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Sure, I’m just a digital artist, but I love her all the same! (:
And by years, I mean, probably 6 or 7 haha.

Also seeking a name for this lil moth baby!

Trying to get better at taking pictures like old people on dating sites.

Also, I don’t think I’ve had this hard of a time telling what reality is in my entire life. I’m taking my meds, maybe I need an adjustment. I do have a support system, but so much has been happening lately.

This is a long-winded way of saying, I really hope everyone is doing okay. It seems a lot of people are going through it right now, so I hope it gets better.

Schizoaffective bipolar type, PTSD, GAD, and ADHD. Trying to figure myself out. So many meds.

So worried about my psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. :(

Hope everyone is doing okay.

Technically the selfie is at the end.

Traveled 10 hours in one day to get to Dallas, TX to see RED’s last show with their original singer, Michael Barnes. The show also included amazing bands, like Twist It, Kingdom Collapse, and Ra! I was beyond excited that Ra preformed Intercorrupted!

The print I got signed by RED was artwork I had made inspired by the “Darkest Part” music video by them, featuring my cat Qua that passed away a little over a year prior.

So that was me meeting the band, and then me meeting the lead singer of Ra, Sahaj Ticotin, in the third photo! I called him pretty. It seemed to make him quite happy. (: He signed my husband and I’s CD cover!

In the second to last photo, I met Twist It, I recommend the song Undertow by them, their energy was incredible!

Kingdom Collapse was WILD. The song Save Me From Myself is ridiculously good by them. I didn’t get to meet them because we were so exhausted.

I’m grateful to the woman who gave me the RED guitar pick, that was so sweet. But yeah, the people crowd surfing and shoving us against the front railing was definitely different, considering I’d never been to a standing room only show, so I didn’t know what to expect. And the guard in the front who was just jamming out was pretty neat.

Everyone that preformed that I was able to meet was so nice! I’m glad I got the have this experience.

Then we traveled another 10 hours the next day to go to Florida, because beach. :D We traveled back today, which took 4 hours. I’m glad to be home. Happy selfie Sunday!

This tattoo makes me really happy, and I’m glad it’s on my body. It fills a perfect gap on my thigh, and it bridges memories from my life. Idk I’m just so satisfied. Just a photo with flash.

When I was admitted into the psych ward a few years ago, they wouldn’t allow me to take him in, even though he was put through a metal detector and scanner, and I shattered. I couldn’t sleep without him. I wasn’t allowed a comfort item. Idk, I guess I’m still sad about it.

On the bright side, he’s the cutest dang sheep ever, yeah?

I guess I’m just celebrating how happy I am, and how appreciative I am of him. ;(

Feeling weird, but here!

Vraylar 6mg, my beloved. Sorry, as I’ve let the entire planet know already, the dosages on some of my meds got adjusted a bit ago and I feel great!

Anyway, World Schizophrenia Day means a lot to me, having been so confused about myself for so long, I hope this day brings more awareness to everyone, including those that are looking at schizophrenia as a potential diagnosis.

I hope that, despite how hard the diagnosis can be for those of us, that we can find peace where we’re able to.

With that, I wish everyone a nice rest of your weekend, and to those who have off on Monday, enjoy your time off! (:

I lost my beloved black cat, Qua early last year. Since then, I’ve been collecting black cat memorabilia to add to my plushie shelf but also to add to his memorial. Here are some of the plushies I’ve collected!

He was a three legged cat with leukemia. We knew this upon adopting him, yet he lived three years after we got him. He was three years old when he came into our lives, so he passed when he was six. His birthday was November 30th 2019 and he passed on March 1st 2025. He would appreciate all of the sweet black cat plushies you show in the comments.

As I made progress, I realized that they are a representation, in my eyes, of both everyone and no one. Feeling stuck, yet comforted. There existing light, yet living in the dark. Feeling cold, but being warmed by what little body heat you have. Everything is so bittersweet, so charming.

Hold my hand, we'll get through this.

I’m blonde now! Ignore my skin, I tend to pick at my skin until I have scabs/scars. But I’ve been getting better at not picking at my cheeks and forehead! Saw my psychiatrist this week, had to up my Vraylar and lower my Zoloft. Wishing you all well! <3

I had my psychiatrist appointment this morning and everyone was right, I’m manic lol. I didn’t mean to be so hectic with my posts. My meds got adjusted, so we’ll see what happens. I appreciate all the input.