u/palmwick48

Last night at 6am I had a tic attack as someone who doesn’t get tics. I don’t understand. Please can someone read and let me know what you make of it

I don’t know if I was faking or what the hell was happening but it was involuntary like certainly.

For background, I’m 23 and basically have never had tics. Nothing significant anyway. I had some tics before (I had a tic where I would lift my shoulder up to my ear and one where I’d throw my head back) that came on in 2024 (age 20) during a mental health crisis very acutely like because of my distress then would occasionally happen for like a few months but it was never every day and it really wasn’t a big deal. No one even knew. It was not significant I never would have mentioned it to a doctor. And that went away and barely lasted

I seriously don’t understand what happened last night.

Probably because I’ve been watching tourettes related videos on TikTok and it triggered it

And because I had smoked weed 5 mins before (I don’t smoke weed usually, I was alone btw)

I had a full blown tic attack

As someone who doesn’t get tics

And I know this is like unheard of

It was literally completely involuntary. I was not trying to do it! I’m confused. I was high on weed and also sleep deprived! I should mention it was like 6am and I was already over tired and sleep deprived maybe that’s got something to do with it, the weed at least

And the tics in this tic attack (and they continued for like 2 hours after the main tic attack) were complicated-ish like they were not the same mechanical action. Like if the tic (like a facial tic or throwing my head back) happened once then happened a second time, the two tics look different. There’s no real pattern. (Unless there was and I didn’t notice). If that makes any sense. Like they were changing.

They were with my eyebrows. My eyebrows were moving a LOT. And it was grimacing my face, and a whistle and turning my head - one of the time my neck clicked when it turned my head to the side) and throwing my head back. And smacking my lips!! And make the kiss shape with my lips. They were so sudden especially when it would throw my head back

And even a tic cough like when I was on the phone to medical help (this was about the fact my heartbeat was going super super super fast, I was just checking in with them that it wasn’t anything serious) I had like a tic cough. They heard me making a lot of noise down the phone because of the tics. Smoking weed triggered the tics. And the fast heart rate.

I filmed the tics so I could show a future medical professional although I don’t think I’ll seek any help. The video kind of freaks me out because seriously it was completely involuntary. It makes me so confused.

In the video one would be able to see it didn’t look like jerks, twitches or muscle spasms, it looks like tics.

I could suppress them. For like maybe 20 seconds. But it felt like buzzy. Like it would feel like noise in my body almost

I’m so confused at how this happened. I am so confused. I’m 23 and have a psychology degree. I genuinely don’t know. It was almost like the tics from FND. I’ll add that at one point my arm got raised to like my hand being above my head and it freaked me out that’s when I considered stopping recording the video (for medical professionals) because I panicked and thought okay what the hell. Same with when the tic jerked my head back and had my stick my tongue out it was so ugly I got panicked. It was all involuntary. It was so ugly like me with my tongue out and to the side of my mouth why did would I do that if I was faking. That’s why I’m so confused especially given my age of 23 and not being someone who has tics. I feel like I psyched myself into it??

Then I went to sleep after my heart rate chilled out and tics chilled out.

I woke up today at 6pm and now it’s 11pm and it hasn’t happened today. No tics. So I think it was because of the weed.

I wasn’t faking it because it was involuntary BUT I wonder if it’s psychological - I worry I like psyched myself into having tics?? like I wonder if by watching tourettes tiktok videos and thinking about what it would be like to have tics, I ended up with tics. I’ll admit I watched some tiktoks from a guy with facial tics and found myself mimicking it like to see what it would be like or something. 5 minutes later I was experiencing an involuntary burst of tics. I worry it was like a punishment. Genuinely i don’t believe in god but it felt like some punishment from a higher power or something. Or maybe my motor neurons were like activated from thinking about tics that it made it more susceptible to having tics? I really don’t mean to offend someone in the tic community I’m just confused. My face was moving so much grimacing and stuff and throwing my head back and turning my head to my side. But when my arm moved by itself to a having my hand above my head that freaked me out

I don’t have anyone to talk to

I don’t know if I was faking or what the hell was happening but it was involuntary like certainly. I go into more detail at the end of the post because maybe I psyched myself into it but it was involuntary.

For background, I’m 23 and have had some tics before (I had a tic where I would lift my shoulder up to my ear and one where I’d throw my head back) it came on in 2024 during a mental health crisis very acutely then would occasionally happen for like a few months but it was never every day and it really wasn’t a big deal. It was not significant I never would have mentioned it to a doctor.

