I’m so tempted to check diaries and personal devices but I know that isn’t right and will not stop there. What is something I can tell myself so I can simply move on…
Realized I was really unclear and I mean scared that my partner is cheating on me without concrete evidence…
I have various themes and fixations but currently I am dealing with this theme in specific the hardest. I hear often that the treatment/attitude towards all themes is the same but I beg to differ when it comes to real event.
It can be fiction (mc with REOCD) but I would prefer non-fiction/educational!
I always wonder about this-what phrase can be said to someone that is seeking reassurance? Or if it’s not about giving answers or a response what words can acknowledge their distress but not try to tackle the topic?
I’m already judged by others when I talk about my fixation on my certain themes and called weird by strangers in non-mental health related spaces and I’ve opened up about certain stuff to a general therapist and have been fine but for other things like intrusive thoughts about real events and just the general intrusive thoughts I’ve been reluctant to talk about.
Can a regular therapist that doesn’t necessarily specialize in OCD probably handle that as well or would it be better to just do so with a specialist?
I saw something once saying that a therapist had a client that said something that really triggered a therapist or was a huge trigger for them and they had to manage it but I imagine that’s pretty hard to do especially in front of somebody. I wonder if I’ve ever triggered one because thus far they seem to not show it? Or like what does one say to oneself?
Sometimes there have been large silences where I’m like okay did I say something weird/bad? (I tend to be a huge over-thinker)
I have had therapists that have their OWN therapists so I wonder if it’s just they deal with it there but I’ve been curious about this because I realized of course therapists are human too of course they have their own stories and would be triggered.
I have a sort of an issue with trying to not offend people so it’s made me reluctant to open up about some stuff because I don’t want to make them feel uncomfortable even if the session is tailored towards me…
Im trying to do some reading on them but I am frankly so terrified which is why I’m trying to get over this fear and trying to learn in the first place. I guess this could go for any other phobia-would it really just have to be exposure?
Can be an intro or anything really. I’ve read some of Michael Yellow Birds work but would like to expand
I thought they were separate but I began to look at stories where families were torn apart and how black and indigenous children were most affected/targeted the most.
Is there a better alternative in the case of child abuse? What is the better way to go around potential child endangerment?
Loved this book-my ocd manifests differently but I still relate to the mc anyone have similar books?
I just found out from here that if you report something that has to do with child safety you yourself will most likely get banned 100% and contacted from the police.
I was joining servers earlier today that were in my data package by their names (didn’t always join the right ones) I just looked them up on google and if there was a result checked it out and joined one that seemed to have a harmless description + profile picture and then when I entered I saw someone saying they were selling illegal material and then I completely panicked and reported it then left.
The description even said marked as SFW. And said it was about a twitch streamer? My google search gave me a result from DISCADIA and that’s how I found it…
Now I didn’t know my best bet was to just leave but…I will most likely get banned right?
I reported the server specifically rather than anyone specifically. Is there a sort of threshold to see when you’re in the clear or could it take potentially years to see if I’ll be banned or not? I didn’t even check out the rest of the server just saw that message and reported.
I don’t use the account anymore but I’ve had it for 5-6 years so I would be bummed…I don’t use it anymore but I did when I was a teen.
Anyone have any success from appeals?
I haven’t been on discord much and wasn’t aware of their ai system…I joined a total of 6-7 servers including this one…I don’t even know if it was the same one that I was in 5-6 years ago…
This probably took back years ago maybe 2019? Possibly early 2020? I was maybe either 16/17…
I remember trolling an online’s friends classmate… I remember catfishing a friend of his maybe? God I really can’t remember now… Here’s the part I’m unsure about…did I simply troll them (still terrible) or did I…out my friends sexuality???
I don’t know if I’m remembering wrong and I actually have no way of accessing the chats anymore but I’m scared that I did do that?
I’m just filled with guilt when trying to remember so I just feel like oh then maybe I did do it..I don’t want to ask my friend because what if I did…
I just feel sick…just so sick to my stomach…I don’t know what to do and I can’t get it out my head…
Looking for a book that goes very in depth into recognizing every form of sexual assault or how it can look like?
I want to change the way I look at cockroaches.
I know they spread diseases and all that stuff and admittedly I have killed many cockroaches throughout my lifetime but I keep thinking…this is wrong…I’m not vegan or anything but what gives me the right?
Anyways I was looking for a book maybe that went into this? Not just cockroaches but any other creature that’s considered a “pest”. I want to change and challenge my existing perceptions of them.
It feels weird when I kill an ant or a cockroach. Also why am I scared of them. I want to investigate that.
About 1.5-2 years ago I worked for a major food/retail corporation.
Now I knew all cops were bastards of course and agreed But what I will be saying after is going to contradict this.
Sometimes people stole. I worked here for about a year.
I worked with two other people on my shift. They would usually be in charge of reporting theft to asset protection or our asset protection wasn’t usually reliable so they would just say something on the megaspeaker saying the cameras are watching.
Now if I saw someone steal something I would usually look away BUT if they were near me (coworkers) I’d pretend to be on high alert and if asked questions by them if I saw something I would sometimes corroborate or sometimes felt conscious of the camera above and ask if the person at the dressing room in charge of the megaspeaker to make an announcement.
The announcement would be as follows “Please record ____ section.”
Or sometimes I was told to do it by other coworkers etc. etc.
I’m now realizing how foolish and dangerous I have been. Potentially a murderer as well. I know why I felt compelled to even make the announcement but that’s an explanation not an excuse.
They would also make us walk people to the from of the store with stuff I’m locked cages which I would do with certain items like shoes but in my area I usually did not do it because I didn’t really care and I quit my job because I got in trouble for not taking someone up to the register with the item. (I worked in a clothes section…)
I remember cops being called often when sometimes an presumed unhoused person/someone others would deem mentally unstable would come in…but I think most of the theft was handled by my team leads…but I am still complicit.
I of course now don’t care if people steal and will never call the cops on somebody but I already have instances of doing such a thing indirectly(?) over the course of the year for the times I DID report/collaborate/do something against someone that would potentially put them in danger.
I guess my logic was sometimes they’d be caught by the person checking receipts anyways but at the end of the day it doesn’t matter and I quite possibly have blood on my hands.
Sometimes I feigned ignorance pretending to be too busy to notice, sometimes I collaborated sometimes I asked for an announcement to be made…but I ask myself why. I don’t completely remember every instance unfortunately. Who cares if they stole…did I not realize that even by saying an announcement like that I could be putting them in harms way.
I don’t even know what would happen after with asset protection and now I feel so much guilt I could vomit. I am exactly like a cop in a way. Just like the other people I was working with.
I will never forgive myself and don’t know how to move on. I know this isn’t about me at all but…after becoming more knowledgeable on Anarchy and educating myself more I am just realizing so many things I had neglected and not thought too hard about before. But that’s dangerous because the outcomes can be horrific.
Just because there are rules doesn’t mean you have to follow them…especially if following them could end in terrible circumstances is what I have finally realized.