explain myself properly either, why i said what i said or did what i did. Now I’ve been thinking about it a lot, not trying to restart anything, just feel like I left things misunderstood and want to clear the air properly so I can move on.

Anyways, my exams are coming up, but I do wanna send him smt (probably once my exams finish), so here's the text:

hey, this has been on my mind for a while, especially after you texted me last time, and I don’t think I explained myself properly then. I was going through a lot at that time and I don’t think I handled the conversation the best way, because tbf i was still thinking about you then but didn’t really admit it because i assumed you had moved on or didn’t want to talk anymore, which is why I came across pretty dry and it probably gave the wrong impression.

I just wanted to clear the air because it’s been sitting in my head for a while. I’m not expecting anything from this, I just didn’t like how things ended and wanted to be honest about that.

Hope you’ve been doing well.

There was something abt how i felt on there, but I realised that i'm not really looking for a relationship rn, and idw intrude on whatever is going on in his life or make it seem like i'm trying to rekindle it. We have some differing ideologies asw, so it's probably for the best, even though i really did like him a lot, and ig he did too, considering he texted me about it even after months of not talking.

^(Here are some random details:)

^(1. We started talking in Sept. or October, then he went AWOL from like mid Dec to to end of Jan. He texted me once in Feb, when I told him abt said dumb decision which was a terrible thing on my end, and then in march i think, for closure.)

^(2. we have 2 mutual friends, A and B. i was very close w both of them but i grew apart from A now, especially because I cut off B recently (as in feb or march, same time when this thing with this guy was happening as well) who was very VERY toxic to me. B was like the closest friend in my life at that point, so allat defo fucked me up for some time.)

^(3. this guy is one year younger and one grade below me. we go to different schools.)

TLDR:

Met a guy through MUN, we talked daily for months and there were mutual feelings, but timing, overthinking (on both our ends) and miscommunication made things messy. He went offline for a while, came back, and we both handled things poorly, leading to us fading out. He later texted for closure, but I didn’t explain myself properly, so things felt unresolved. Now I just want to clear the air.

Met a guy through a MUN, we ended up talking everyday for the months after that. He casually asked me out a few times, but I didn't give a straight answer because i was thinking it through. Then when I WAS gonna say yes, he ended up saying i really need to think about this asw, and we talked abt how our parents would take it, just a long convo; so that led to a roadblock.

i was going through it at that point with drama from a really toxic friend, family problems and miscommunication which made things messy. I also did something dumb during that period which threw him off, and I handled things poorly when he came back after being offline for like 3 months due to finals and strict parents. Because of everything going on, I assumed he had moved on and came off dry, which led to us fading out.

Later, he texted me for closure, but i didnt want to read too much into anything but im pretty sure he just misunderstood me and i was unccessarily dry. I didn’t explain myself properly either, why i said what i said or did what i did. Now I’ve been thinking about it a lot, not trying to restart anything, just feel like I left things misunderstood and want to clear the air properly so I can move on.

Anyways, my exams are coming up, but I do wanna send him smt (probably once my exams finish), so here's the text:

hey, this has been on my mind for a while, especially after you texted me last time, and I don’t think I explained myself properly then. I was going through a lot at that time and I don’t think I handled the conversation the best way, because tbf i was still thinking about you then but didn’t really admit it because i assumed you had moved on or didn’t want to talk anymore, which is why I came across pretty dry and it probably gave the wrong impression.

I just wanted to clear the air because it’s been sitting in my head for a while. I’m not expecting anything from this, I just didn’t like how things ended and wanted to be honest about that.

Hope you’ve been doing well.

There was something abt how i felt on there, but I realised that i'm not really looking for a relationship rn, and idw intrude on whatever is going on in his life or make it seem like i'm trying to rekindle it. We have some differing ideologies asw, so it's probably for the best, even though i really did like him a lot, and ig he did too, considering he texted me about it even after months of not talking.

^(Here are some random details:)

^(1. We started talking in Sept. or October, then he went AWOL from like mid Dec to to end of Jan. He texted me once in Feb, when I told him abt said dumb decision which was a terrible thing on my end, and then in march i think, for closure.)

^(2. we have 2 mutual friends, A and B. i was very close w both of them but i grew apart from A now, especially because I cut off B recently (as in feb or march, same time when this thing with this guy was happening as well) who was very VERY toxic to me. B was like the closest friend in my life at that point, so allat defo fucked me up for some time.)

^(3. this guy is one year younger and one grade below me. we go to different schools.)

TLDR:

Met a guy through MUN, we talked daily for months and there were mutual feelings, but timing, overthinking (on both our ends) and miscommunication made things messy. He went offline for a while, came back, and we both handled things poorly, leading to us fading out. He later texted for closure, but I didn’t explain myself properly, so things felt unresolved. Now I just want to clear the air.

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For physics, math and chem, is using MTG and Xam Idea preferred or should I use All in One instead for any one of these for any of the subjects?
Also, what all resources online can I use to study CS other than the NCERT textbook, SL Arora and PYQs?

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my 8yr old 6kg cat just got neutered recently and got high doses of calming medication but is still being aggressive.

he attacked us twice before on 2 different occassions causing severe bleeding. He showed the same behavior today when we visited him at the clinic where he is currently under observation for a few days after being neutered. He didnt come wriund and sniff us or allow us to touch him properly either. The doctors told us that the calming medicine is not taking an effect on him either, and he almost attacked us the same as before as well. His behavior is not calming down fully and isnt the same as before either. He had calmed down a bit yesterday but reverted back to agression today morning, as per the vets.

Please recommend good veterinary clinics to get a second opinion at, and give your own opinions on what to do as well because we don't have it in us to give him away after being a part of our family for 8 years since he was a kitten.