u/shroomeralert

hi guys,

recently I started working for about 15-17 hours a week. It only has weekend shifts.

By the time my first paycheck was due I did fill out my work forms a bit late on a Friday, my boss ensured me this was fine and he’d pay me the next Monday and write me a separate check, but he didn’t pay me until three weeks later when the next payroll came around….

The next payroll, the catch? He didn’t send me a check and instead used an online app instesd for direct deposit. He paid the money he was originally supposed to, but not the past three weeks of work.

He sent me this very urgent text asking for payroll on the 30th, I replied 3 hours later than when he texted me and profusely apologized that I wasn’t on my phone and he just never sent me the money.

I dont pay rent thank god the only way this has impeded me is grocery wise at times, but should I be concerned? does this mean the business has bad cash flow?

anyone else have no one else around them to confide in or vent to or be with???? it hurts so much. my mom literally blocked me bc she said she was done with my complaining😭 im in so much pain and all i receive is judgement from everyone around me. i feel so physically and mentally unwell.

Hey guys,

Im a college student who got my first “real” part time job, lol, but unfortunately it’s outside…. in a really sunny, non shaded spot. I dont have to do labor I just sit there.

I may ask my boss/manager if I can work under the trees tomorrow. But honestly Im heat intolerant (have POTS most likely) and Im SCARED!!! IT SAYS IT’S GONNA FEEL LIKE 106-101 F BETWEEN 2-6 (the hours I work). This freaks me out a LOT! I have experience 105 heat when I lived in Australia and it is unbearable to be outside for even a couple minutes.

I was already soo uncomfortable on the days it was the low 80s. I dont know what I’ll do. My coworker (it’s a 2 person job) bailed on me this weekend too (you can guess why lol) so I dont know.

So honestly, what are we doing? Thank you in advance for any responses….

Edit: my work is ”non essential”, it’s kind of just something that makes rich people in the community feel better lol. I have a beach chair with a hood, a big umbrella that towers over me, and that's it.

Should I ask about calling out? My boss lets me cancel if theres rain. The issue is it’s a summer part time job so I feel like Im expected to handle heatwaves. Agony- I AM BEING PAID MINIMUM WAGE!!!

Edit 2: Why I signed up for this job: I have stayed summers in the area Im in before and it was NOT this bad, especially after 3PM (when my shift begins.) I was able to survive an entire summer in a very heat absorbant building without any AC as well and never had thoughts like "oh I need an AC so bad rn". So I did not think it was an issue.

However the area seems to be hotter than it has ever been before, and my shifts also got moved to start at 2PM not 3PM, when the UV is naturally worse. I am in the southeast by the water so I am used to us getting cooler temps.

ALSO, I was under the assumption I would be allowed to sit in the shade like the previous worker in previous years, meanwhile they relocated me to sit in the sunniest spot.

Pretty good if you ask me!!!!!!!

My entire life I have never had my hair be longer than the length it is now. Slightly past my shoulders. This past year I have taken products out of the equation and I don’t shampoo it (only condition occasionally) as I was having lots of scalp irration and dandruff issues from shampoos.

I have perfect blood tests, I know people who are anemic who grow hair longer than me. My dad had barely any hair in his 30s so I wonder if I just got his genetic end of the stick.

It’s truly so saddening to have such short hair given I’ve been trying to grow it out for over 2 years, and have about the hair growth of 2 months.

I almost always wear my hair up and I don’t trim it.

Would like to clarify Im not sure if I have POTS, I have a lot of the symptoms but normally theyre not bad enough for me to see a doctor and I would say theyre pretty mild for example Ive never fainted or anything classic POTS.

But some of these new meds.... man, they've been messing with my blood pressure !!! Dizzy, lightheaded, classic pots reaction when I get up, onset of even more fatigue.... it's pretty wild. It's definitely worse than anything I experience on any meds (and even if I doe experience that off meds it's bc Ive forgotten to eat/drink water). It feels like something is Wrong.

i NEVER had this when i first started in 2022!!!! Insane!!!!

is anyone else rapidly losing the desire to even take these!!???!? I just took two weeks to pick my prescription up because what happened last time was the worst side effects Ive experience in my life and I was just mentally preparing to take something that gives me sewerisdall thoughts from a bad generic again, along with crazy dizziness and physical anxiety and fatigue and yet also insomnia!!!! I would rather be the useless blobfish I am, accomplishing nothing, than wreaking havoc on my body and mind! Im pretty sure I have CFS/ME and I don't want ANYTHING that makes it worse. Granules gave me flu like symptoms for a week. I have nothing but to correlate it with the pills because I barely go outside or in public!

