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I’m in the final year of my LL.B. and I’m in a tough financial situation.

My home environment is stressful, and my goal is to become financially independent and eventually move out. I’m also struggling to find a corporate law internship.

Right now, I need money for:
CS Executive exam fees
My dog’s expenses
Basic daily expenses

If you were in my position, what would you focus on over the next 6–12 months? Any practical financial advice would be appreciated.

24F here

People will probably say, “A boyfriend won’t solve your problems.” I know that. But I can’t stop feeling like having someone who genuinely loves me, hugs me, and makes me feel safe would make life a little more bearable.

For the past few months, I’ve been having dreams about having sex with men. I wake up feeling frustrated because I’m single and my physical and emotional needs just go unmet. More than sex, I crave affection. I just want to sleep in someone’s arms, be held, and feel like I have a safe place to exist.

At home, things are a mess.

My parents and younger sibling mentally torture me and my elder sister almost every single day. They have the same script taunts, criticism, emotional manipulation repeated over and over. I barely speak to them anymore because every conversation turns toxic.

They’re constantly pressuring us to get married. I’m trying to build a career, but I feel like I’m racing against time. If I don’t get a job by next year, I won’t have any excuse left to refuse marriage.

On top of that, I have financial stress.

I’m entering my final year of LL.B., and the fees are around ₹50,000. My dad might refuse to pay them. I’m also appearing for the CS Executive exam in December, and the registration itself is ₹23,000. I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to manage all of this.

I’ve been desperately trying to get a corporate law internship not just for my career, but also because I need an excuse to stay away from home.

A few days ago, I had an interview. It lasted around 35 minutes, and the interviewer completely read through me. He told me I wasn’t confident, that I looked like I was on the borderline of depression, that I lacked personality, passion, and looked completely lost.

Surprisingly, I wasn’t offended. It hurt, but it felt true. Everything happening at home has started showing on my face. I was trying so hard not to break down during the interview.

He ended it by saying, “Sort out your life and be more active and confident.”

Now I don’t know how I’m going to pay my fees, clear my exams, find an internship, or even take care of my dog.

Lately, I’ve been feeling numb. Like a loser. I’ve even started having suicidal thoughts because everything feels so overwhelming.

I know a boyfriend wouldn’t magically fix my finances or family. But I genuinely think having one person who loved me, held me, and reminded me that I’m not alone would make surviving all of this so much easier.

Someone please tell me how to keep a constant smile on their face?? bec my school teachers and bus conductors also didnt spared me that I look ill and sad:)

TL;DR: I’m stuck in a toxic home, under pressure to get married, struggling financially, trying to build my career, and feeling emotionally exhausted. I know a boyfriend wouldn’t fix everything, but I can’t stop wishing I had someone to love me and make me feel less alone

I’m honestly feeling completely cooked right now — financially, emotionally, and career-wise.

I come from a very toxic family situation. My mom is abusive, has slut-shamed me, taunts me constantly, and has even tried to hit my dog. I don’t talk to her anymore because of how bad things have gotten. My dad is emotionally unavailable and has now also stopped giving us money. Both of them just want me and my sibling to get married off, and they trash-talk us instead of supporting us. On top of that my younger brother who is 21 also bitches about me any my elder sister to my parents. No matter how much we do for him he never appreciates.

I think what hurts the most is that I’ve spent so much of my life hoping my parents would love me like normal parents do, but that just never happened. I’ve also had 3 failed relationships, so mentally I’m already exhausted.

I’m currently preparing for my CS Executive exam December, and I’ll most likely have to manage the registration fees myself because I can’t ask my parents for help anymore. It genuinely feels like they’re done with us.
At this point, the only solution I can see is to start earning as soon as possible. I need to be able to support myself and also give my dog a better life.
I’m a law student, and I’ve already tried applying for internships through Indeed and Internshala, but nothing has worked so far.

So I really need help from law students, lawyers, or anyone in the legal field:

How can I actually find a legal internship/job when online applications aren’t working?

What should I be doing differently as a law student to start earning ASAP?

