[22F]Relationship issues and confusion with boyfriend [25M]
Me and my boyfriend have been together for 2 year now
But from past 5 months i have been fighting with him.
He is such a gentleman and the nicest guy he is so genuine and loves me so much like he is the best man out there. He prioritize me over anyone. Gives me all his time at home at work. We are in ldr but he never made me feel we live far away.
Now lemme tell you guys we met on Instagram and talking we released we are almost the same we were syncing and while talking i fell in love when i first saw him smiling, but i was afraid to tell him. But then after some days he said those three words and everything went with the flow , i was trying to know his surroundings and everything but one day he showed me a picture with his female colleague and for him it was kind of normal to click pictures but i didn't felt right we started fighting over that picture and i started having problems with every female around him.
In april we went on a trip with us and two more couple. (His male bestfriend n male bestfriend's girlfriend) (My boyfriend, his bestfriend and his bestfriend's girlfriend used to be friends in college time so they used to talk, crack jokes and laugh) But i started to have problem with his bestfriend's girlfriend because i felt like she wants my boyfriend's attention. I tried convincing my boyfriend that she has bad eyes on him and argued with him. And kinda disrespect him at one point. After sometime he blocked her and cut his contact with her.
But now he love is not the same as it used to be. Have I broken something? Was I being too reckless ? Will we never return to the same pace we had ? Being a woman isn't getting jealous normal? We went on a trip in april and since then its august i still feel that we both are not able to recover from that. He even took my tag of being his best friend. Like he says even if he tries to talk to someone at work he has to think over it 100 times that i will get hurt or start an argument. He in july said he is not feeling like himself. Will these arguments never end or what do i have to do to make him feel how he used to feel with me carefree and kid we both always have fun and planning to meet but now we both kinda try to run away so we both don't end up arguing. I feel the need of him so emotionally my heart ,always pounding and my mind always trying to make him feel better. And somedays he acts normal and when the arguments are not there he is genuinely free and talking to me, i feel like i have just tied him around myself which I don't want to do. I want him to spend time with me but more i want is he being happy and going out with his friends and being happy but i cant bear females and i don't know what is the end of this Loop. I only know i love him he loves me then why we keep fighting? How to make him feel safe?
