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I’m assuming 1-4 is Malkovich, Damon, Scott, and Ippolito (in that order). I think all of those are set but I’m still contending on the 5th spot.

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The past year I got really involved with YDSA. Despite some issues with it, I had a generally good time and really loved what we were doing. However, there’s been a lot of interpersonal issues and drama related to that org recently to me, to the point where I don’t know if going will be good for my wellbeing.

I’m looking for other orgs on campus that have a similar purpose/ideology/actionable nature. I still would enjoy the work in that org, but I’m not enthusiastic about participating in it due to factors. If anyone knows of other orgs (preferably ones that don’t meet on Tuesday) then please let me know.

I’ve been struggling a lot with depression this summer, and I started self harming as a result since May 9th. It spawned from a nasty break up, but it’s spiraled so much more from that (feelings of inferiority, yearning, drama within a political organization were both a part of, self loathing over wrong decisions I made in the relationship).

I’ve gone to therapy, I’ve called 988, I’ve gotten antidepressants, I’ve achieved goals (got a job, picked up a hobby), and have spent so much time with old and new friends. I don’t want to glaze myself too much, and have definitely made mistakes, but I feel like I’ve been doing so much right. After July 4th, I made a promise with myself to not self harm for a month, and I even made a bet with my friend to where if I didn’t make it, he would erase my short film.

These past few weeks have honestly been really great. There’s been motivational issues but there was a lot of nonsense that happened in my life and I thought I handled it pretty well + have continued doing therapy and working on myself and socializing and all that jazz. I felt sad occasionally, but it was all manageable.

However, these past two days have been very dire for me. One of the things that kept me happy during the few good weeks was zooming out and looking how far I’ve come from the beginning of this journey. However, I’ve been feeling things that are terrifying similar to what I felt at the beginning of this journey: Random spirals that make me incredibly emotional, feelings of inferiority, self loathing over things I did in the relationship, a lot of anxiety at the mere sight of the person. There’s even new things happening—I cancelled really amazing plans today cuz I had a sudden health anxiety episode flare up.

I’m super scared and sad that I haven’t actually made progress and I’m gonna collapse right when I thought I was getting better. I don’t expect this post to solve everything, but I at least want to get some grasp onto joy from it so I can go these next 16 hours and at least accomplish one of these goals even if I’m still stuck like this for who knows how long after.

I am currently unsure if I’m going to Otakon, but I’m very confident about going to at least one of the surrounding raves/clubs/parties. I initially was going to Sexy Nerds since I’ve already gone there, but I saw an ad for We Touch Grass which made me realize there’s multiple parties. I don’t have any tickets purchased, so I’m down to swap to the most popular event. I want the one that’s probably going to have the best vibes and the most popular. Which ones are you all planning to go to, if any.

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I have a job lined up for the Fund for the Public Interest in the DMV. My “observation day” is this Monday. However, I have a lot of concerns about the job (particularly the fact that their hours are listed as 12-10pm, and the horror stories that I’ve heard online about being overworked). I currently have nothing else lined up for the summer, but would like to still work in the area so I can have an excuse to be in the area.

Does anyone have any experiences with the group and whether or not it would be best to just find another seasonal position.

I want to watch First Man tmmr at a nearby Alamo, but it’s under something called a free victory screening. It costs $5 and it says it’s also a voucher for a food item, but it’s also for Victory Members? I’m not a victory member. Does buying this ticket make me enter a subscription? Am I unable to buy it if I’m not a loyalty member? Does the food with the voucher still cost money? Do I even need to buy food?

Idk this might sound dumb but I’m still curious.