Are there any remote legal internships, chamber internships, drafting work, research work, or part-time opportunities I should look into?

If you were in my place and needed to become
financially independent fast, what would you do?

Any practical advice would mean a lot right now.

I was talking to a guy and he shared something from his past that completely changed the way I see him. I dont want to date him bec I dont find him attractive enough and he is not just someone that my parents will approve!
So we decided to stay friends.

According to him, his friend told him to sleep with his wife, and he did. The friend was apparently present while it happened. I don’t know the full context and honestly, I don’t really care to.

For me, a person’s choices, boundaries, and judgment say a lot about who they are. The moment I heard that story, I completely lost interest in him romantically. It wasn’t even about the act itself as much as it was about what it made me think about his decision-making and character.

When I told him I was out, he responded with things like:

“Ok now you want drama out of this? Tune suni bhi nahi mujhe thik se.”

And later:

“You judged me without hearing the entire story.”

My view is that I don’t need to think someone is a bad person to decide they’re not someone I want to date. If something fundamentally clashes with my values, that’s enough for me.

Also when I met him for the first time he wanted to kiss me. I didnt found him attractive enough nor I was comfortable. He insisted me to engage in that activity. I did it and it honestly felt weird.
Even after I denied he kept pursuading that he is in the mood.

FYI - we met at the restaurant and he was serving us!

Am I being unfair for deciding I don’t want to date someone based on this, even without hearing the full context? Or is it reasonable to walk away when a person’s choices make you lose attraction for them even as a friend?

Im a third year LLB student and need recommendations for CD classes.

Thankyou in advance:)

Second-Year LLB Student Planning to Start CS Preparation

Hi everyone,

I’m a second-year LLB student and I’m planning to prepare for the CS (Company Secretary) exam. The problem is that I come from a non-legal and non-commerce background, and honestly, I don’t have anyone around me who can guide me through the process.

I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed because there is so much information online that I don’t know where to start.

I would really appreciate some guidance on:

1.How a complete beginner should start preparing for the CS exam
2.Which subjects are the most challenging and how to approach them
3.The best YouTube channels for CS preparation
4.Study materials and resources you found helpful
5.Common mistakes beginners should avoid
6.Any tips for balancing CS preparation with LLB studies

If you’ve cleared CS or are currently preparing for it, I’d be grateful for any advice or roadmap you can share.

Thank you in advance!

Last month my ex randomly called me saying he felt lonely and low. I was in Bombay shopping with my sibling and niece, but I rushed back to meet him because I knew something was wrong. When we met, he cried and admitted he called because he knew I’d come no matter what.

We spent the evening near Marine Drive, talked for hours, and I comforted him like someone deeply in love would. He even brought flowers and chocolates — things he never did when we were actually together. After that, he started calling me every day.

Two weeks ago we got physical for the first time. Back when we dated, we never went that far. But honestly, it was horrible. I was in pain the whole time and felt completely emotionally disconnected. It genuinely made me realize I was lucky I never ended up with him.

That same night I told him I couldn’t continue talking daily unless he actually wanted commitment. He stopped for a while, then came back again with random “I miss you” texts while disappearing for entire days. It frustrated me because this was the same pattern he always had — wanting emotional comfort without accountability.

For context: we dated from 2018–2019 and broke up because he cheated. Even after the breakup, he’d keep coming back whenever he felt lonely, especially when things failed with other women.

Yesterday my periods were delayed, so I went to buy a pregnancy test. I was low on money after buying medicines for my dog. Since he had said he’d handle expenses if anything happened, I sent him a ₹110 UPI request. He later texted me: “You called me for ₹110? Seriously?”

That hurt more than anything. I never asked this man for money in my life. The one time I asked for help in something involving both of us, he made me feel small for it.

Today the test came back negative, and I finally blocked him.

Looking back, I realized he never truly changed. He always needed someone emotionally available for him, but could never offer stability, commitment, or accountability in return. Despite everything, I always respected and loved him deeply.

But for the first time, I finally chose my self-respect over my attachment to him.

And weirdly… letting all this go feels peaceful.

Ps - I used chatgpt to make this short and correct.