I seriously don’t understand what happened last night.

Probably because I’ve been watching tourettes related videos on TikTok and it triggered it

And because I had smoked week 5 mins before (I don’t smoke weed usually, I was alone btw)

I had a full blown tic attack

As someone who doesn’t get tics

And I know this is like unheard of

It was literally completely involuntary. I was not trying to do it. Like, I was high on weed and also sleep deprived! I should mention it was like 6am and I was already over tired and sleep deprived

And the tics in this tic attack (and they continued for like 2 hours after the main tic attack) were complicated-ish like they were not the same mechanical action. Like if the tic (like a facial tic or throwing my head back) happened once then happened a second time, the two tics look different. There’s no real pattern. (Unless there was and I didn’t notice). If that makes any sense. Like they were changing.

They were with my eyebrows. My eyebrows were moving a LOT. And it was grimacing my face, and a whistle and turning my head - one of the time my neck clicked when it turned my head to the side) and throwing my head back. And smacking my lips!! And make the kiss shape with my lips.

And even a tic cough like when I was on the phone to medical help (this was about the fact my heartbeat was going super super super fast, I was just checking in with them that it wasn’t anything serious) I had like a tic cough. They heard me making a lot of noise down the phone because of the tics. Smoking weed triggered the tics. And the fast heart rate.

(I filmed this episode so I could show a future medical professional although I don’t think I’ll seek any help. The video kind of freaks me out because seriously it was completely involuntary. It makes me so confused.

In the video one would be able to see it didn’t look like jerks, twitches or muscle spasms, it looks like tics.

I could suppress them. For like maybe 20 seconds. But it felt like buzzy. Like it would feel like noise in my body almost

I’m so confused at how this happened. I am so confused. I’m 23 and have a psychology degree. I genuinely don’t know. It was almost like the tics from FND. I’ll add that at one point my arm got raised to like my hand being above my head and it freaked me out that’s when I considered stopping recording the video (for medical professionals) because I panicked and thought okay what the hell. Same with when the tic jerked my head back and had my stick my tongue out it was so ugly I got panicked. It was all involuntary.

Then I went to sleep after my heart rate chilled out and tics chilled out.

I woke up today at 6pm and now it’s 11pm and it hasn’t happened today. No tics. So I think it was because of the weed.

I wasn’t faking it because it was involuntary BUT I wonder if it’s psychological - I worry I like psyched myself into having tics?? like I wonder if by watching tourettes tiktok videos and thinking about what it would be like to have tics, I ended up with tics. I’ll admit I watched some tiktoks from a guy with facial tics and found myself mimicking it like to see what it would be like or something. 5 minutes later I was experiencing an involuntary burst of tics. I worry it was like a punishment. Genuinely i don’t believe in god but it felt like some punishment from a higher power or something. Or maybe my motor neurons were like activated from thinking about tics that it made it more susceptible to having tics? I really don’t mean to offend someone in the tic community I’m just confused. My face was moving so much grimacing and stuff and throwing my head back and turning my head to my side. But when my arm moved by itself to a having my hand above my head that freaked me out

Like ew. I was just posting smiley pics introducing myself to women. What can I respond?

I’ve thought of

“For you?”

“Might want to try grindr”

“Might want to try grindr or escort services”

Got anything better?

I’m starting a research internship at my university having just graduated.

It’s me and a guy and two lecturers. I’m nervous. It’s paid so that’s cool. And I do like my uni campus

My anxiety/ocd has also been at me being like “the analytical thinking is gonna turn u into an entp”. But then I remember I’ve done year 1 and year 2 and year 3 of psychology and it’s fine and so I’m being irrational and overthinking. I don’t want my anxiety to ruin my day. I just want to experience it and hopefully enjoy it.

I’m trying to remember that using analytical thinking is just a skill. Like breaking news: psychology graduate uses psychology skills at psychology internship. And remembering Anne of Green Gables in the book is able to study and analyse and still enjoy imagination and appreciation and comforts. She’s my favourite character ever I love this book

I’m also just anxious about the day in general, even though the people are really nice. And the campus is gonna feel weird because it will be empty when it’s normally filled with people. Maybe I could bring comfort items or notes does anyone have any ideas or general tips or reassurance or encouragement? Xx

I’m an enfp (defo) but I have weak Te expression. I struggle with consistency i want to get better at it. I’m really bad at structuring my life and organising my life and knowing what’s coming up in my week and stuff. I’m really bad at planning and structuring, probably my adhd.