Worst of all I feel like the pills I did take that had bad side effects are almost permanent - I've been struggling with lack of whimsy and even more severe depression and fatigue for a few weeks since I stopped.

Pretty INTERESTING to me... last time there was one this bad was in 2023. Is the social media content being ramped up? are people switching from vyvanse???

My severely mentally ill dad went through this whole process of so graciously helping me get me my permit at 19 (late, right?) only to curse himself and throw several tantrums (god knows over what) in the process of getting it, including a 3 hour yelling session over the DMV failing to accept one of our documents- which was neither of our faults. ANYWAY, I ended up getting it, but I still had never been behind the wheel in my life before.

Six months pass and I ask him if we could please do some driving practice over Christmas break. Christmas break is full of lots of yelling and anger issues, I still don’t get behind a wheel.

Now I’m 22 and my permit is EXPIRED and all the driving schools in my area are so far away and I don’t want to spend obsence amounts of money on driving school!!!! I just find it so SO selfish and misogynistic and insane that my dad failed at this very basic thing. (And no my mom cant teach me because he refuses to teach her either haha!!!!)

There were countless times in high school (the ONE time I missed the bus my senior year out of all 4 years) where he showed visible anger that I needed a ride somewhere while all of my friends were cruising around in their vehicles. He’d fume at picking me up at college and all this crap.

I used to think it was because he was protecting me but now I realize it’s a lot darker than that. He simply doesn’t want me to be successful! 22 and still never been behind a wheel...

any reviews on this before i contemplate not picking up my script.

i think this stuff is super anxiety inducing and completely sucks. the first time i took it i felt very off and it has persisted since. gives me almost paranoia vibes. so hard to dose because 1/4 doesnt do anything, 1/2 doesnt either, and then a whole one just sends me into anxiety borderline panic attack city. very manic tweaky feeling- completely unwanted for me. i start getting bizarre thoughts and suspicions. like my soul leaves my body each time LMFAOOO

beggers cant be choosers but mannnn. might try to go down to 12.5 if tbat means something better is available coz WTF. this doesnt even cover the physical side effects. the sad thing is theyre probably better than some.

sry no one asked ofc but i hope this is helpful for someone or we can commiserate 2gether

A couple days after I moved in to my apartment and especially the most recent weeks (I've been here for almost a month), I started experiencing weird things.

One of the first weirdest things that happened was a giant 3 foot poster board I made in middle school that is nostalgic for me. It wasn't there when I initially entered the apartment.

I stared at the wall where I last saw it when I lived here a couple years ago. I was wondering and curious where it went, assuming my parens who had lived here recently had dumped it out. I thought about it a few times over the weeks and wondered.

All of a sudden I got back from work one day and the poster board was suddenly there. It was like walking into a room and the wall was a totally different color for a example of how VIVID the difference felt to me.

I even texted my mom if it was some prank my parents played on me and she said that it was there the WHOLE TIME. I was in shock. I would have 10000% noticed it was there because I have such emotional memories tied to it , and what's super annoying is all the photos I have of the area cut off where the poster was by fraction of centimeters!!!

(and since this is reddit YES I have a carbon monoxide detector and it's underneath where the poster board was hahahah!!!) I attributed it to a "timeline shift" (not sure I believe in that whatsoever) but there's been other stuff happening that feels even more personal.

Some other things:

- saw a shadowy figure at 2am while up on my computer at night about 5'10 tall (havent had this happen to me in 2 years)

- my cats looking out into the same spot where i saw the shadowy figure like something was There BEFORE i saw it, days prior !!!!!!!!

- small things appearing and reappearing that have questionable doubt, quantities of things changing (for example i look at my water bottle one minute and then it has way less or more water than it did before without me moving a few minutes later). thoroughly cleaning the floor when my cats pooped, i put my cats in the bathroom while i clean, and 12 hours later there's fresh cat poop on the same floor when my cats have been in the bathroom the whole time.

- two episodes of sleep paralaysis (i barely had any in 2025) , one of which where it felt like someone was holding me and it was not a loving energy.

- when i woke up one day, my cats being in a totally different room than where i put them when i fell asleep (i attributed this to sleep walking although ive never done that, or moving them and forgetting)

- my hair being pulled when i got up when it turns out to be a curtain rod when i wasn't sitting anywhere next to the curtain

- the door handle of my apartment one night sounding like it was being shaken 3x one night but no one was there and the wind never makes that noise, hasn't happened since but it did scare me

- feeling absolutely drained of all energy and soulless , almost like someone is feeding off of me. brain fog, body aches, absolutely zero motivation to do anything EVER.

