u/rudr_44

I feel like dying tbh I have 212 and i thought chem toh mil hi jayega 😭😭😭

(withdrew from bio counselling too)

Dropper.

91 in jm

Sub-16k in viteee

2.3k in comedk

98.6 in MHTCET

Wanted to give manipal but first attempt clashed with CET and forgot to fill second attempt form

Didn't give ugee cuz of severe panic attacks a day prior and some other health issues

212 in BITSAT

Truly BITS was my dream, but ig it will continue to remain merely that - a dream at the end. Maybe some day I'll actually be proud of myself. As of now, i have nothing to celebrate for. Ig that's where my jee journey ends. Ig I'll carry the weight of just not getting those 4-5 more questions right in the exam hall for my entire life. Ig I'll live on and regret this for my life. Ig that's what fate had stacked for me in its capricious inventory. Ig it's just my fault at the end.

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Is it confirmed that there is going to be a round 4 this year or only 3 rounds? In their brochure 4 rounds are mentioned. But is that confirmed?

18M. I am a very introverted person. I don't struggle talking to people that are completely new to me and ones which I'll prolly never talk to again but I struggle very much to talk to people that I have faintly known before or ones which I'll be talking to in the future, if that makes sense. I am from a country where introversion is essentially frowned upon and considered very negative. I also overthink too much about what people will think about me if i behave a certain way or say certain things. I am analysing myself perpetually whenever I am in a public space irrespective of the kind of setting I am in - casual, professional, fun or serious. I am sure people don't even think about me that much but I can't throw out the ghost in my head which keeps telling me that everybody is noticing me.

I still live with my parents and will probably leave in a month or two for college. Ironically, i am not very concerned about such things when I am alone or by myself, but the moment someone I know is involved I start stressing too much. My parents think I'll never be able to do anything in my life (as I said, introversion is frowned upon in my country and you do need to be extroverted to some extent to get even the most basic things done). Idk what to do honestly, i try to socialise but i fail most of the time, and even when I do successfully socialise, i keep thinking about how I could have done something better or whether I'll be able to do this again. Idk if all this makes sense to you or not but it's really depressing for me right now. Other things in my life have also left me extremely frustrated as of lately. And I have come to the conclusion that I am but a failure in life, i have no idea of how the world works and people my age have surged far ahead of me in every aspect.

My parents are completely disappointed in me and they have probably also given up on me. I constantly get into arguments with my parents about my introversion and a few other things. My parents are also sort of abusive and don't really care about how I feel. They look at other people my age and compare them to me, i often feel helpless because it's all true at the end. I don't think they inherently want to harm me in any way and in fact they probably come from a point of concern. I understand that, but i simply can't explain to them how I feel. They have never experienced introversion and have grown up as extreme extroverts and force me to talk to people. I simply can't stir small talk and useless conversations upon meeting people, and doing this is apparently an important thing to do in my country.

Idk what to do honestly, this feeling of concern + regret/anxieties due to some other things I'll not mention here is eating me up from within and I'm slowly losing hope. Idk if I'll be able to do anything good in my life. I have no hobbies either, for to develop those, you need communication skills at least on a basic level. I don't have any friends as of now either.

While this might seem like a bizarre rant, I'd appreciate any advice on how to not overthink and maybe socialise a bit more.

So I might join DJSCE in case things go south and cutoffs for other colleges I have prioritised increase. What branch can I get with 98.6 in MHTCET? Realistically, is CSE allied branch in the spot round possible?

Also here are a few questions I have about DJSCE:

- How is the cording culture?

- How is the campus life compared to other colleges in Mumbai in Pune, from what I have researched it's much more chill.

- What's the hostel situation? Are the hostels good and are there even enough rooms to accommodate all students or would I need to live in a PG or anything like that? Cuz the campus area is extremely small.

- How does it compare to colleges like VIT pune, Walchand overall?

- Is there an extreme academic burden or is it more chill? Are the faculties strict?

- Do you like being here ?

