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I saw the film Sinister 2012 in theaters (luckily I was high and fell asleep lol I completely missed lawnmower scene) but the soundscore is stuff of nightmares. It's extremely unsettling and I tried to listen to it on youtube years later at 2 a.m. nope nope nope. The doom and gloom feel like that weird ritual esque chanting that sounded inhuman. Whoever made that thing is one with the darkness. lol. The music was scarier than the film.

I once tried conquering my fear and played it while watching A PAGE OF MADNESS, a silent film showing insane people in an asylum. What a bad idea.

The vocal in INTO THE ATTIC one is so bizarre sounding:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2nNJ6AgsDGo&list=PL4hljsftdhISxCTTCBKsjGynbNceH_gaF&index=15

The second half of BBQ 79... I can't:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PgwXe6lAsQ&list=RD_PgwXe6lAsQ&start_radio=1

This one is cool but it's tooooo intense:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zf5eO3dLpA&list=PL4hljsftdhISxCTTCBKsjGynbNceH_gaF

The one I hate the most is Sleepytime 98:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XyW66PMTFmw&list=PL4hljsftdhISxCTTCBKsjGynbNceH_gaF&index=9

What's your pick for the most unsettling soundscore?

Do ya'll remember those plastic quote keychains? I still have the same one on my keys and it's been there for 26 years. Do you still have any of yours?

Mine reads: I may not be totally perfect but certain parts of me are FREAKING EXCELLENT!

Orgazmo 1997 was a movie we had to get drunk to and maybe herb and then it became a laugh fest. Anyone remember it? haha. It is SO dumb. But oddly entertaining when you watch it with a group.

I use to have the NC-17 version on VHS until someone stole it.

what did you think of this horror movie?

This song resonated with me emotionally because it's about letting go of toxic emotional baggage, broken promises, and the painful memories that weigh you down. It's like picking at the same wound over and over again instead of letting it heal. Emotional trauma is the hardest to heal and we often end up in nasty cycles and self destructive behavior.

The music video shows the guy with the suitcase who is Death, and the people trying to reunite with their dead loved ones can't let go because Death shows them their ghost or memory but they are so happy to see them again and when the deceased loved ones scream it's because they don't want them to be trapped in their grief and longing to be with them again and want them to enjoy their life but they can't let go, so they join them by self destruction therefore they end up being lost in the echo. The echo is something that once was and is not anymore and you stop living your life cuz you can't let go. It consumes them entirely in the video. The song's message is of survival and release. Like the lyric "Hold myself up and love my scars."

It really reminded me of THE VANISHING, the original film, not the american remake. The man's obsession with finding his missing girlfriend. He just had to know what happened to her. He was so obsessed and blinded by grief that he willingly agreed to go with her kidnapper to find the answers but had to go through what she did. So he too, became the vanished. I also saw a horror anthology story movie called Holidays. The Fathers Day segment explores this very same thing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=co4YpHTqmfQ&list=RDco4YpHTqmfQ&start_radio=1

There is a song called FORGET TO REMEMBER by Mudvayne about the lasting psychological torment of intrusive trauma, repressed memories (unresolved trauma), and the inability to escape these painful past experiences. The mental and emotional prison that houses these monstrous memories and it's cruel endless cycles that never go away. It's a living nightmare. It can sometimes cause festering rage. The lyric "surrender to the shadows" and the part about becoming a machine and to be saved from yourself causing emptiness inside and the inescapable anguish of it. "Burn" by The Cure also explores grief, rage, and PTSD. Basically a mix of consuming sorrow and fury caused by loss and despair follow. The titular "burn" represents both the relentless agony and fiery anger and the inescapable anguish of it. "Every night I burn" is a great metaphor for this. And the line "Every night I fall again. Every night I call your name" And "Every night the dream is the same." Doesn't get any more accurate than that.

The lyric "bleed through you" functions as a metaphor for emotional permeability, where pain, damage, and trauma do not stay locked inside one person but pass through everyone involved in a relationship. That hidden feeling or internal state leaks past your personal defenses and becomes visible to others. And the "memory has shaped me once again." It makes it a major struggle to try and heal and grow and you keep returning to this same state over and over again, especially with no support.

