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Tell me something I'll only understand later on

Tell me something I'll only understand later on
As the title says, i have a stepfather (unfortunately), and he's just gone batshit crazy in our (or more specifically, my) apartment, destroying everything even tough it took us 2 to 3 years to get the apartment where it is now (my biological father previously rented it out to an old friend of his who ended up being a criminal and current whereabouts are unkown). The damage done is probably upwards to 750€ to 4k €, (you can convert that per Google "euro to tunisian dinar").
For context: I've known this man for 11 years, he started out as a pretty good guy, always playing with me whenever we came back to tunisia (I'm half german half tunisian, I cant speak Arabic nor french, and grew up in germany for most of my life). My mother hangs onto the country like a lifeline, wich i don't blame her for, so she also became really close to this dude (gonna call him H now because referring to him as my stepdad in title made me feel like passing out and made my period cramps flare up), H was in the military becouse he came from a pretty poor family. No judging that.
Approximately 2021/22 my bio father died, and a month after we aquired the apartment in tunisia. We had no idea it was still in our possession but my mom cried happy tears when she got the keys back. Now, another month after, she got together with H. My personal opinion was "if it makes you happy then go for it".
Now, que about 3 months after, I got this very bad feeling about him, like something very very bad was gonna happen (spoiler alert: I was right). But Firstly a child was on the way, (me and her have an 11 year age gap. You may see this number repeatedly appear, or not). After my little sister was born, he started showing his true agressive and childish colours (this man is twice my age..., I'm not even 15 yet), and my gut feeling got worse, tough, I was 10 to 11 so I couldn't exactly verbalize to my mother "thats a bad man, source: trust me bro", it got worse by the time i turned 12, I think? (he went to prison for private reasons), they'd constantly argue while my mom still supported that mf and even let him stay in the apartment.
He was in prison for 3 years, I wish it was longer. Like 10, or 20, or his lifetime. He got out early in think second or third of February. "We"(my mom and sister) of course took the opportunity to visit him (I did not consent to that. I wanted to stay home and spend time with my friends and live my actual life in germany.) We met him, he got worse, but so did i. Fast forward to last month, wich we spent in tunisia (again, I did not consent to that. My maximum was a week becouse any longer and the heat would screw up my appetite. It did btw, I went down from 48-50 kg to 45-47kg average). Now for the record, I'm 14, he's 30, when i huff and pout its becouse my hormones are going batshit and I'm surviving on water, when he does it its childish as fuck with no good reason becouse that man is literally eating the food my mom bought him, in the clothes my mom bought him, in the shoes my mom bought him (now if you're asking why i point this out when I am also eating the food my mom bought me, in clothes my mom bought me, in shoes my mom bought me. Its becouse 1; i am her first daughter and my birth was her one-way ticket to germany, 2; if it weren't for me she'd probably be homeless or dead, and 3; the childsupport she gets from me is am extremely big help. If I weren't alive my mom would receive 200€ child support per child, wich would be one, but since I am, she gets 500€ per kid, wich is 2, wich is 1k a month. Now if you are wondering why, its becouse 1; i am the second legal connection she has to my father, 2; if it weren't for me, my mom couldn't get half-orphan support, wich is what the government pays Single parents who's other part is dead). Now that you know the difference between me and H clearly, I can finally go onto the problem;
He has lost his mind in the span of like 5 months, he can't hold down a job (he's has 4 jobs. 4. In this day and age.), now to the 1 month we spent there (against my consent. Curse the tunisian heat), and 14 year old me was not backing down whenever he tried provoking. At first I argued, then i begged to go to the police (it didnt happen becouse my fuckass mom wanted to live in her fucking fantasy and now we have to suffer and I jad atleast 4 crying fits becouse of that man and thought about killing myself about 11 times. I do not like H.) Then I just provoked him bag, becouse whats he gonna do? Hit me?, my mom is friends with our apartment security and local police. Now, I warned my mother that one day he'd go so far as to threaten to kill us, and then do it, and that he doesnt care about his bio child and just wants that german citizenship.
LOW AND BEHOLD!!!!!!!!!!:
16:42, today. 8th of August, he threatened to kill me and my mother JUST AS I PREDICTED!!!!! I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG. now, my mom reassured me that shes going trough the process of getting him out, even tough i told her, and begged her, to go to the police while in tunisia. BUT NO ONE FUCKING LISTENS TO ME BECOUSE I'M A GIRL. I HATE THE PATRIARCHY AND HOW ITS DRILLED INTO US LIKE THIS. YES I WILL BLAME MY PROBLEMS ON THE PATRIARCHY BECOUSE THE ROOT OF THE PROBLEMS IVE HAD IN MY LIFE HAVE ALMOST ALWAYS BEEN A MAN. DEATH TO THE PATRIACHY.
