u/beesy_churger

new here, have a few questions

So does spicetify also have the same problems as all the other alternatives that tend to make spotify better by removing ads etc that they get broken after spotify updates and then you have to download or search for a new version of it?

Also if a person downloaded an older version of spotify and used spicetify with it, would it technically be a solution for lifetime?

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u/beesy_churger — 8 days ago

There's something deeply wrong with me and I cant figure out how to fix it

Male here. In second year of college. I feel incredibly stuck in my life right now. Sara masla parhai ka hai. I can't study for the life of me. Pehle ho jati thi parhai in school, but ab i just cant for some reason. College has been so devastating for me, my confidence and my overall personality. Roz jata tha udhr, baith kar socialize karta tha and wapis aa jata tha. Yehi sochta tha ke end per karlunga. This thing has ruined my social life. New friends banane se pehle darr lagta ke what if they ask me my marks or future plans.

I got all this confidence in myself that "im intelligent and parhaku" and this and that from school. I dont even remember ke school mein meri motivation kya hoti thi parhne ki, lekin i did study till 9th at least. 10th mein i started procrastinating. Exams mein kafi cheating hui and i managed to score 400 something marks.

Btw my father doesnt have any established business jiski waja se mein itna chill hoon. We're middle class. My father earns well. He gave me an easy life but i just cant fix myself no matter how much i try.

Even when i have nothing to do, no mobile or pc around, instead of studying, i just start walking, creating imaginary scenarios to entertain myself, Its like i just can't ever allow myself to be bored. And even in extreme boredom, i never resort to parhai.

No one in my family pressures me to study. Because they think since im in college, im mature and i know when to study and when to enjoy which is a reasonable expectation. But even after failing in my college, nobody in my house got strict with me. They see me using my laptop all day and dont say a word.

I dont have any interest in any major fields. All of it is just bland to me. The only thing i was passionate about was army but i have knocking knees and terrible eyesight so there goes that dream.

I have set various motivations for myself to get myself to study yet never have they ever worked. Motivations like

  1. Making my father proud
  2. Being able to travel the world and financial independence
  3. Being able to marry without a significant fear of rejection
  4. Having a better social life that what i have now

But my brain, just looks at all of these motivations and says "hmm......🤔🤔" and goes back to procrastinating. I dont understand how can someone be this dheet in something that is going to shape his life.

Im quite certain i have ADHD. Or atleast developed it somewhere during college. Because along with my academic failures, my general IQ and intelligence have dropped drastically. I have to think about basic things for so long to come to conclusions. Even in movies or books, i constantly have to make myself alert of whats going on because my mind never really cares about half the shit i do or watch or read. I find myself looking for things like "*insert movie name* ending explained" which i never had to do for in my entire life. I dont even consume alot of short form content on which i could blame my bad attention span on. It just happened all of a sudden.

What advice would you give me here?

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u/beesy_churger — 11 days ago

There's something deeply wrong with me and I cant figure out how to fix it

Male here. In second year of college. I feel incredibly stuck in my life right now. Sara masla parhai ka hai. I can't study for the life of me. Pehle ho jati thi parhai in school, but ab i just cant for some reason. College has been so devastating for me, my confidence and my overall personality. Roz jata tha udhr, baith kar socialize karta tha and wapis aa jata tha. Yehi sochta tha ke end per karlunga. This thing has ruined my social life. New friends banane se pehle darr lagta ke what if they ask me my marks or future plans.

I got all this confidence in myself that "im intelligent and parhaku" and this and that from school. I dont even remember ke school mein meri motivation kya hoti thi parhne ki, lekin i did study till 9th at least. 10th mein i started procrastinating. Exams mein kafi cheating hui and i managed to score 400 something marks.

Btw my father doesnt have any established business jiski waja se mein itna chill hoon. We're middle class. My father earns well. He gave me an easy life but i just cant fix myself no matter how much i try.

Even when i have nothing to do, no mobile or pc around, instead of studying, i just start walking, creating imaginary scenarios to entertain myself, Its like i just can't ever allow myself to be bored. And even in extreme boredom, i never resort to parhai.