Some people feel like slaves to their PTSD. Even viewing a photo album or talking about a happy memory can trigger it. Severe Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is the chronic, repeated trauma, leading to intense emotional dysregulation, negative self-concept, and severe relationship struggles alongside standard PTSD symptoms.

Mudvayne has several emotionally intelligent songs about many relatable struggles in life.

Give it a listen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdNU9yYwglQ&list=RDOdNU9yYwglQ&start_radio=1

Lyrics:

What have I done?
Where have I come from?
When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me?

Feeling undone
What have I become?
When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself and became this machine

Thoughtlessness
Selfishness
Hopelessness
Arrogant

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again

Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Shadows in the sun
Filter through us
Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child
Confession rejected
We grow up
To give up
People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back
Through the words of surrender

Emptiness
Loneliness
Listlessness
Worthless

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories

Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you
Surrender to the secrets...inside
Lies within you

I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can't feel you on the inside
Set down the bag and left it
Lost memory has left me
Once again
Open up the inside
Admission for the cleansing
Now that I've forgotten to remember

Surrender
To the shadows
Haunting inside
Bleed through you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LQaDzYaL1M

This popped up as a recommend out of nowhere. It's probably my new fav Ivar edit. I watched so many of these things coming down off the high of the show when I finished. Alex is a phenomenal actor. Love him or hate him as a character, but Alex Hogh Andersen is one of the best actors I've seen. I also saw him in Viking Downfall of a Druglord.

Ivar for life!

Did you know, Alex choked actress Alicia Agneson for real in season 5. It was her request which she said in a swedish radio interview. She wanted the scene to look as authentic and raw as possible. The directors and the show's staff doctor initially rejected the idea because it was dangerous. However, after Agneson persisted, they ultimately agreed to let Alex do it. Reminds me of Quentin Tarantino in Inglorious Bastards. To minimize the immense risk of the stunt, a paramedic was stationed right on set to assist her immediately after the cameras stopped rolling and in case anything went wrong. You can visibly see her getting deep red. While it resulted in a highly praised, gripping finale scene, it remains one of the most physically dangerous behind-the-scenes stunts the cast attempted.

This is my fav scene. I love the camera angle showing his eye as he pressed against fridge staring at the sink meat tenderizer. That's some fine camera work. This is what american horror story USE to be too. They don't make shows this good anymore. The world has changed too much. I'm so glad I gave this show a chance. To be perfectly honest, a lot of teenagers liked this show so I thought it was a show for teens. Same with Teen Wolf, which I'm watching now and it's very good!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qlZqA1yeTpg

Warning: this post contains details of child abuse.

Well, I thought I had seen it all. I've seen almost everything in my case studies studying the criminal mind and sex offenders. It takes a lot to shock me. But this case really made me sick and heartbroken. I'm pretty tired of hearing about how badly Child Protective services always fail to intervene. It will never change apparently. This makes me flashback to 90s case, Elisa Izquierdo and also Baby Brianna from 2002.

Preston Davey was a baby adopted by a couple named Jamie Varley and John McGowan-Fazakerley. Preston was in foster care for the first 9 months of his life, then adopted by thee two monsters who looked good on paper and had a nice house. Jamie was a secondary school teacher. Preston was in their care for 4 months, age 9 months to 13 months where he endured horrific abuse, torture, and SA. His cause of death is one of the most vile details I've heard. I personally think this may have been a pedo ring. Birds of a feather. I wont be discussing how he died in this post. The final act of cruelty is very distressing.

His injuries:

The Home Office post-mortem examination and medical testimony revealed that 13-month-old Preston Davey suffered approximately 40 traumatic injuries, including severe internal injuries.

He had bitemarks, 14 bruises to the head. A total of nine bruises were located on the front of Preston's head and five were located on the back. He had mouth and throat injuries. (Trauma and bruising inside the mouth and throat.)

