u/delta_0205

🎨:Nancy

source:https://x.com/missywo77496119/status/2102829903733518540

🎨:쪼키

source:https://x.com/jjoki\_m/status/2100597892767731809

🎨:LafiMoon

source:https://x.com/lafi\_moon\_fi/status/2099912995824361783

Mortis->Carl,Nani->Belle,Brock->Fang

🎨:wormmaggot

source:https://x.com/wormmaggot26/status/2097655833530081296

Art:Nekomoto

Source:https://x.com/nekomoto\_0610/status/2091863101658567022

🎨:Nekomoto

Source:https://x.com/nekomotohuku

Apparently you can cancel the animation and make the slash happened instantly with the gadget now

🎨:Bugu

source:https://x.com/BUGU2222

🎨:Bugu

source:https://x.com/BUGU2222/status/2089323892519375236/

Huh

So this is the end of my wacky woo-hoo all funs and shit holiday huh, honestly I'm not ready for what is about to happen in the future but… yeah this is kinda the reason I want to do a somewhat vent post thingy,to un, express my feeling once and for all.

Then again I'm still not sure how to organize my paragraph, so un let's start with something recent, my feelings as from the moment I'm writing this. To put a simply, I would say, as a bit of mixture of dread,fear,scared, overwhelmed, hopeless ,helpless and a little bit of…shame.

Dread-Dread of the unforeseen future and my uncertain fate,the world of adult,work, what the fuck could I even work on?

Fear-fear of what I should achieve my be impossible,and it might be "way too out of my league", fear that I will not be able to achieve the gpa.

Scared-scared of what if I failed? even when I know damn well there is no returning, I am the one pushing myself to the cliff.

Overwhelmed- Overwhelmed by the pressure BEFORE the actual challenge, so ironic isn't it?

Hopeless- That I struggle to see the lights in my life, I feel like I will enter a neverending maelstrom that never end, and even if there is the end, I will be lost and won't be able to find it. (speaking of maelstrom, here's my favourite song that shared the same name, this is actually the sixth year of me liking this song,hate the remastered version:https://youtu.be/R\\\_KomOhJDGE )

Helpless- As I know damn well there's never something on my back try to catch when I'm falling (physically and mentally), as unsurprisingly I couldn't really find any friends along my life. I felt like too smart to be special-needed,but too stupid to be "normal", which I guess it is I curse that I don't get to feel attached to either sides.

Ashamed-that I know I do not deserve empathy,that I built up my own consequences, everything that I'm worrying about were , hate to admit it,all my fault. is my fault to not study harder, my fault to not try harder to make friend even though I may be being make fun of. I did step out of my comfort zone and while yes it was painful, that was still no way near enough to climb back to what you all called -normal.

Guilt.

Geez, honestly I have that out the way I already feel way better, and I want to go to sleep so let's end it here.Honesty that is so much more I want to talk about but also I don't want to share too many of my personal inconvenience and ruined whoever kind enough to read this's day.

At last, this probably won't be the last post I made here, and I will pretty much still Post some random degenerate shit and beautiful artwork of a character that I fell attached and empathy for ,but from now onwards, I don't want to make this sound cringy and edgy, but part of me that I still wasn't prepared to let go will slowly but surely die and fades away. to those who worry about my mental health please know that I won't really go to suicide yet, I made a promise to myself. and if I did kept the promise and outlive my parents, I will probably throw my dad's bonemeal into a toilet lol. I don't really 100% hate him but I do hate him regardless of whatever the tries to be a better person bullshit is going on, honestly I don't really care. maybe time will change what I feel about him but, whatever.

It's nice knowing you all, really,I do enjoy the time I was on this sub, and I actually consider some of you as my friend,well, at least someone that I am comfortable enough to let out my intuitive thought and shittalk to.

I'm tired indeed,

goodnight,Bscj.