It’s currently almost 5 am and we’re being under attack. In an effort to calm down, I shut myself in the bathroom to post on Reddit. It’s kinda chill actually, although I can hear stuff exploding from time to time, and Ive witnessed a drone fly by. I stay off the windows, don’t worry.
It’s actually my first time in a drone bombing. It’s exciting, in a weird way. By the way sharing drone bombing locations is illegal so I wouldn’t be giving out details, as it may sabotage the military.
I am an anti-war person so don’t even bother asking questions about the Russo-Ukrainian war. I mean, I will respond, it’s just that at this point discussing it is beating a dead horse. Imagine discussing the same thing over and over for years, its exhausting.
I apologize if my English isn't good, I'm not a native speaker.
I often find myself rethinking certain anxious events in my head from time to time, and I'm juar wondering whether I'm alone on this one. For example, I often think of that time the train stopped at the station for an hour due to a human related accident, I ran out to buy a bottle of water from a vending machine, left my bag in the train, and the moment I returned the doors closed and the train took off. I know nothing bad happened, but the thought that I could have left my bag was so terrifying I still relive that and it leaves me terrified even now.
I also keep reliving things like my driving exam, which was scary due to the strictness of it, or one time I almost got scammed out of money, that one time my relative went missing for three days, or the one time my leg was bleeding out and I couldn't stop it. I don't know why I do that, it didn't use to be this way, it's like my nervous system is in complete disarray. All these events are relatively recent.
Btw I'm medicated and it helps with anxiety. Couldn't find anything useful online regarding this phenomenon.