I would appreciate anybody answering these. Help me out.

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So I might join RVCE EEE this year. Not sure if I'll get it. But if I do, how feasible and realistic is it to also take out time for coding and learning CSE concepts side by side with the EEE coursework?

AND YES, ik RVCE team gives unnecessary bs tasks just to up their NIRF and all, so I was a bit skeptical and that's exactly why I'm asking this question in the first place. Please give me a reality check if this is just delusional or actually possible?

Can I withdraw from counselling at any point, if I am waitlisted? Or is it only allowed to withdraw AFTER. you get a seat?

So I got 2.3 k rank. I can get EEE and that will be my first preference if I get it, but it's quite borderline when compared to last year's cutoff. Keeping that in mind, assuming i don't get EEE, what do you think should be my next choice. Should I join aero/mech OR IEM in RVCE. Technically, cutoff wise IEM is the lowest branch but the curriculum seems industry oriented + i want to go into finance too. Also the placements are better than aero/mech. I also have the option of going to BMSCE/MSRIT CSE. Out of these 3 options what would be the best? Here are the parameters i prefer keeping in mind

1. Interest : I do have a slight interest in aerospace and really want to see myself working in defence especially. That being said, getting there is quite hard and takes A LOT of effort and expertise. Plus, i have also heard that Btech in aero by itself is worthless and rather you should do Btech mech and then specialise in Aero. How true is that. About finance, i am also interested in working in finance but not as much as Aero. CSE in BMSCE / MSRIT is also an option but I'm not really interested in CSE as much. Sure, i might just sail along but i don't think it would really "interest" me.

2. Placements : While this is an important factor, it's still secondary but still important, i have heard most people who take up aero and mech end up in other fields directly after graduation or 5-10 years down the line cuz the career growth is either really slow or the opportunities are really miniscule especially in India. I really don't want these situations. I looked at IEM placements and they are even higher than aero/mech surprisingly.

3. Manageability with other interests/coding : Though I'm not much interested in CSE, i have decided that I will have to learn it anyways as a backup if i end up in a core branch. Core branches don't always guarantee a decent employment, but CSE does given you aren't pathetic at it. And yes, ik RVCE is hectic as fuck and I get it, but I am willing to manage both of them parallelly even if exhausts me.

Please help me decide what I should go ahead with.

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If i don't get RVCE EEE:

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I am not a student but i will prolly join RVCE this year. However, someone told me that RVCE is increasingly hiring inexperienced professors and the quality of academics is going down significantly? Is this real? Why is it so and if it is true then how big of a concern is this? The comments of this sub are especially negative about RVCE but i would appreciate someone being truly objective in their approach towards this cuz this seems like a major concern if true. Some even say that RVCE is destined to be just another tier 3 college in a few years?

So i failed jee miserably as a dropper and was genuinely extremely depressed and in severe anxiety in April, had 2-3 panic attacks in a span of like 15-20 days after the jeem2 results came out. But surprisingly VITEEE, COMEDK, MHTCET went decent. So i do have backups now but like RVCE EEE/BMSCE CSE/MSRIT CSE/VIT CSE/ some decent but not very good colleges through MHTCET.

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Honestly back in April, BITS didn't even seem like a remote probability because I was genuinely so downtrodden and almost depressed. But after a partial success in the above mentioned exams, i kinda started studying seriously for BITS but still ended up with a pathetic score of 212 which is pretty much below average. But even then looking at last year's cutoff I was def anxious but thought i would at least get chem/phy in hyd but after looking at these cutoffs I have genuinely given up on any hopes. The thing that hurts more than not getting into BITS is that had i just tried a Lil bit more harder, just a bit of that extra push, i would have easily scored at least 225-230 which would have at least secured me a seat in MSc. Just those extra 5-6 questions in the exam hall changed everything.

