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I was always under the assumption that she was around 18-20 given the fact she lives alone.

Then I read an interview where kikiyama referred to her as “the child?”, however, for anyone reading this who doesn’t know, the interview it came from was actually a parody interview! i was surprised too, many people still think that interview is legitimate, where kikiyama forgets his own main character lol.

Okay, back to the topic. She does look very childlike, but i feel like the game would make more sense if she were an agoraphobic/depressed young adult. I have wondered if perhaps her design was actually the self insert of kikiyama and perhaps she (assuming kikiyama is female) designed madotsuki off of herself.

The reason i think this is plausible is because Yume Nikki appears to be a very personal project. There are too many recurrent random themes that come up that seem personal (like the Aztec imagery, it would make a lot of sense if Kikiyama had a south american heritage). This would be partly why the game is so illusive and makes not too much sense to us. It was meant more for Kikiyama themself. This would also make Kikiyama’s development of Yume Nilki ceasing after becoming popular, make sense.

This is just a little theory, i am probably wrong lol

is this the case for anyone else? im extremely ugly.

im 20 and have been agoraphobic since i was 15, which caused me to have 0 friends, never go outside, never graduate high school, never have a job, never be in a relationship, never have any life experiences.

i feel trapped. i despise this life. on top of this my family is poor and we dont have a car. i haven’t known what to do for the past 5 years, everyday i wake up worried for my future, but never having a thing to do to change it.

as i understand in the lore, ds3 is basically a culmination of different areas across time. i never seen anyone make this connection before though and i was very surprised to not see anything about it.
the areas look almost exactly the same, i only noticed because im finally playing ds2 after skipping it when i played ds1 and ds3 years ago.

Im 20 Male, Ive always been an anxious person, but the past 2 years i have had this terrible impending doom feeling that just persists and persists. It makes me feel like a scared little kid, a lonely one.

I don’t have any friends, i dropped out of school, no job, body dysmorphia.
My impending doom is a mix of real fears, irrational fear, AND ALSO a general doom feeling for no specific reason. I liken it to an existential fear i guess.
I fear about my life my future, i fear about choking, i fear about people dying. I have a great fear of my mom dying randomly and it prevents me from being able ti sleep. I get a fear of the world ending. I have a fear of existence, being able to see out of my eyes freaks me out. Being human and seeing the world around me freaks me the hell out. Im also agoraphobic.

Even without those specific fears, there is a non specific feeling of something just being WRONG.
I live like this nearly 24/7. I NEVER ever feel relaxed. The stress makes me want to cry. I would love to be able to just relax one day.

Ive tried zoloft, lexapro, effexor. none of then did anything, and if they did, they made me worse.

I want to get heavy duty stuff like benzos, but tgat would give any psychiatrist red flags by mentioning that i assume. my family also doesn’t have a car so even getting to a psychiatrist appointment would be a challenge. We have terrible insurance. we are also poor if you couldnt infer that by now.

I don’t know what to do. Nothing helps so i just end up tweaking in my bed desperately trying to calm myself down.
No games don’t help, tv doesn’t help. Music doesn’t help.
In fact, sometimes these things give me MORE anxiety somehow??? I don’t even know how to explain it. I bedrot all day and i hate my life and i feel trapped.

Sorry for rambling im tweaking out and looking for relief.

Im 5’9 and i weigh 108 pounds. I have barely any appetite and having food in my stomach makes me nauseous and feel sick. It doesn’t help that my family is poor and we don’t have a lot of food that i am willing to eat.
We do have enough food for me to eat more, but it still would not be enough to be eating a healthy normal amount.
I have ensures, but they make me feel sick after drinking them so i tend to avoid them lately

I hate eating.

Versace Eros Flame is supposed to smell very citrusy and like oranges, with a dry down of vanilla. thats the common sentiment ive seen online.

Immediately upon testing this travel spray from microperfumes, all i smelt was VANILLA and some sandalwood. Hours passed, not even a hint of orange/citrus. Ive read about the opening being almost overwhelmingly orange smelling, yet this smelled pretty much exactly ONLY what the dry down is supposed to smell like.

Still, i kinda like it, it smelling only like vanilla makes it feel like women’s perfume though.
Im disappointed because im assuming this must mean it was exposed to air for too long or something? Idk but its very one note creamy vanilla to me with a hint of sandalwood i think. Not even remotely what i was expecting (i.e spicy warm citrusy)