Gray rocking your narc family

For people who has f up family and no friends no support system, did you successfully gray rock toxic/narcissistic family members ?was it easy?

I struggle badly with this i always promise myself to not engage but at the end i end up doing it ,telling them details about my life my struggles my thoughts then i regret it. I cant seem to find a resolution i always end up emotionally wounded.

I don't know why i forget, can't keep things to myself knowing that they will hurt me ....i feel naive being vulnerable with the wrong people cz you have no one else in your life.

I was mostly silent during my childhood i rarely spoke but when i did they screamed at me or gave the silent treatment i always ended up venting oversharing with any girl i meet outside they always gave me the side eye i didn't know how to have proper conversation, the social ques,the invisible rules. i still suck tho, but at least I'm aware of it, trying to get better.

I have alot if anger towards my family members but when it comes to talking to them again i just do it without thinking sometimes after arguments or a fight i stay reserved for about a week then go back to the same old sht.

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 2 days ago

Gray rocking your narc family members

For people who has f up family and no friends no support system, did you successfully gray rock toxic/narcissistic family members ?was it easy?

I struggle badly with this i always promise myself to not engage but at the end i end up doing it ,telling them details about my life my struggles my thoughts then i regret it. I cant seem to find a resolution i always end up emotionally wounded.

I don't know why i forget, can't keep things to myself knowing that they will hurt me ....i feel naive being vulnerable with the wrong people cz you have no one else in your life.

I have alot if anger towards them but when it comes to talking to them again i just do it without thinking sometimes after arguments or a fight i stay reserved for about a week then go back to the same old sht.

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 2 days ago
▲ 5 r/Dreams

Nebraska

I had a dream that there was a party and to get in you needed to choose a partner... me and a few other ppl ran to the exit trying to escape. Then a lady approached me and gave me a card with a picture. Basically in the picture was building looked like a colosseum, just like the one in Italy. It was all dark, black and white, with one window in the corner that had a neon red light. There was also a quote that said: *People nowadays blame everything that happens to them on what happened back in Nebraska.* As soon as I woke up I googled Nebraska and it's a state in the USA that I've never heard of before lmao

u/geinzl — 8 days ago

virtual assistant freelance platforms

Hello I want to start my career as Virtual assistant and I'm confused about platforms i don't know which one to choose

does anyone here have experience being va?and how did you find a platform ,one that protect you from scams

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 15 days ago
▲ 0 r/canva

I desperately need a canva pro invite link

hello everynian

please can anyone help me by sending a link, i'm building my portfolio and i really need canva pro.

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 16 days ago

Globus sensation in the throat

After 9 months of TRE mostly (involuntary tremors) I finally got rid of globus sensation in my throat which caused me a lot of pain during 5 years ,5 years of suffering and choking on food.I'm so happy it's finally gone ...

​

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 25 days ago

Selling things on algerian marketplace and Facebook groups

Hello everynian

So basically ive been trying to sell shoes that didn't fit me on marketplace, groups the thing is Facebook groups are so dead and so is marketplace i checked other post and there are 0 interaction its crazy i remember selling things back in 2024 it would fload with comments and msgs now there are 0

The same thing in marketplace the most i got was 2 request and its been a month

Any solution?

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 27 days ago

Scared of men

Hello as the title says im kinda scared of men or talking to a man its more like not feeling comfortable around men idk where it came from i never been in a relationship before ive had a talking stage its been around 4 years since that happened and didn't even last long talking makes me feel really vulnerable and I'm afraid of getting hurt....well i get attention from men but i hate ittt because it feels like harassment maybe it is im not sure

I still crave connection but not irl i like to imagine having a husband someone who loves me and cares about me and it ofc goes both ways but in reality makes me feel terrified

One time accepted a marriage proposal like an engagement, it was arranged of course i had to cancel el choffa in the last minute i was terrified i had panic attack just from overthinking

Is this common or does anyone have a similar situation going on i feel really confused years keeps going by and i still done nothing about it

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 1 month ago

Being sick and unable to work living with your toxic family is hell

3am rant

In the past 3 to 4 years i had the worst experience in my life i mean ive been abused and neglected by my family through my childhood just like most of people i wasnt that aware of it i kinda disociated through most of it ....but the thing is what happened in the last 4 years was hell compared to it i

Well at the beginning of 2022 i had an overdose sui*cide attempt after my mom forced me to be on medications and took me to psychiatrist who neglected the hell out of me ignored all the warning signs ahe talked to me like a life coach most of the time whenever i told her that ige no friends no support system she start making fun of me saying that i dont need them and im making shit up

Well after my attempt i woke up after 4 day of coma i was completely blacked out i was somehow high lost not aware of my actions and you know what the first thing my mom said is "why did you try to kill yourself is it because of a boy took your virginity" thats the first thing that came out to her head because in my country and religion its kinda shameful and forbidden having sex..... idk why she thought of that it didn't came out to her head that i was lonely i had no support no one of them actually cared about me , she didn't think that she was hurting me or abusing me to the point that i had zero hope ....i was exploding with rage whenever she talked to me

Ever since that the anger and the rage the sadness everything become an illness my stomack hurted like hell no matter what i did it kept hurting my neck and shoulders were super tight and i was super numb i had heavy painful period every month no doctor ever took me seriously and they blamed it on diet while i couldn't afford nutritious meal cz of my family they are the kind that keeps the fridge empty on purpose so they can financially abuse you and blame you cz you are unemployed

Well my mom at that time blamed my illness on me she looked for every opportunity to make me feel bad...she blamed my illness on me saying "you are not praying enough you are not holly enough thats why are sick you have black magic you are possessed by the devil"

At same time my aunt guilt trip me to live with her so i can give her bath help her wearing her clothes and stuff well the place that she lived in there was no bath so you have to bath at same place where the toilet is ,there was no room for me i sleep next to the fridge the house was ice cold in winter and hell hot in summer.whenever i try to leave she guilt trip me to stay and after 3 months my cousin who is a huge predator and a bully came to live with us and whenever i had enough of it saying its me gere or him she start crying beginning me me to stay and whenever i had a breakdown saying that i dont want to stay here telling her all the bad stuff she did to me forcing me to stay in this unsafe place she start blaming stuff on me invalidating me saying bad stuff to me like im making things up and im too sensitive anyway she is dead now she got sick and died that was my freedom thank god

I discovered TRE 9 months ago i was able to release trauma my symptoms are disappearing one by one i feel lighter but the thing is i still live with my parents same shit still going on i still feel some of the rage whenever ive to talk to my mom sometimes i forget myself and talk more to her and it ends up in arguments and fights i tried gray rock but im so lonely ive no one to talk to no one to listen to me I don't know what to do

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 2 months ago

Hello as the tittle said

I'm looking for a affordable school that teach piano in Algiers preferably close to bebezouar

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 2 months ago

Well I'm still planning but i cant stop thinking how can i get my product in the market ....like do you go and present your product to supermarkets and give free samples to the owner, then they choose if they take it or not .or you depend on online marketing only ,i dont have big budget to afford making luxurious marketing videos just like the industries or pay influencers to talk about it...

ps: ma3ndich ma3rifa no strings to pull.

reddit.com
u/geinzl — 2 months ago