u/hightierderp

Like, how can I like everything while nothing likes me back 😂 It's very comical.

I hide behind the "aseuxal" label because of the way I look. I'm a mixed woman (Swedish, arab+ turkish), people often assume I'm South Asian or fully "ethnic", and I hate the way I look because men of my own descent do, too. Admitting that I have sexual desires makes me feel pathetic, disgusting, and embarrassing, like I'd only ever be seen as a pocket pussy to use rather than someone to love.

On top of that, I only want to be intimate with someone who truly loves me. But it's hard for that to ever happen because of my looks. And because most moids are used up sluts who only think with their cocks and will cheat every second they get.

Sometimes I feel like such a fraud when I tell people I'm asexual, because deep down I know that's not true. It's become a way to protect myself from rejection and from having to admit that I crave intimacy while believing no one will ever want me.

Even though I'm skinny, I have flared ribs, short torso that makes me boxy, small breasts, small butt, hip dips, outtie (down there), my body hair grows back so quickly, and, above all, an unattractive face without makeup. I wish I could have something. Either face or a body part. But no. The only way I can "glam" myself up is with double jaw surgery, lip lift, rib removal and laser hair removal (which I doubt will work because my aunt from the arab side has gotten laser hair removal multiple times but it still grows back).

I hide behind the "aseuxal" label because of the way I look. I'm a mixed woman (Swedish, arab+ turkish), people often assume I'm South Asian or fully "ethnic", and I hate the way I look because men of my own descent do, too. Admitting that I have sexual desires makes me feel pathetic, disgusting, and embarrassing, like I'd only ever be seen as a pocket pussy to use rather than someone to love.

On top of that, I only want to be intimate with someone who truly loves me. But it's hard for that to ever happen because of my looks. And because most moids are used up sluts who only think with their cocks and will cheat every second they get.

Sometimes I feel like such a fraud when I tell people I'm asexual, because deep down I know that's not true. It's become a way to protect myself from rejection and from having to admit that I crave intimacy while believing no one will ever want me.

Even though I'm skinny, I have flared ribs, short torso that makes me boxy, small breasts, small butt, hip dips, outtie (down there), my body hair grows back so quickly, and, above all, an unattractive face without makeup. I wish I could have something. Either face or a body part. But no. The only way I can "glam" myself up is with double jaw surgery, lip lift, rib removal and laser hair removal (which I doubt will work because my aunt from the arab side has gotten laser hair removal multiple times but it still grows back).

they threaten women for being on org or their spaces, yet they infiltrate ours constantly

they threaten women for being on org or their spaces, yet they infiltrate ours constantly

1. Attraction: A moid will befriend women he thinks are attractive. It doesn't matter whether the woman is objectively attractive or not, but if he finds her attractive, he will try to befriend her. He does that because he thinks he will have a chance with her someday, maybe when she's sobbing in his arms after her breakup.

2. The convinience: A moid will also befriend an unattractive woman. He does this because he is aware of the fact that she rarely receives attention, and since men are manipulative creatures, they will take advantage of this to fuel their ego. He will give the woman mixed signs, such as telling her she is not like other girls, so they stay friends as he bombards her with his relationship issues. He will also use her for money and as he sees fit.

3. Networking: A moid will befriend women to gain access to their social circles, hoping that they will introduce him to women he actually wants to date or improve his reputation.

Hello, fellow femcels! I had no intention of sounding insensitive to those who have gone through that, but I meant to say that it was how I truly realized I was unattractive and unappealing to moids.

I am not stating that I would like to be catcalled either, in fact, I would probably feel very sad that they see me as some sort of object. But to be catcalled means you're "worthy" of being looked at or desired, and I wish that ( I'm sorry :( ) I would get catcalled because then it would confirm that they would at least tolerate me.

The other day, my pretty white friend who's got golden hair, blue eyes, very long lashes, told me about how when she sat at the tram, a guy kept staring at her even when she looked back at him. And she has told me many months earlier that a guy in our school, who I used to have a crush on (but never told her about it), whistled at her when she walked past and laughed with his friend.

God, I am so sick and twisted. After she had told me about that, I felt jealousy, not in the sense that "Why is she complaining?" But in the sense that "Moids are disgusting, but at least she's getting acknowledged for simply existing." (I am skinny, but I'm flat, and have flared ribs alon with a short torso and hip dips, so nothing on my body is desirable. My face is ugly without makeup and I have a 5-6 mm overjet. I am arab but I look south Asian, so I get racist comments daily. really feel like I lost in every lottery ticket.)

I also wish that I could stop caring about being seen by the very moids I despise and that I could be a lesbian. But it's not like I can stop myself from thinking that way after being fed with this type of thoughts since I was a little girl. And this is proof that sexuality is not a choice, because if I could, I would.

Women genuinely mog the fuck out of men, but I can't. :(