Now going to tunisia is 1; impossible, school starts on the 17th of August for me and I am legally obligated to attend, 2; a danger as idk if my mom is going to go trough it with the process. Shes a very weak willed woman and I've learnt not to trust her choice in men.
I've tried Google.com, but it hasn't helped in finding out how this process works and what I could do to help my mom. So now I'm turning to reddit to maybe atleast get other people to hate H.
I mean, we have enough material and a big enough fan base.
we have 8 books (and more to come of others) of the fool, over 1000 chapters according to Google, an anime, and probably enough people who'd join. Now I don't mean a serious religion, but just for the shits and giggles
Edit: I mean getting legally licensed and like a church and such where we all just nerd out on lom and such
As the title says, i posted a photo of off Pinterest and admitted i was a proshipper, now, usually i dont mention this to people becouse real people with real skin don't ask so I dont tell, but for the shits and giggles I posted one.
So, Basically it was a photo from Pinterest saying "hanging cus I can't stand you hs" and in red text I wrote something along the lines of
"Admitting it here cus nobody gonna see it. I'm a proshipper"
(I have 3 followers on that tiktok account)
And under it, in smaller red text, I wrote
"I like"
And then problematic tropes I like, like minor x adult and power imbalance, both of wich having a pretty big market. Excpelly power imbalance in yaoi, they love it over there
Now, I did at the end, in red text
!!!!!fictionally!!!!
As I dont tolerate gr##ming and @buse.
Within the hour, I got comments, as expected. But they where just a bunch of bs,
One went on this long rant about how fiction affects reality and how proshipping is creating spaces for gr##Mer and pd📁, wich was so easily "debunked?". I replied to them that proshipping is the reason I'm not being gr##med or in a toxic relationship, and that its more of a community for like-minded people to find themselves and for victims to be heard and seen, such as myself (I'm a victim of child-on-child sexuel stuff, not sex, but very sexuel stuff that went on for atleast 2 years).
Another one replied with "fictionally" as I apparently wrote the word wrong, and I responded that "buddy, we have bigger problems"
Someone also commented some straight shit to wich i had to reply with "if you care so much then get off your ass and volunteer or donate." For context, I do also donate, in small amounts. Throughout the years ive donated probably around 90€, wich ik isnt alot, but its what I can do in my current position.
I'm suprised antis don't volunteer or donate themselves since they claim to care about victims :/
Lady in red likes it blue and funny feeling
As the title says, I want to hear ya'lls craziest experiences with an anti, as a former anti myself before realizing "wait...why do I even care? These are just fictional and don't represent a person morally"
Idk what Tag to use so I'm just gonna use discussion
Is he?, becouse he gives me strong vibes. He already killed people for main girl, but i dont know if he truly loves main girl or is simply using her to get free from his current body.
For starters, my step dad is 30 years old and met my mom trough Instagram 11 years ago while married to my father. To make this easier on myself I'll call him "H".
H used to be a really nice and likeable guy in the military who would help us out alot
Around 2017 I noticed feelings started to bloom between them but I was like 6 and barbie movies where more important to me,
Around 2020 it started going downhill as my father mysteriouslt dissapeared abroad to Thailand for 2 weeks where he met a woman than he began dating. Around a few months after that my dad and mom stopped unofficially being together but where legally married
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Now, what i will tell you is all from this year
-first month, he got released from prison after 3 years for illegally attempting to skip borders so he can be with his 4 year old daughter (my half sister who i can be more accurately described as as her father)
-second month, many arguements, he started cussing me out in arabic becouse i dont understand the language anymore and hes to much of a coward to tell me that to my face
-third month, all dick no brain
-during Ramadan(?), kept pestering my mom
-Eid (I believe that is called that, its a festival where I believe a lamb or goat is sacrificed), my mom sent 500€ to buy a lamb wich my grandpa (who is a licensed butcher) can butcher. H however demanded 200€ more for "tools" (my grandpa already had all the tools in his shop).
-the month after, kept pestering my mom about money
-Last month, kept pestering about wanting his daughter back (that he does not pay a singular scent for even tough her monthly expenses are aprox 800€ (600 for kindergarten and extra costs cus she had a rough month and needed to go to the doctor alot. If we include rent its about 1k for every month)
-this month, cussed me out, threatened to not give my sister back, demanded I stay out of matters with the apartment meant for ME
(My father who bought it in 2012 promised me 2016, 30th of December, at 15:38 becouse that is a crystal clear memory that it is mine and always intended for me)
-still this month, we found out his broke and dependent on us broke 30 year old uneducated ass cheated. He wasted some money on cigarettes just becouse my mom sent extra since my little sister is staying with him for this month as my mom needed some stress relief.
