u/littlegingerbunny
A whole ass Michelin star meal
Just got a new bikini. Thoughts? Tummy out and thighs are thick!
Quitting for now :'(
My psychiatrist wants me to cut down on weed and I agree it's starting to rule my life. Ugh. Maybe I should try smoking just CBD weed and ween off of it that way. This sucks.
Anyway, I just got some pictures commissioned of my guinea pigs. They're so cute, I can't stop looking at them. I already commissioned another picture of my other pigs from this artist, one of which is for my vet. We had to put down our neediest (medically) pig a few weeks ago and she was clearly torn up about it too. He was in the vet almost biweekly for a few months for various ailments and we finally decided it was time to put him down. I can't wait to see the drawing.
Hope you're having a better day than me!!! Lol.
The artist is https://vgen.co/daaaanink and the commission was like €20 for the two pictures. A steal if you ask me. Please go commission them! They do great work!
Just got my commission back...
Cornelius in a pinwheel hat and a bonus picture of Oliver :3
Weeeeeeevil
I posted that edit yesterday and today the weevil gods blessed me with my first acorn weevil
Found this on Instagram and I'm obsessed (flash warning)
OTW post (PS all the people in London smell amazing)
I stopped two people when I visited London last month and HAD to ask what they were wearing because they smelled so amazing. One woman even had the perfume (Choco Musk) in her purse! So I finally got home and ordered both perfumes. Spent a grand total of €24 on Truffle Cream from So...? Unique which smells like the coconut of my dreams, and Choco Musk (spray and oil) by Al-Rehab which is a super affordable but amazing vanilla-chocolate cream scent. They were both half-blind buys and hopefully they work with my skin chemistry.
When I was in London I also went to the Bloom Perfumery in Covent Garden and I HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend stopping by if you visit the area. Describe what you're looking for in a perfume and the sales assistants will be able to help you find multiple options that are pretty damn accurate—I saw they have the full d'Annam lineup, and despite their controversies their scents remain some of my favorites and I already have two bottles from them, Moonlight Samurai (which is mostly my husband's) and Kimono (which is one of my all time favorites that I plan on rebuying as soon as I finish this current bottle) and I finally got to try Mooncake which I immediately fell in love with. I got a sample to take home so I can see how it wears on me.
All of this to say, after wearing Mooncake a few times, I am infatuated. This almost boozy vanilla cake and salted egg turns into borderline incense on my skin. I know d'Annam is a pricey house but their scents are just so captivating and beautiful. Simple but very distinct and they just so happen to be very compatible with my skin chemistry (for the most part).
Any other cheapies you recommend? Do you have any perfumes on the way that you're excited about?
My first submission: cheesy chicken rollers with beans
I dreamt about this last night and decided to make it for dinner after smoking a doobie with my husband.
Flour corn tortillas filled with a mixture of cream cheese, shredded boiled chicken (has to be boiled in broth), pickled jalapeños, taco seasoning and shredded texmex cheese, rolled up and shallow fried in oil (with toothpicks holding them together).
Dipped in my favorite bean recipe (this was part of the dream), which is one can of refried bayo beans (very similar to pinto beans, before I moved to Europe and tried them I'd never heard of them), mixed with a good amount of fat (I used butter), freeze dried mozzarella cheese powder, loads of Tabasco (and if I had Valentina I would add a tablespoon or two of that) and some American cheese (the really crappy plastic stuff), topped with creme fraiche mixed with salt and lime juice to simulate Mexican crema and then some cilantro. Microwaved and thoroughly mixed.
Bon appetit.
I can't buy calamine lotion or topical antihistamines at any pharmacy or drug store in the Netherlands, I have to wait for it to come in the mail. I have fifteen mosquito bites on my arms, stomach, thighs and hands.
Fuck mosquitos man
Is this the beginning of psychosis?
Hi all.
Starting a week ago I do not feel in touch with reality. I don't know how to explain it.
