Gray rocking your narc family
For people who has f up family and no friends no support system, did you successfully gray rock toxic/narcissistic family members ?was it easy?
I struggle badly with this i always promise myself to not engage but at the end i end up doing it ,telling them details about my life my struggles my thoughts then i regret it. I cant seem to find a resolution i always end up emotionally wounded.
I don't know why i forget, can't keep things to myself knowing that they will hurt me ....i feel naive being vulnerable with the wrong people cz you have no one else in your life.
I was mostly silent during my childhood i rarely spoke but when i did they screamed at me or gave the silent treatment i always ended up venting oversharing with any girl i meet outside they always gave me the side eye i didn't know how to have proper conversation, the social ques,the invisible rules. i still suck tho, but at least I'm aware of it, trying to get better.
I have alot if anger towards my family members but when it comes to talking to them again i just do it without thinking sometimes after arguments or a fight i stay reserved for about a week then go back to the same old sht.