No one in my family pressures me to study. Because they think since im in college, im mature and i know when to study and when to enjoy which is a reasonable expectation. But even after failing in my college, nobody in my house got strict with me. They see me using my laptop all day and dont say a word.

I dont have any interest in any major fields. All of it is just bland to me. The only thing i was passionate about was army but i have knocking knees and terrible eyesight so there goes that dream.

I have set various motivations for myself to get myself to study yet never have they ever worked. Motivations like

  1. Making my father proud
  2. Being able to travel the world and financial independence
  3. Being able to marry without a significant fear of rejection
  4. Having a better social life that what i have now

But my brain, just looks at all of these motivations and says "hmm......🤔🤔" and goes back to procrastinating. I dont understand how can someone be this dheet in something that is going to shape his life.

Im quite certain i have ADHD. Or atleast developed it somewhere during college. Because along with my academic failures, my general IQ and intelligence have dropped drastically. I have to think about basic things for so long to come to conclusions. Even in movies or books, i constantly have to make myself alert of whats going on because my mind never really cares about half the shit i do or watch or read. I find myself looking for things like "*insert movie name* ending explained" which i never had to do for in my entire life. I dont even consume alot of short form content on which i could blame my bad attention span on. It just happened all of a sudden.

What advice would you give me here?

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u/beesy_churger — 11 days ago

There's something deeply wrong with me and I cant figure out how to fix it

Male here. In second year of college. I feel incredibly stuck in my life right now. Sara masla parhai ka hai. I can't study for the life of me. Pehle ho jati thi parhai in school, but ab i just cant for some reason. College has been so devastating for me, my confidence and my overall personality. Roz jata tha udhr, baith kar socialize karta tha and wapis aa jata tha. Yehi sochta tha ke end per karlunga. This thing has ruined my social life. New friends banane se pehle darr lagta ke what if they ask me my marks or future plans.

I got all this confidence in myself that "im intelligent and parhaku" and this and that from school. I dont even remember ke school mein meri motivation kya hoti thi parhne ki, lekin i did study till 9th at least. 10th mein i started procrastinating. Exams mein kafi cheating hui and i managed to score 400 something marks.

Btw my father doesnt have any established business jiski waja se mein itna chill hoon. We're middle class. My father earns well. He gave me an easy life but i just cant fix myself no matter how much i try.

Even when i have nothing to do, no mobile or pc around, instead of studying, i just start walking, creating imaginary scenarios to entertain myself, Its like i just can't ever allow myself to be bored. And even in extreme boredom, i never resort to parhai.

No one in my family pressures me to study. Because they think since im in college, im mature and i know when to study and when to enjoy which is a reasonable expectation. But even after failing in my college, nobody in my house got strict with me. They see me using my laptop all day and dont say a word.

I dont have any interest in any major fields. All of it is just bland to me. The only thing i was passionate about was army but i have knocking knees and terrible eyesight so there goes that dream.

I have set various motivations for myself to get myself to study yet never have they ever worked. Motivations like

  1. Making my father proud
  2. Being able to travel the world and financial independence
  3. Being able to marry without a significant fear of rejection
  4. Having a better social life that what i have now

But my brain, just looks at all of these motivations and says "hmm......🤔🤔" and goes back to procrastinating. I dont understand how can someone be this dheet in something that is going to shape his life.

Im quite certain i have ADHD. Or atleast developed it somewhere during college. Because along with my academic failures, my general IQ and intelligence have dropped drastically. I have to think about basic things for so long to come to conclusions. Even in movies or books, i constantly have to make myself alert of whats going on because my mind never really cares about half the shit i do or watch or read. I find myself looking for things like "*insert movie name* ending explained" which i never had to do for in my entire life. I dont even consume alot of short form content on which i could blame my bad attention span on. It just happened all of a sudden.

What advice would you give me here?

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u/beesy_churger — 11 days ago

There's something deeply wrong with me and I cant figure out how to fix it

Male here. In second year of college. I feel incredibly stuck in my life right now. Sara masla parhai ka hai. I can't study for the life of me. Pehle ho jati thi parhai in school, but ab i just cant for some reason. College has been so devastating for me, my confidence and my overall personality. Roz jata tha udhr, baith kar socialize karta tha and wapis aa jata tha. Yehi sochta tha ke end per karlunga. This thing has ruined my social life. New friends banane se pehle darr lagta ke what if they ask me my marks or future plans.