His internal and torso Injuries include 30 individual bruises. These included a combination of external bruises on his skin and deep tissue internal bruising. Abdominal and pelvic organ bruising. Deep internal bruising specifically located on his bowel and bladder. He had bleeding in the lungs and internal hemorrhaging identified during the post-mortem examination.

He had a skeletal injury (a fractured left upper arm/elbow.) A healing, non-accidental bone fracture that had required a hospital visit and a cast weeks before his death.

The sexual assault evidence include anatomical trauma and severe internal injuries to his anus, bottom, and bowel. Evidence of forcible penetration. Medical examiners noted clear physical abnormalities and trauma consistent with acute sexual assault inflicted shortly before death, as well as older healing injuries from previous weeks.

Following Preston's death, police discovered numerous indecent images and videos documenting the physical and sexual abuse. There were both images and videos of it. Evidence presented during the criminal trial revealed that Varley used his mobile phone to capture extensive evidence of the infant's suffering. On the morning Preston died, Varley captured multiple images and videos of the visibly abused infant, who was showing clear signs of respiratory distress while lying on a bed.

Another video recovered by investigators showed Preston left seemingly unattended, "slithering and sliding" around in a bathtub for nearly 15 minutes while Varley silently manned the camera. There was deceptive staged media. Varley also recorded a video of Preston bumping his head, which he used during a previous hospital visit to trick medical staff into believing the child's severe bruising was accidental. Police later discovered the footage had been deliberately staged and filmed 12 days prior to the incident.

Child social services, healthcare agencies, and adoption authorities missed up to eight critical opportunities to save baby Preston. The Children’s Commissioner for England described the case as a "massive safeguarding failure", and independent reviews have highlighted major instances where professionals failed to act.

During the four short months Preston lived with Jamie Varley and John McGowan-Fazakerley, he was brought to Blackpool Victoria Hospital three separate times with serious injuries. On his first visit, Varley claimed Preston had breathing difficulties and a seizure. Though safeguarding teams initially alerted police, medical staff ultimately stated there were no concerns for "non-accidental injury," and the investigation was dropped.

On his third visit, Preston was treated for a fractured arm. Varley gave conflicting, contradictory stories to hospital staff, social workers, and friends about how it happened. Despite this massive red flag, the police were never contacted during either of these later visits.

There were standard social work home visits. Social workers from Oldham Council and the regional agency, Adoption Now, conducted multiple mandatory check-ins and home visits during the familiarisation and adoption process. During these visits, social workers reportedly recorded having "no concerns" and failed to identify indicators of severe physical, sexual, and psychological abuse.

There was a "Halo Effect" of Varley’s profession. A major factor in the missed opportunities was a lack of "professional curiosity" among caseworkers and medical staff. Because Jamie Varley was a respected secondary school teacher who had actively worked as a designated safeguarding lead, professionals inherently trusted him. His charm and familiarity with safeguarding protocols allowed him to confidently explain away horrific injuries, which social workers accepted at face value without deeper investigation.

The deceptive video incident: On another visit, Preston had visible bruising to his head. Varley explained it away by showing hospital staff a video of a toy box falling on the baby. a video that had been recorded 12 days prior, making it medically impossible to be the cause of the fresh bruises. The discrepancy was not thoroughly challenged.

In June 2026, a formal Independent Child Safeguarding Practice Review was launched to examine how multiple agencies could have had so much contact with Preston and still failed to intervene. Members of Parliament and children's welfare groups continue to demand a full public inquiry into the systematic failures that handed a vulnerable baby directly to his abusers.

Jamie Varley confessed his disturbing fantasies imagining drowning or suffocating Preston to a work colleague and friend named Janet Gee. However, the colleague did not alert the authorities because Varley "manipulated" her by claiming that his headteacher and social worker was already fully aware of the issue and that he was receiving professional support for his mental struggles. Since he contextualized this as a cause of severe sleep deprivation and a mental health struggle, she wasn't concerned. He promised he'd never act on this. I wonder, did he pinky swear?