I want to get better at it maybe I can romanticise organising information and structuring.

My Ti is even a lot better than my Te. (But don’t try and type me, I know what type I am). And my Te and Si are my lowest functions, probably because of my adhd!

Honestly maybe I fear structuring will take away my spontaneity. I feel like I have no need for these two. But I’m Ne dom and have always felt like an ENFP and every character I’ve ever felt like is enfp (again don’t type me). I used to really aspire to be so organised but now I’m just not and I miss appointments so much.

Besties can you give me any tips to get better at these things??

I am always missing appointments all the time, all the time. It is by stroke of luck if like just now I saw a note and realised I have an appointment later today I would have missed otherwise. People say set reminders but idk it feels boring or it doesn’t feel fun/engaging. I like going with the flow. I used to have stronger Te as a teen now I have more Ti like I said don’t type me but I miss every appointment and stuff.

I also procrastinate everything: even though I want to post on insta the same day as the pic happens I post it like 3 weeks later and then it’s not relevant anymore. I struggle to do “what the world requires / what is best for this situation”. Also my desks are always messy and I just.. I used to be better at being efficient. I used to streamline assignments and not watch all my uni lectures just the ones I needed or I used to use the slides and not the videos or do it in some way that was more efficient now I feel like I do everything accurately/thoroughly and struggle with perfectionism instead of being efficient

I think I need to romanticise it honestly, idk at this point

I’m an enfp (defo) but I have weak Te expression. I struggle with consistency i want to get better at it. I’m really bad at structuring my life and organising my life and knowing what’s coming up in my week and stuff. I’m really bad at planning and structuring, probably my adhd.

I want to get better at it maybe I can romanticise organising information and structuring.

My Ti is even a lot better than my Te. (But don’t try and type me, I know what type I am). And my Te and Si are my lowest functions, probably because of my adhd!

Honestly maybe I fear structuring will take away my spontaneity. I feel like I have no need for these two. But I’m Ne dom and have always felt like an ENFP and every character I’ve ever felt like is enfp (again don’t type me). I used to really aspire to be so organised but now I’m just not and I miss appointments so much.

Besties can you give me any tips to get better at these things??

I am always missing appointments all the time, all the time. It is by stroke of luck if like just now I saw a note and realised I have an appointment later today I would have missed otherwise. People say set reminders but idk it feels boring or it doesn’t feel fun/engaging. I like going with the flow. I used to have stronger Te as a teen now I have more Ti like I said don’t type me but I miss every appointment and stuff.

I also procrastinate everything: even though I want to post on insta the same day as the pic happens I post it like 3 weeks later and then it’s not relevant anymore. I struggle to do “what the world requires / what is best for this situation”. Also my desks are always messy and I just.. I used to be better at being efficient. I used to streamline assignments and not watch all my uni lectures just the ones I needed or I used to use the slides and not the videos or do it in some way that was more efficient now I feel like I do everything accurately/thoroughly and struggle with perfectionism instead of being efficient

I think I need to romanticise it honestly, idk at this point

I’ve got a holiday booked coming up (within the UK but still I’m so excited).

I thought of what if I miss it by forgetting about it. Then thought of the scenario where I realise it was two days earlier and I forgot.

Then thought of how upset I’d be, this would be the most tragical thing to happen to me, I remembered how much I sobbed the last time I was deeply upset (which happens really rarely, now that I’m older, thank goodness) and I imagined so well how much I would sob so loudly, that I actually had tears go down my cheeks thinking about it.

And that’s how I know I’m enfp 4w3 lol

Don’t worry I’ve also imagined this holiday going really well :)

I sajd wanna come over ;)

He said “are you gonna make it worth it?”

I said “are you?”

He said “I mean I will. Will you?”

What should I reply? I also do want him to come over lol I was just displeased with him saying that.. feels immature. So looking for a comeback that might still leave it open for us to meet lol

Thinking of just being like “I’m good in bed if that’s what you mean”

Anyone got anything better?

For me if I was ever told “youre so sparkly” I’d melt and I’d think about it for ages lol.

I’ve been told “you are a unicorn” that was nice!! I lapped that up hahah

Saw this on Reddit thought id share.

knock knock

use the doorbell please

ding Dong

Who’s there?

You, youre the ding dong for ruining my knock knock joke

They said “my friend had the quickest comeback”