u/foxy_fluffer

Compared to most people with ptsd or cptsd I think I'm pretty lucky that it was not worse but the trauma I experienced at 8 years old from someone it didn't last long like 5 minutes but it wasn't until I turned 13 that I discovered a bad site online reached out for help and the person I reached out too was a creep basically aka pedophile of course I never knew this I was just trying to get help but he basically brainwashed me and reconfigured my mind like I was a puppet on strings or something but all my doctors I've spoken to and that said of course me being young I was vulnerable but anyway long story short I got the polices attention in the end it went the wrong way basically got done for something I'm not but uk police system is the way it is but I'm not unhappy about it if anything I was glad that in the end someone actually heard me cause now being almost 27 I feel more free but at the start of the new year just before Christmas I started getting these flashbacks of past events and yadadada you all know how it can be I just need to know if these days where I just feel basically meaningless or flat or just generally non existent is normal I was diognosed pretty recently with ptsd but I did not know if I should of posted it here or not as the feeling just feel complex.

Note to reader: sorry for the massive chunk of text my brain may have spiralled a little bit writing it I hope you can understand it okay thanks for reading oh and the person I tried reaching out to got jail so thank god for that I'm also sorry if this has triggered anyone in anyway as well I on a waiting list for therapy it's just taking a very long while

Compared to most people with ptsd or cptsd I think I'm pretty lucky that it was not worse but the trauma I experienced at 8 years old from someone it didn't last long like 5 minutes but it wasn't until I turned 13 that I discovered a bad site online reached out for help and the person I reached out too was a creep basically aka pedophile of course I never knew this I was just trying to get help but he basically brainwashed me and reconfigured my mind like I was a puppet on strings or something but all my doctors I've spoken to and that said of course me being young I was vulnerable but anyway long story short I got the polices attention in the end it went the wrong way basically got done for something I'm not but uk police system is the way it is but I'm not unhappy about it if anything I was glad that in the end someone actually heard me cause now being almost 27 I feel more free but at the start of the new year just before Christmas I started getting these flashbacks of past events and yadadada you all know how it can be I just need to know if these days where I just feel basically meaningless or flat or just generally non existent is normal I was diognosed pretty recently with ptsd but I did not know if I should of posted it here or not as the feeling just feel complex.

Note to reader: sorry for the massive chunk of text my brain may have spiralled a little bit writing it I hope you can understand it okay thanks for reading oh and the person I tried reaching out to got jail so thank god for that I'm also sorry if this has triggered anyone in anyway as well I on a waiting list for therapy it's just taking a very long while

Someone stopped and asked them if they needed a lift they said no thanks we are walkers