My appetite is ruined
I struggle with restrictive eating patterns, orthorexia and severe anxiety towards food. Thanks to this and other factors, I developed methane SIBO (IMO) and food intolerance. Nowadays, I can't eat gluten nor dairy and also, my hunger signals are totally dead. I'm never hungry. I don't have any hunger cues. Of course, due to treatment, I'm supposed to have three meals a day and some snacks, so I do. But I feel full after the first bite and always end up feeling sick, full and/or uncomfortable. I eat anyways, and I sometimes eat mindlessly. I don't struggle with b~~~~inge eating, but I always end up feeling like I experienced one of those episodes (it has happened in the past). I can't help but feel so guilty and self-conscious and this intense aversion to food. I write down the things I had and send it to my boyfriend every night, and he always says that I'm doing good and it's a normal amount of food. But still I feel like I'm overeating... did you experience something like this? How do you practice this more intuitive, conscious eating? And were you able to resurrect your hunger cues? Thank you and be safe.