I got all this confidence in myself that "im intelligent and parhaku" and this and that from school. I dont even remember ke school mein meri motivation kya hoti thi parhne ki, lekin i did study till 9th at least. 10th mein i started procrastinating. Exams mein kafi cheating hui and i managed to score 400 something marks.

Btw my father doesnt have any established business jiski waja se mein itna chill hoon. We're middle class. My father earns well. He gave me an easy life but i just cant fix myself no matter how much i try.

Even when i have nothing to do, no mobile or pc around, instead of studying, i just start walking, creating imaginary scenarios to entertain myself, Its like i just can't ever allow myself to be bored. And even in extreme boredom, i never resort to parhai.

No one in my family pressures me to study. Because they think since im in college, im mature and i know when to study and when to enjoy which is a reasonable expectation. But even after failing in my college, nobody in my house got strict with me. They see me using my laptop all day and dont say a word.

I dont have any interest in any major fields. All of it is just bland to me. The only thing i was passionate about was army but i have knocking knees and terrible eyesight so there goes that dream.

I have set various motivations for myself to get myself to study yet never have they ever worked. Motivations like

  1. Making my father proud
  2. Being able to travel the world and financial independence
  3. Being able to marry without a significant fear of rejection
  4. Having a better social life that what i have now

But my brain, just looks at all of these motivations and says "hmm......🤔🤔" and goes back to procrastinating. I dont understand how can someone be this dheet in something that is going to shape his life.

Im quite certain i have ADHD. Or atleast developed it somewhere during college. Because along with my academic failures, my general IQ and intelligence have dropped drastically. I have to think about basic things for so long to come to conclusions. Even in movies or books, i constantly have to make myself alert of whats going on because my mind never really cares about half the shit i do or watch or read. I find myself looking for things like "*insert movie name* ending explained" which i never had to do for in my entire life. I dont even consume alot of short form content on which i could blame my bad attention span on. It just happened all of a sudden.

What advice would you give me here?

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u/beesy_churger — 11 days ago

There's something deeply wrong with me and I cant figure out how to fix it

Male here. In second year of college. I feel incredibly stuck in my life right now. Sara masla parhai ka hai. I can't study for the life of me. Pehle ho jati thi parhai in school, but ab i just cant for some reason. College has been so devastating for me, my confidence and my overall personality. Roz jata tha udhr, baith kar socialize karta tha and wapis aa jata tha. Yehi sochta tha ke end per karlunga. This thing has ruined my social life. New friends banane se pehle darr lagta ke what if they ask me my marks or future plans.

I got all this confidence in myself that "im intelligent and parhaku" and this and that from school. I dont even remember ke school mein meri motivation kya hoti thi parhne ki, lekin i did study till 9th at least. 10th mein i started procrastinating. Exams mein kafi cheating hui and i managed to score 400 something marks.

Btw my father doesnt have any established business jiski waja se mein itna chill hoon. We're middle class. My father earns well. He gave me an easy life but i just cant fix myself no matter how much i try.

Even when i have nothing to do, no mobile or pc around, instead of studying, i just start walking, creating imaginary scenarios to entertain myself, Its like i just can't ever allow myself to be bored. And even in extreme boredom, i never resort to parhai.

No one in my family pressures me to study. Because they think since im in college, im mature and i know when to study and when to enjoy which is a reasonable expectation. But even after failing in my college, nobody in my house got strict with me. They see me using my laptop all day and dont say a word.

I dont have any interest in any major fields. All of it is just bland to me. The only thing i was passionate about was army but i have knocking knees and terrible eyesight so there goes that dream.

I have set various motivations for myself to get myself to study yet never have they ever worked. Motivations like

  1. Making my father proud
  2. Being able to travel the world and financial independence
  3. Being able to marry without a significant fear of rejection
  4. Having a better social life that what i have now

But my brain, just looks at all of these motivations and says "hmm......🤔🤔" and goes back to procrastinating. I dont understand how can someone be this dheet in something that is going to shape his life.

