u/mynameisnotsparta

Happy Anniversary to me and my husband today!

38 years ago today we were 21 and 22. I had barely slept the night before - maybe a few hours and I woke up full of excitement and nerves.

It was a wild ride. We met at 19 and got engaged within a few months. Absolutely over the moon in love.

We spent a year and a half saving to have the wedding we wanted. It was amazing. The day after the wedding we went on a 5 week honeymoon (visiting family in various European countries). We had fun and our families enjoyed having us visit. They treated us so well and gave us amazing memories to hold in our hearts.

I love him more today than ever. He’s my rock, my best friend and my soulmate.

I can’t imagine my life without him. We’re not only married, but we also run a business and work together.

Even through the ups and downs I would not change a thing. 🩷🌸🩷

Edit: Our anniversary present to each other this year was redoing part of our backyard. No fancy dinner no anniversary trip we’re going have a picnic today on our new artificial grass surrounded by our newly planted flowers near my new vegetable garden. It’s the practical things that we gift each other now. 😂🩷😂

This is just me venting.

Pain. How many of us are in constant pain because we are too heavy? Share your stores.

I’ve been living in a state of pain for so many many years. My ankles hurt. My knees. My hips ache. When I say ache I mean I need pain killers. My body literally hurts from the back of my neck to my ankles.

On top of all the body aches my toes are cold. (Going to a neurologist soon to have that checked)

How much damage have we done to our bodies that we will never be able to correct?

I’m at point where every step I take is jarring and I can just feel my bones creek. I’m 59 and if I don’t lose this weight now I’m going to end up crippled.

I swell up easily from certain foods. Tonight I’m gonna make a list of all the foods I think swell me up like a balloon and cut those out.

I was doing so well for two weeks and I lost 8 pounds. Then we got pizza and I ate five slices in two days on top of eating my so-called healthy food. And that completely put me in a tailspin of milk and cookies for dinner for three nights. I went completely off the rails.

Tonight I made myself a double cheeseburger with three slices of cheese and Chick-fil-A sauce - it was homemade burgers but still way way too much fattening food.

I’m going to see a registered dietitian next week to discuss things. But I have been at this so long that I know exactly what I need to do. It’s sticking to it. That’s the problem. It is one day going off track that sometimes not always causes the next three days to be just binging.

I wish I could go back in time and tell my younger healthier thinner self to watch what I eat and exercise because in 30 years I’d be suffering.

How many of us are exhausted all the time? I know I am. I just don’t have energy anymore.

Venting this way helps me get it out of my system. I’m going to startstart eating my healthy food again. Lots of vegetables, lean protein plus cut down on the bad food and count every calorie I consume.

I can’t believe I ate an entire package of double stuffed Oreos with glasses of milk in three days.

I had developed such a good amount of willpower that I could eat one cookie a day, and I could stare at the package and not touch more than one cookie.

I guess where I go off the rails I really go off the rails.