Also, fucking ALSO: he is unemployed despite my mom giving him the chance to become a hairdresser (she payed his tuition for 3 months before he stopped)
AND OWES MY MOTHER 10,000 EUROS (€) WITHOUT KINDERGARTEN FEES
Am I allowed to use the official customer support email to complain?
I've been thinking about the character designs since NtE dropped its website showcasing character designs
and have been very upset about 3 things;
the unequel sexualizasion of females vs males
And
The lack of melanin, the one that makes the skin pigmented and protects from the UV sunlight. It irks me how they are all paperwhite despite living in the city and some being active working agents (♥︎mint♥︎, baicang, hathor). Like, where is your sun protection??? Do they wear sunscreen? Is there a cutscene of them applying sunscreen? Where do I buy it? Is my darling ♥︎mint♥︎ gonna get a sunburn? Should I stop using ♥︎her♥︎ so ♥︎she♥︎ doesn't get one?
And
Male versus female characters.
All the ships is gonna be lesbian becouse of our lack of males TT
And
We're gonna start having to ship Male npcs with eachother with how low it is.
It costs 4,95€ at DM and does its job well. 10/10. Better for my skin than using those wet plastic tissues.
Did you know DM stands for Drogerie Markt?
(Drug market)
Hiiiii, so as the title says, there is (I'm just gonna assume the gender) a male ghost hunting my apartment.
Firstly, the context; me and my mom moved into this concrete block apartment at basically the most boring place in the city, we moved in duo to it being cheap (500€ for 2 people, 560€ becouse a baby happened) its 2 bedrooms, 1 bathroom (very small), 1 kitchen, a living room, and 2 balconies. Its pretty cozy but the walls are thin. The city is in germany
We were told before renting that an old lady died here, wich is normal in germany as even in my old home someone died.
We've lived there for about 5 years now, since 2021, and in those years ive mentally documented every wierd occurrence that is supernatural.
I will now recount everything I remeber;
The first one started 2023, it was the start of the summer, around midday, a year and a few months after my father died in Thailand, I was at the door of my room, wanting to head to the kitchen for a snack (my mom bought chips for me), and just before I wanted to step out I heard my very dead father (confirmed death 2022, 21th of November in Thailand. Cause of death; heart attack) call my full name in the same loving tone he last used when I was 9 (weeks before he went to thailand) where I was curiously asking about how the earth's rotation works (my homeroom teacher mentioned it the day before). The thing was, it came from the living room, wich is the farthest room away from my room. I quickly noped tf out and watched barbie:life in the dream house to distract myself
Two or three days after, something in my father's voice kept echoing but I forgot what it sayed.
Then it stopped for a few months and I thought to myself "wow, an auditory hallucination, maybe I'm watching to much sam & Colby! (I watched like 3 or 4 videos) also, I had never hallucinated anything before. Not even imaginary friends when I was small
Then came the next big incident:
The second one was evening, end of summer, I was in my moms room looking for something I had lost, when I heard her voice say my nickname, slightly muddy, HOWEVER, my mom was out and about buying groceries, I quickly hopped out (yes, hopped, becouse i was near the door) my little sister was about 1 year old when it happened and also gone
I didnt enter the room the rest of the week, but I swear by my e-mail something changed.
Now, these next all happened in 2024, in season order
Winter time: knocks started sounding from my window, I saw a shadow about 250 to 260 cm tall (like 7 feet?, idk, I'm not American), it had an oval head, no hair, extremely long arms with long fingers, and I couldn't see much else.
It appeared 4 to 9 times
Spring: my dads voice came back, calling my name, my nickname, my friends name that he never got to know, and his favorite alchohol brand (fuckass alcoholics )
My moms voice came, muddier, saying things in Arabic and calling my nickname (shes Tunisian, my dad is german, and I'm mixed but have black skin and curls)
I thought to myself, trying to not be scared, "oh wow! Auditory hallucinations are sure crazy!"
The curtains moved in the living room when no one else moved nor was there any airflow outside of me breathing (at the other end of the room), it moved about 4 to 5 times
Summer: we weren't home, we were in our other apartment in tunisia, and nothing happened
Autumn (fall): things moved, doors closed when no airflow happened, the fridge had problems, my door got moved multiple times
Now, moving in to the most recent that isnt this year; 2025! This calls back the entity I saw that was fully black. Whateaver he wants its probably from me, NOOOW' a recount of all it did;
But id like to mention i always sleep with a strong light that lights up my whole room becouse i am scared of the dark for other reasons
Now, started early 2025, the black entity started watching me from my closet, this time it had eyes! Very creepy, considering my light also lit up where the closet was (my closet is considerably big, and one of the doors where slightly open with clothes on the floor) i wanted to convince myself I was just hallucinating, maybe a sleep paralysis? But I could move, I could speak, I could even feel pain so I definitely wasnt dreaming. Then I tried thinking it was just from my blurry vision (i had minus 5 eyes around that time, but even with glasses I just saw the figure.