The saddest one of all: So since 5 days old to 9 months, Preston was in the care of his foster parents, Paul and Sandra Cooper. There are videos of Preston giggling with Paul in his highchair, who almost sounds like he is going to cry at his cuteness. There is a video of him in his baby bouncer watching tv. They adored this child. They called him Elijah. They REALLY loved him and I can't stress this enough. The Coopers also had a strong "gut feeling" that something was wrong during the transition and raised red flags to social workers (formal complaint) about his adoptive parents, but their warnings were tragically ignored. Preston was meant to be their last foster child before retirement, but following the heartbreak of his murder, they resolved to continue fostering in his memory to honor the love they had for him despite the anxiety of handing children over to adoptive families. They felt a duty to other vulnerable children and made the decision to postpone retirement. Sandra grew concerned because she felt the adoptive parents were hiding baby Preston from her and knew something was wrong when she tried to visit him. They'd make excuses and canceled planned visits. Tragically, social services failed to act robustly on the foster mother's warning. During the trial, the social worker confirmed she visited the home following Sandra's complaints and after Preston was hospitalized with a fractured arm. However, the social worker testified that because hospital staff stated there were "no safeguarding worries," and because Varley was a respected high school teacher who gave plausible excuses, the authorities concluded the baby was safe and did not intervene. This missed warning from the Coopers is now central to the independent Child Safeguarding Practice Review investigating the systemic failures that led to Preston's murder. Some feel that no one wanted to be accused of homophobia by accusing the gay adoptive parents of harming Preston. The Coopers had decades of experience and at the time they cared for Preston, they had been fostering for 27 years and had looked after 42 other children before him. They should have been taken seriously. It blows my mind how a baby can have psychological, physical, and sexual injuries and social worker writes down, "all good!"

During the June 2026 sentencing hearing for the murder the Coopers (along with Preston's biological mother, Sarah) read powerful victim impact statements detailing profound grief and a loss of faith in the child welfare system and experience lasting trauma. Paul Cooper shared that he wakes up multiple times a night and has not gone a week without crying since Preston's death.

Paul Cooper's impact statement: "We brought him up as our own. Preston was an absolute pleasure to look after. He was the most amazing little boy who lit up the room as you walked into it. He was so small and vulnerable, you couldn't help but love him immediately. Preston's smile was infectious and he brightened up my day from the second he woke up. Saying goodbye to him was "extremely difficult" but at the time we thought this was the best thing for Preston, and we thought he was going to a loving family. What happened after this I still cannot bear to think about. Since this, over the past few years, we have had to find out what really happened to Preston in 'dribs and drabs'. This has devastated me. Even to this day I try to tell myself what happened to Preston "is not real or possible" but then reality hits and it breaks me again. I use to love looking back at photos an videos of him, but it's become more and more difficult. I struggle to trust people now. Preston had his whole life ahead of him, one that should have been a happy life with a new family. I will never ever forget him. I cannot express enough the pain that I am going through to even speak about this and the way his life was cut so short. I will never forget you Preston."

Sandra Cooper's impact statement: "I just want to see his smiling happy face again. Preston's death has had a huge impact upon our lives. Preston's death has changed my perspective on life; things I once felt were important I now feel are not. I realize that life is too short. I will feel mistrustful and anxious about any of the children leaving our care to live with strangers. Paul and I will often watch the videos we took of Preston when he was happy with us laughing and giggling, playing with his toys smiling. Preston's face would light up when we looked at him. He was joyful, so content and happy, with sparkly smiling eyes. That is how we want to remember him. I will often dream about Preston and I feel that he is still alive, but when I wake up I realize he has died and I go through the trauma again of knowing he has died and how."

This deliberate and utter destruction of this precious baby is definitely one of the most sadistic cases I've come across. I can't imagine being on the jury for this trial. This beautiful happy baby was in the care of these freaks and he must have felt so alone and scared on top of extreme exhaustion and unimaginable pain.

"Cruelty, like every other vice, requires no motive outside of itself; it only requires opportunity." ~ George Eliot

These people actually exist. Are you listening, Child "Protective" Services?