u/kaira_05

it is difficult to find love. to find a connection that ignites with the light of a thousand fireflies. and yet our desire for it precedes us beyond our own logical understanding.

there is no spark. just a hearth with a blazing fire aching to be maintained, to be understood by both the people it exists for. our wish not to become a memory or a chapter is one of the many beautiful things there is about being human. the desire for a constant, for a love that seemingly transcends our limited life span. for me, realism saves bits of the heart, seemingly insignificant pieces yet each makes a whole.

whoever my future "she" may be, if your heart ever wishes departure... may you leave on a rainy day. may you leave when everything is falling apart for me. may you do it with the same reverence and honor that i have poured into loving you. may you spare my days of glee, light, luck, and hope.

but i digress. goodbyes aside, may we find each other, nearby or far apart. hello there, my name is Andy, you may also call me AJ. romance is one thing, but what i truly yearn for is patience, effort, and maturity. i sometimes retreat into my shell, because love, true love, terrifies every stardust that makes up everything that i am. every bit of care i have experienced came with a cost i am not ashamed to have paid for and learned from. so i would hope.. that you would be different. even a mere molecule of difference.

if we are speaking beyond prose: i will never date someone even a day younger than i am. i do not want to babysit, my apologies. i much prefer the company of anyone 2-3 years older.

i do adore the complexities of life, the ups and downs of every facet that makes up our days. but it would be odd to open up with a philosophical question, would it not? maybe just for me. it feels... robotic, in a way. i simply ignore such messages. that is all.

-AJ.

[whitelist] We are a republic in need of more members! Our server is very new and will only house a small private community. We're calling to our sisters and our lgbtq friends, this server is for you! Our world is ruled by women, id made by a woman, and houses our sisters to be a part of a niche and safe community and theme. Add me on discord to join! DM/comment for inquiries :D

if the moon shines during the day, i question why it is that way. if the tides rose and fall, i ask why it does that at all. if the winds pick up speed, then life settles and plants the seed. hello, i'm Andy, but you can also call me AJ, i thought i would try my luck here today:)

i love deep conversations, long conversations about life and poems. i do not like short repliers haha. (or ghosters) maturity is a must, i do not let people in my life easily but when i do, i love fiercely. i have no energy for drama, petty arguments, or nonsensical histrionics, i hope you feel the same. i would prefer people a bit older than me. i also do not back down from boundaries so i would suggest not opening up by asking to see some of my writing, as i believe it is a very intimate part of who i am and i am not going to show it to a person i am yet to know. plus, it's getting old and i just do not respond to them. (even the messages that are just "hey")

my interests? writing and building in minecraft. and those are just the current ones:) hope we can chat and things go well. if not, and it's just a brief conversation, then may we form fond memories even from that.

i'm 19F and i've always known i did not want kids since i was about 16. i've been thinking about my future and it still isn't something i want. i recently made the mistake of joking to my grandma that i'm not giving my dad any grandkids since i'm his only child. i got the lecture for the first time in my life (i never made my choice public until now). "that's not a good thing" "you'll change your mind" "why not, you're a woman"... maybe because i do not like kids or babies, grandma... and i do not want the responsibility. i plan on becoming a zoologist, a writer, filmmaker, etc. and i'm going to nursing school next year. i took technical classes in october and this nosy woman which honestly pissed me off told me "how are you going to migrate to (my dream country) if you don't like kids" when she heard me talking to one of my classmates my age. huh?? is it a requirement i didn't know about?? do kids run immigration? that class was a mixed bag, i was one of the youngest ones, our oldest classmate was like 48, this woman was 35. first of all, it's none of your damn business. second of all, why are you butting in?? there is no place in my life for children. i have never had baby fever nor have i thought an activity i was doing would be better if there was a kid involved. i graduated in STEM with A+ grades, why would i want to compromise my future? i got a great scholarship opportunity for next year too. another incident was a friend (religious ofc) told me how would i become a nurse if i didn't like kids. i don't like kids, i don't hate kids. i'll have to take care of kids, i'll do that with pride, but i don't have to like them nor falter on my choices regarding MY life. it's illogical for me to have children, even if it isn't, i still don't want them. i'm not wasting my life's work (so far) just for baby fever and responsibility that would not benefit me in any way.

been feeling down since one friend left our group and the other one's ignoring me, it's complicated. was hoping to try my luck here, let's be friends? wanna play minecraft?:) i'd prefer girl friends if that's okay, but any way is fine

Hark! We are eager to present The Guilds SMP!