Im quite certain i have ADHD. Or atleast developed it somewhere during college. Because along with my academic failures, my general IQ and intelligence have dropped drastically. I have to think about basic things for so long to come to conclusions. Even in movies or books, i constantly have to make myself alert of whats going on because my mind never really cares about half the shit i do or watch or read. I find myself looking for things like "*insert movie name* ending explained" which i never had to do for in my entire life. I dont even consume alot of short form content on which i could blame my bad attention span on. It just happened all of a sudden.

What advice would you give me here?

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u/beesy_churger — 11 days ago

Context: This dude's name is "badla brother". He made this ayeza khan video where he spent 10 minutes criticizing her body, her clothes and from these two things, concluding her level of imaan with a very condescending and "holier than thou" attitude all the while being married. Ew bhai like imagine watching ur husband stare at some celebrities body for hours and take screenshots of her pictures and whatnot in the name of "dawah".

2nd slide is of me giving a whole ahh thesis dissecting everything in his video AND LOOK AT HIS RESPONSE IN THE THIRD ONE. BRO? PEOPLE ACTUALLY FOLLOW AND SUPPORT THIS GUY LIKE HE'S A SCHOLAR OR INTELLECTUAL 😭🙏

this guy pisses me off so much man 😭 His whole channel is based on this "dawah" that he does where he takes screenshots and downloads videos of different "immodest" women, puts those same "immodest" pictures on his thumbnails to get views, then blurs those same "immodest" pictures inside his video in the name of "haya" all the while calling those women "behaya".

he relies on emotional arguments and there's one which i particularly remember. When people used to call him out for calling these women immodest and behaya and whatever unga bunga he says, his reply was "rapist ko rapist kehna chordein phir?". Ts guy is so desperate to prove he's right that he'll compare a youtuber or tiktoker with an actual criminal and see nothing wrong with it

Tbh i dont have much problems with jaahils who are unwilling to learn or improve but LIKE HE HAS 900k SUBSCRIBERS. AVERAGE VIEWS OF ABOUT 3 lakh on his videos in one month. ALL THE COMMENTS UNDER HIS VIDEOS ARE PEOPLE CHEERING HIM ON. APPRECIATING HIM. ALL IN THE NAME OF ISLAM. INSANE. HES TEACHING ALL THESE PEOPLE KE TALKING ABOUT WOMEN'S BODIES AND CLOTHES IS "DAWAH" or part of deen? And he refuses to accept he's doing something bad.

This is literally anti-dawah. Condescending tone. Judging imaan solely based on clothes and body. Making fun of these women by calling them all sorts of name. Zero ikhlaaq. But a big stupid fanbase who thinks this douchebag who's living in a secular country like Iceland is protecting islam and its values through these videos.

u/beesy_churger — 17 days ago

So I consider myself conventionally attractive, at least according to the standards of the society around me. Now my problem is that i over analyze people alot leading to me finding flaws in their face or bodies and then somehow gaining some sort of confidence and ego boost. It really pisses me off because i know for a fact sure that Heaven does not allow arrogant and egoistic people. But i just cant figure out how to fix this, I pray five times a day. And be rest assured, im a really nice person in real life. I never insult people or pass offensive remarks to them about them. I have alot of friends, who know me as a very non-controversial and nice person but inside i just cant control these feelings. Are these feelings sinful to have? Or will i only be punished if i acted on them and actually started treating people as inferior to me? Because no matter how much i try, i always find someone around me or on the internet to compare myself with and rank myself as "higher" or better than them in my mind.

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u/beesy_churger — 22 days ago
▲ 1 r/FBISE

ok so i need to give computer of both 1st and 2nd year in the upcoming exams but i spent all the damn time preparing maths (cuz supply) that i didnt learn shit from both of them. Now i dont know about inke important topics and i usually rely on Atif Ahmad official to post important topics of subjects but he only posted them for physics but not comp.

SOOOOOOOOOO can you guys tell me what are some must prepare topics from 1st and 2nd year computer so i can maximize the amount of marks i will get from both of them in this short span of time.

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u/beesy_churger — 23 days ago