I have been withdrawing from gabapentin and got down to 0mg daily before having a huge mixed episode. We went back up to 600mg (I was initially on 1200mg for 8 years) and I immediately felt better.
That was four weeks ago. Since then, I have become more and more agitated and uncomfortable. I cannot stop physically "tweaking" and I look like I'm on coke (which I am not). I am grinding my teeth, fidgeting, bouncing my leg, breathing weird (like I'm breathing on manual mode basically) and twitching.
I have not smoked weed for two weeks because of my concerns. Last night I felt like I was going insane because of anxiety and I smoked a little. I spent the next six hours convinced I was going psychotic which I now attribute to simple paranoia (I didn't do anything or have any delusions, I was just convinced I was going crazy.).
I don't know what to do. I reached out to my psychiatrist and am waiting to hear back. He doesn't get back to the office until Tues so I called the office and the secretary is going to have another psychiatrist reach out to me sometime within the next hour.
Nothing feels real. I went for a walk and the trees didn't look right and it kind of really frightened me. I'm scared of my own head.
My psychiatrist has me on a PRN of klonopin as needed for anxiety and I have some leftover pills of olanzapine from my last mixed episode which he has given me permission to take if I'm feeling particularly activated. I am picking more of both up from the pharmacy on Monday when they open but I have enough to get me through until then.
Do I sound dangerous to you? I don't feel like a danger to myself or others but something certainly doesn't feel right. My husband says it sounds like DPDR but I think I might be on the verge of going crazy. I don't know. Please help. Thank you.
How to thank my psychiatrist
Hi all. I've been seeing my psychiatrist for the past year and while we usually video call I'm meeting him in the office in a few weeks for a rare in-person appointment.
He has been the most compassionate, knowledgeable, phenomenal psychiatrist I've ever seen and I want to ask the community if it would be inappropriate to give him a small gift (like a drawing) or write him a heartfelt thank you note because he has truly been one of the most amazing parts of me moving to Europe from the US and I just can't get over how grateful I am to him for his prompt responses to my inquiries or when I'm having an emergency episode and need care. I don't want to make him uncomfortable but I really can't get over how thankful I am that he is a part of my care team. I feel like saying thank you at the end of our appointments isn't enough. For reference, I live in the Netherlands and see him every month unless I'm having an episode (where he usually responds to my emails within hours to modify my prescription or get me extra support).
I'm American and in the US I would be comfortable giving anyone in my care team a small gift like that and have in the past but I think the culture is slightly different here in Europe. Does anyone have any advice?
I don't think it helps that I'm currently coming off of a huge mixed episode that really fucked me up and I'm just so happy and grateful to everyone in my life that has been supporting me through it, and of course he's been a big part of that.
Please be nice! I know it's extra but I'm the type of person to give everyone I care about small gifts just because and I love to compliment strangers on the daily. It's just who I am.
Guys...
Today I happened to be flying into London Heathrow and got to try some new Jo Malone fragrances at the duty free store. When I tried this one I got hit in the face with nostalgia of living in the US and using this Glade air freshener plugin. They smell IDENTICAL. If you like this plugin, you'll love this perfume. I am so delighted. I'm going to be bathing in this perfume for the rest of eternity!
Oliver approves of critical care mixed with apple juice...
Geralt in his prime
I posted earlier today about needing to put Geralt down on Wednesday due to suspected cancer and other ailments but I thought I'd share some pictures of him at his healthiest. He used to be such a handsome fuzzy little caterpillar/toilet brush! I love him so much. I will miss his bites. What a good boy.
Euthanasia
Geralt is very sick and needs to be put to sleep. I'm so heartbroken. He was doing a lot better but a few days ago he started having diarrhea and is so lethargic. I just don't want him to be in pain anymore. He's getting daily metacam and as much critical care mixed with apple juice as he can eat and it's just not working. We're taking him in on Wednesday, they're going to administer gas to him instead of a shot which is a relief for me. He might not even make it to Wednesday but it was the first available appointment with the only vet I trust.
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I love him so much. I don't want to say goodbye.