About us:

-pre-monarchy

-economy focused on the growth of our future kingdom and player specialty

-we're a girls only server and lgbt friendly

-a private community with no clutter of a billion players

-five guilds with their own contribution to the economy resides within the server, vaguely: builders, farmers and fishermen, scouts and guards, postal, and treasury

Who we need:

-guild leader for the scouts and guards

-guild leader for the treasury

-members for the postal guild, treasury, and builders

-a librarian

Criteria:

-must be 19+

-girlssss

-good community spirit

-willing to role-play in voice chat only

Eggs:

-we have a custom language

-custom builds to explore

-create your own oc and backstory!

-libraries where lore will be written

-birthday celebrations

-pvp events open for everyone

-themed dances/gala

Note:

the stated roles to be filled will be the only applications open for now, we need 2 final guild leaders before opening day! unfortunately, if you want to be a MEMBER of the scouts and guards, it is temporarily closed due to the amount of players currently in it. give other guilds a fair chance!:D but if you truly want to join, the scouts and guards guild leader role is open!

DM for more info!

(please, recruitment is burning me ;-;)

Hark! We are eager to present The Guilds SMP!

About us:

-pre-monarchy

-economy focused on the growth of our future kingdom and player specialty

-we're a girls only server and lgbt friendly

-a private community with no clutter of a billion players

-five guilds with their own contribution to the economy resides within the server, vaguely: builders, farmers and fishermen, scouts and guards, postal, and treasury

Who we need:

-guild leader for the scouts and guards

-guild leader for the treasury

-members for the postal guild, treasury, and builders

-a librarian

Criteria:

-must be 19+

-girlssss

-good community spirit

-willing to role-play in voice chat only

Eggs:

-we have a custom language

-custom builds to explore

-create your own oc and backstory!

-libraries where lore will be written

-birthday celebrations

-pvp events open for everyone

-themed dances/gala

Note:

the stated roles to be filled will be the only applications open for now, we need 2 final guild leaders before opening day! unfortunately, if you want to be a MEMBER of the scouts and guards, it is temporarily closed due to the amount of players currently in it. give other guilds a fair chance!:D but if you truly want to join, the scouts and guards guild leader role is open!

DM for more info!

(please, recruitment is burning me ;-;)

Hark! We are eager to present The Guilds SMP!

About us:

-pre-monarchy

-economy focused on the growth of our future kingdom and player specialty

-we're a girls only server and lgbt friendly

-a private community with no clutter of a billion players

-five guilds with their own contribution to the economy resides within the server, vaguely: builders, farmers and fishermen, scouts and guards, postal, and treasury

Who we need:

-guild leader for the scouts and guards

-guild leader for the treasury

-members for the postal guild, treasury, and builders

-a librarian

Criteria:

-must be 19+

-girlssss

-good community spirit

-willing to role-play in voice chat only

Eggs:

-we have a custom language

-custom builds to explore

-create your own oc and backstory!

-libraries where lore will be written

-birthday celebrations

-pvp events open for everyone

-themed dances/gala

Note:

the stated roles to be filled will be the only applications open for now, we need 2 final guild leaders before opening day! unfortunately, if you want to be a MEMBER of the scouts and guards, it is temporarily closed due to the amount of players currently in it. give other guilds a fair chance!:D but if you truly want to join, the scouts and guards guild leader role is open!

DM for more info!

(please, recruitment is burning me ;-;)

we're looking for 2 leaders for our minecraft rp server's guilds. we need someone who is good at or just really likes PVP or fighting for the guards guild, and someone who is organized for the treasury.

-19+

-proximity voice chat

-girls only server

-lgbt friendly

-pre-monarchy

DM for more info:)

if the moon shines during the day, i question why it is that way. if the tides rose and fall, i ask why it does that at all. if the winds pick up speed, then life settles and plants the seed. hello, i'm Andy, i thought i would try my luck here today:)

i love deep conversations, long conversations about life and poems. i do not like short repliers haha. (or ghosters) maturity is a must, i do not let people in my life easily but when i do, i love fiercely. i have no energy for drama, petty arguments, or nonsensical histrionics, i hope you feel the same. i would prefer people a bit older than me.

my interests? writing and building in minecraft. and those are just the current ones:) hope we can chat and things go well. if not, and it's just a brief conversation, then may we form fond memories even from that.

we're looking for 2 leaders for our minecraft server. we need someone who is good at or just really likes PVP or fighting for the guards guild, and someone who is organized for the treasury.

-19+

-proximity voice chat

-girls only server

-lgbt friendly

-pre-monarchy

DM for more info:)