I, of course, thinking I was going insane, just slept and woke up unharmed with no wierd dream!
HOWEVER, the entity came back a few times just to watch me sleep, it was creepy, but I got used to it later
Now, fast forward to mid 2025, I thought nothing of it, i even met my girlfriend! I thought "live is good" and nothing paranormal happened after the entity came. Until I let my girlfriend into my room for the first time, it came back that night. Closer. It didnt touch me, but I couldn't see its eyes.
2 weeks later, I got this unsettling deep feeling that something is very wrong, I text my girlfriend "if anything happens I love you" I stayed awake for 2 hours with the feeling of impending doom stayed, but again, nothing happened.
It came back a few times, but i just slept through it
Now, about December, my dads voice came back, this time mumbling unintelligible bullshit. Wich isnt like him at all becouse he studied engineering, language, was an engineer for a few years, and also friends with professors of some kind.
Ahem-
Now to this year:::::
The entity finally made some moves! Wow!!! But i fear i am going officially insane.
Firstly, i started seeing things i believe are cuts from other universe of me just going down the horrific path oc insanity; I saw my mom open my room door a few times, glimpses of it, 2 to 4 seconds long, but it never happened. I saw my pillow being pulled away, but it never happened, I had horrific dreams too. Something that never had happened before (usually I have wierd dreams in the sense of reality going to shit or just fantasys), it all started within the first month of the year; I started dreaming about my mother smashing my head with a hammer over discovering my knifes in the closet. However, 2 things; I myself only recently discovered the knifes and dont remember putting them there, and we also dont have a hammer. The second one was pitch black, with a woman right infront of me that had big racks on her back full with masks. I told my girlfriend about it and she sayed "it may becouse you have mommy issues. The masks being a representation of how everyone sees her as this kind and hard working woman while only you know how violent she can get. Like masks" now this would make sense, if i also had daddy issues (wich i dont), the next dreams i vaguely remeber of being in a mental hospital, and then finding the answers of why we live (wich i still remeber)
Now, onto just 2 months ago; the entity started touching me, started with my hair, it subtly touched, and i could see its fingers, then it started touching my legs, and my stomach a month ago, and the most recent one was a week ago where it attempted to cover my eyes multiple times!!
Tomorrow (Saturday, 30th of may) me and my girlfriend will attempt to "talk" to whateaver there is in my home after some research that we will do today.
Thank you all for reading! Here's a whole cake: 🎂
Update!: we attempted the estes method, emphasis on attempted. We used a phone radio app, my dads old scarf, and her headphones. We both took a turn and on my side something definitely attempted to get through as I heard noises that weren't part of the static and my girlfriend heard a silent scream. After wich she sayed that I should get sage as soon as i can and that we should stop trying to attempt communication. But before that I also told her the details and her most likely theory is a shadow man or a demon playing the long game (i doubt the second one as not once as the entity attempted to hurt me and I have nothing of worth that a demon would wait for) however with the added details of the voices and it attempting to cover my eyes by going around the side of where I couldn't see it it made her unsure. Now, id also like to mention that I threw the headphones off as soon as i heard something go through as I got scared (I get scared easily)
Fast forward to currently — as I am writing this update it is the 30th of May 2026, 23:37. I am staying at my moms friends apartment becouse she is on another continent dropping my toddler sister off at her father's. Nothing should happen as the place isnt haunted, the family believes in Allah and are Muslims.
HOWEVER, at 21 something pm i knocking on the window, taps, voices, mumbles from directly outside the window (we are on the second floor. The window was open) and the highlights of the hour; 2 distorted voices talking slightly farther away. More voices come and go but I distracted myself with stuff
At 22 I get the feeling of being watched, I hear humming (probably from the woman comforting the 3 kids she has as they where also afraid for whateaver reason) but still creepy. I also hear more strange noises like buzzing
And now, for the most scary: 23:23. Movement from above, normal becouse this is a rental apartment building, I walk around trying to calm myself. And suddenly, as I finally calm down, a literale shake happens. Like full on whole room shaking, probably strongest about 5 cm from me. My heart leaps, I turn towards the source (right besides me) and NOTHING is there. I ran back to the couch I'm sleeping on (with a big tv infront of it) and had to calm myself.
(I did close the window btw)
Now idk if this is important or not but I'd like to mention I also have "static vision" wich basically is if someone put moving movie grain over your vision on like 5 to 10 % opacity. It doesnt do anything else besides make me see a bunch of dots.
I can't sleep TT