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And not just this, even my backup of RVCE EEE is on the borderline cuz last year the closing rank was 2424 and my rank is 235x. Idk where my fate takes me but the fact that I did not push JUST A BIT harder is just really haunting me rn. I just think about it all day. Just 1-2 more questions in comedk and just those 4-5 questions in BITSAT would have put me in a much better situation. I regret everything I have done in the past 3 years atp. No matter how much I try to convince myself and no matter how much i try to avoid thinking about it, this exact thought just always comes up and leaves me with loads of self-doubt, regret, anxiety and then i delve myself into this rabbit hole of overthinking and regret where I start thinking about how much i hate myself and how I'm a failure or how I should have utilised the time that has already passed, all of this to come to the frustrating yet inevitably true conclusion of how all of this thinking and regret isn't going to do shit since everything is now over. It's so fkin frustrating that I cannot do anything about it. But then again, it's all my fault. Ane who knows, maybe this single thought will haunt me throughout my college life, if not my entire fkin life.

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I am still in a much much better position than April but this self doubt is probably never going to fade away. I cannot come to terms with myself over what I have done. I keep cursing myself every time everyday. And God forbid if i don't get RVCE EEE, i will actually start hating myself like anything. VIT is a backup but it's fkin cat 4 cuz I messed up the counselling. COMEDK/MHTCET colleges are Obv backup too but after coming this close to BITS and RVCE, it just doesn't feel like I should be going to these colleges.Idk i just hate myself rn

Extremely anxious after BITSAT iteration 1. Ab shayad kuch nahi milega in BITS. So i have 2.3k in Comedk and i might get RVCE EEE but even that is on the borderline. If i fail to get RVCE EEE then should I go for mechanical/aero in RVCE or should I go for other options?

(Interested in aerospace esp but opportunities are very very limited, masters karna padega but even after that I'll have to work hard in aerospace)

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Last year compared to it 4, how many marks drop was seen in the subsequent it5,6,7?

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So i fucked up my jee to the point where I am not even going to mention my percentile. It was my drop year. Got 2.3k rank in COMEDK, 98.6 in MHTCET. 212 in BITSAT. If i get BITS dual I will take it but the anxiety of not being sure whether I'll get dual or not is eating me from within. Worse, i have RVCE as backup but even that is on the borderline. Also the reviews about RVCE are extremely negative ( although the college is quite good when it comes to placements and opportunities). Idk man if i fail to get both I'll literally end up in a fkin tier -3 college based on my CET result. I genuinely regret not studying better for JEE, and at least after jee I should have focused on BITSAT only. This situation of "if" or "if not" is driving me crazy. My parents are kinda supportive when it comes to studies but in every other field of life other than studies they pressure me so much. I am kinda introverted and they hate me for it. They think you will fail in life if you remain introverted and reserved. They want to make me extroverted by hook or by crook. But i just can't. Even now they are almost pressuring me to not take a dual degree because i am a dropper (not saying it upfront but they still don't want me to take dual it's just that they are being polite cuz BITS is a good college). Heck, even idk if i will even get a dual degree. I am not too sure but i think they are a bit concerned about the fees too. It's not that we can't afford it, we can afford it completely without a loan and will still be very comfortable, fees aren't an issue at all but the thing is, many of my friends are getting into IITs and other good colleges with significantly lower fees so they are just worried about whether it will pay off at the end or not, which is fair. They just haven't told me anything upfront about the fees.

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Concerned about what branch to choose too if i don't get BITS/RVCE. My dad is extremely negative about CSE due to AI restructuring in the future and all. I have no interest in any branch per se. Idk I'm so fkin confused, this phase is even more stressful than studying and exams cuz you atleast could do something all day and had a target to chase, here you can't do anything about what's already done. :///

When do I have to pay 3.5L and when do i have to pay 60k? I think you have to 3.5 L as soon you are allotted any seat right? And if you are not allotted any seat and want to go into subsequent iterations then you will have to pay 60k right?

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And since bio and other branches counselling is parallel will i have to 3.5L+3.5 L separately or will 1 payment of 3.5 L do for both counsellings???

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Very confused pls help