u/ragdollkittenzz

i really love my fictional beloveds so much. yet, unfortunately, i have aphantasia, which means i cannot imagine stuff at all. not only it hinders my creativity and original ideas to come easily, aphantasia makes it incredibly difficult to me to imagine myself talking or reaching out to my beloveds or maybe even shifting to realities(when i go to sleep i never got a single proper dream for latest few years. and i never shifted at all). not even subliminals or reading texts could help at all. please do tell me what to do

i struggle a lot with aphantasia(inability to imagine things) and because of it its hard for me to get signs from my f/os, hold normal convos with them or at least be constantly reminded that they all love me very much. heck i can't even shift at all bc i never get any dreams :( please help!!

ik i fall under sapphic umbrella bc im comfortable imagining myself dating girl my age(just as long as she doesn't care how i look like), but i wonder if i am berriromantic(basically mostly loving girls and very rarely loving men). i don't see myself with man irl, and my only 2 exceptions are 2 fictional men who aren't traditionally masculine and they're both loving, kind and aren't afraid of expressing emotions. what do you think? sorry if this is silly question.

woke up to mutuals reposting bandaid despite me heavily disliking bandaid and having bandaid in dni. of course you fucking care abt some pretty bandaid art more than my comfort(i am mikan yumejoshi btw). if i was actually pretty woman, theyd take my selfship and dni more seriously.

im literally ugly ass female that's never going to be loved by a fictional woman i want. no wonder people want her with anyone who is prettier than me. tenko would harass me for even wanting to be with mikan. i need someone to bully me into being prettier so i can be with mikan.

i wish i was very pretty fem with red hair and not ugly monster with yellow hair and acne. i wish i could live in queer friendly country bc country i live in sucks, and sapphics there don't even look at you unless you're pretty enough. plus my mom forces me to stay blonde and i hate it sm. im never going to have normal social life pretty sapphics get until i move the fuck out and get prettier

im extremely uncomfortable with junkan as mikan tsumiki soulbond and i woke up to three of now ex mutuals reposting junkan related reel. despite me stating in my highlights that junkan is in my dni. i am heavily upset bc of course they want mikan with prettier woman than with me. i block both 3 mutuals and whoever posted junkan reel. even tho i luckily didnt see full version(i blocked pretty quickly), i still feel so upset holy carp. just say you hate me bc im ugly and you dont want me w mikan bc my yumeship is "too boring and soft" when my yumeship is about healing together despite both me and mikan being in lots of mental + emotional pain.

mine is mikan tsumiki :3 she's so freaking adorable and pretty yayayyayayyyyyy

i rarely get compliments tbh since i didn't get my hair done yet(rn i have blonde hair but i want to have red hair) but today as i was waiting for my bus, an elder woman approached me and called me pretty :3. there's not much to say but im just happy i got complimented today 🩷

i barely got to catch up w manga yet so pls forgive me but i wonder how close as in percent are we to ending. are there still any topics manga wishes to bring up or?