honestly I was pretty delusional. thought I can sort it out but I really can’t. I can’t make it after all. my family spent so much money on me already and I still couldn’t succeed in anything. Ill stay in this country forever. Ill probably just end it this summer
It might be a silly question but In my country you’re not allowed to even use your phone or any device in the classroom.. but from what Ive seen online, many people bring laptops to lectures
How common is it to use pc at the university for assignments? And is it common to only use textbooks in class?
In general what’s required for students usually?
I don’t like hair at all here, I wanted to make something more like a jellyfish cut but went more emo since I felt it’d be easier but it’s still looks weird.
face looks off but I don’t understand why. maybe it’s too anime-like compared to the body? I really need some help 😭
Ill tag nsfw just in case
breakfast: strawberry protein powder, oats, a bit of milk, butter, cinnamon, peanut butter, honey, salt
lunch: sandwich and salads have basically the same ingredients (chicken breast, tomato, cucumber, pickled onions, avocado, spinach); sweet chilli sauce and mayo for the sandwich, balsamic and olive oil for the salad; iced tea
snack: two twix-like candies and peach tea
dinner: breaded fish patty, tomato, sweet chilli sauce, cheese sandwich
breakfast: strawberry protein powder, oats, milk, cinnamon, peanut butter, butter, stevia, salt
snack: half of the cherry candy, twix-like candy (first caramel, second cocoa)
dinner: rice, avocado, cucumber, green beans, chicken breast with carrots in sauce (peanut butter, honey, soy sauce, sweet chilli sauce), plus a glass of berry juice
breakfast: milk, oats, creme brulee protein powder, salt, stevia, peanut butter, butter
lunch: breaded fish wrap, vegetables, slice of cheese, mustard, sweet chilli sauce, ricotta
dinner: rice, cucumber, soy sauce, tuna, mayo, onion, sweet chilli sauce, chicken breast
snack: granola, kefir
I really need help. I started smoking on and off since I was a little kid. Ive been smoking for 10 years now. usually I smoke only one a day, sometimes I can even go a day or two without a cigarette.
but I just can’t quit fully. It’s like it’s part of my identity and I just can’t imagine not smoking my whole life. I think I have less addiction to nicotine than to the whole process and what surrounds it.
how to change this mindset?
especially it’s difficult since Ive already trained myself to not smoke at home and only do so when I go out (every morning I go for a walk). but not I just can’t go out without smoking..
I should probably mention Im mentally ill and anytime Im stressed (all the time) I always want to smoke, so I do it for this reason too.
I want to quit mostly due to smell and cost but for health too
Im 21 now. I still struggle a lot with mental health but Im a pretty positive person, lead semi-healthy lifestyle (workout, eat clean, don’t drink at all), finished college in my country and going to continue my education abroad. I don’t really look like someone who struggles I think(?)
when people ask me things about my past, I try to avoid the topic. all fun stories I can share still a bit dark or weird and definitely shouldn’t have happened at my age.
still I hate that some people give me a side eye when I say I didn’t have the best childhood or that I just don’t want to talk about it, for some reason everyone assumes Im being dramatic
breakfast: strawberry protein shake, milk
lunch: chicken breast wrap w vegetables, ricotta, mango chilli sauce; diet coke
dinner: jajangmyeon instant noodles, half of an egg, radish, nori; berry lemonade
breakfast: kefir, strawberry protein powder, banana, cinnamon, granola, peanut butter
lunch: pork, veggies, some cheese
dinner: breaded fish, rice, mango chilli sauce, asparagus, butter; diet coke; some pomegranate and blueberries
snacks: a bit of cheese cheetos
I eat up to 1310 cal a day. F 170cm 71kg, low activity (a few months ago it was zero) I used a site to calculate it and been sticking to a calorie deficit for maybe six months. Ive lost around 7kg.
But since I started exercising my weight loss slowed down SO much, Im practically not losing any weight.
I definitely track everything and I only do walks 2-3k steps a day and 15-20 min pilates workout at home, so I doubt I put on any muscle? Can it be possible if I had the smallest percentage of muscle mass before starting working out? My body does look different after 2+ months of this daily activity. But I’ve lost maybe 0,5kg…
I just don’t understand why I don’t lose weight. I eat really well: protein 75-100g every day, enough healthy fats, a lot of vegetables, not cutting out carbs either. Im not new to counting calories, in total Ive lost 35kg so far
(I have depression and unemployed rn so I have a hard time exercising more than that. Still, it’s a big improvement from being in bed 24/7. I move around the house more, sometimes run on a treadmill but even 5 min is a lot to me)
my groomer was definitely one of those predators who loved control. she was jealous of me and kept degrading me subtly, ruining my self esteem. I didn’t know I was groomed despite being with her for almost four years.
but looking back at it.. she would just everything to make me look and feel bad. or even to make me look overly sexual. I suppose it made her less guilty. she would make up stories about me, would jokingly call me a whore, share all details about our sex life with her adult friends, all behind my back.
and recently I remembered how she would often say how similar I am to one character. I liked his vibe so thought it was cool, nothing special. I decided to look up this character now bc he showed up on my fyp.. and he’s basically a teen prostitute that is sa’d by adults in the story. I guess that was funny for her to compare me to him.. or that I didn’t understand it and thought it was cool…
lunch: pomegranate juice, peas, corn, bell pepper, spinach, ground turkey and beef, mango chili sauce, ricotta
dinner: coke zero, cheese pizza, olive oregano nachos, arugula, olive oil, shrimp, balsamic, mango chili sauce, pine nuts
Im trying to get more fats and iron in my meals, usually I have protein shake for breakfast so today’s protein was pretty low
I don’t really vent in descriptions but don’t mind questions if something here is confusing