- one day i left the apartment for over 12 hours (usually im iside all day because im such a homebody) and felt almost euphoric ??? (very rare for me to experience, but perhaps unrelated)

- had a graphic nightmare about a very specific fear that was so bad i woke up heart pounding in fear (have not had this happen to me in over two years

What do you all think???? Is it some kind of energetic entity thats in my space? Is it a ghost - the building was made in the early 2000s? None of it has made me paranoid or anxious, except for the board and the door handle because initially I was like WTF!!!!!

Even the sleep paralysis stuff doesn't scare me. But it's sort of annoying me because I feel like this entity or whatever you'd like to call it doesn't have good intentions and is feeding off of my pre-existing depression to bring itself energy. I don't smoke weed, drink, or do any drugs rn. I havent drunk all of 2026 and I havent done any drugs since 2024.

the funny thing is i dont even BELIEVE in ghosts being bothersome like this or anything nor do i fear them or expect to be annoyed by them, so you'd think i'd be spiritually protected- NOPE!!! I also thought my energy was better protected against entities lately!

Someone please tap in for me, I'll be extremely grateful...

A couple days after I moved in and especially the most recent weeks (I've been here for almost a month), I started experiencing weird things.

One of the first weirdest things that happened was a giant 3 foot poster board I made in middle school that is nostalgic for me wasn't there when I initially entered the apartment.

I stared at the wall where I last saw it when I lived here a couple years ago and was wondering and curious where it went, assuming my parens who had lived here recently had dumped it out. I thought about it a few times over the weeks and wondered.

All of a sudden I got back from work one day and it was suddenly there. I even asked my mom if it was some prank they played on me and she said that it was there the WHOLE TIME. I would ahve 10000% noticed it was there because I have such emotional memories tied to it , and what's super annoying is all the photos I have of the area cut off where the poster was by fraction of centimeters!!!

and yes I have a carbon monoxide detector and it's underneath where the poster boar was hahahah!!!

Some other things:

- saw a shadowy figure at 2am while up on my computer at night about 5'10 tall (havent had this happen to me in years)

- small things appearing and reappearing that have questionable doubt, quantities of things changing (for example i look at my water bottle one minute and then it has way less or more water than it did before without me moving). thoroughly cleaning the floor when my cats pooped, i put my cats in the bathroom while i clean, and 12 hours later there's fresh cat poop on the same floor when my cats have been in the bathroom the whole time

- two episodes of sleep paralaysis (i barely had any in 2025) , one of which where it felt like someone was holding me

- my cats looking out into the same spot where i saw the shadowy figure like something was There BEFORE i saw it

- when i woke up one day, my cats being in a totally different room than where i put them when i fell asleep (i attributed this to sleep walking although ive never done that, or moving them and forgetting)

- my hair being pulled when i got up when it turns out to be a curtain rod when i wasn't sitting anywhere next to the curtain

- the door handle of my apartment one night sounding like it was being shaken 3x one night but no one was there and the wind never makes that noise

- feeling absolutely drained of all energy and soulless , almost like someone is feeding off of me

- one day i left the apartment for over 12 hours (usually im iside all day because im such a homebody) and felt almost euphoric ??? (very rare for me to experence)

What do you all think???? None of it has made me paranoid or anxious (except for the board because initially I was like W.t.f.!!!!!). even the sleep paralysis stuff doesnt bother me. but it's sort of annoying me because I feel like this entity or whatever you'd like to call it doesn't have good intentions and is feeding off of my pre-existing depression to bring itself energy.

the funny thing is i dont even BELIEVE in ghosts being bothersome like this or anything nor do i fear them or expect to be annoyed by them, so you'd think i'd be spiritually protected- NOPE!!!

took one of my "shitty" XRs earlier this week- xr granules

physically: i would feel so so physically terrible - dizzy and dehydrated despite drinking SO much water, extreme physical weakness, like all my limbs were weighed down. did not help me stay awake whatsoever i just felt SICK but not in the cold-flu way in a way that almost is like "whatever i just put in my body i cannot physically tolerate." the dizziness was INSANE and i had eaten plenty that day it's like i couldn't even stand when it kicked in which is EXTREMELY bizarre to me!!! i also got blurred vision and like that feeling when you're close to fainting. POTS like symptoms (i have no idea if i have pots.) i could barely stay awake despite being "activated". like basically the bad feeling of insomnia when you're utterly exhausted and you can feel how outlandshly tired u are in ur body and mind but forced to stay awake because ur body is activated from anxiety or a sense of restlessness and deoesn't want to sleep. not the "woo thank god im alert and present and not fighting off sleep!" kind of awake.

i hope taking 4 of these capsules over time didn't do permanent damage to my body/brain because i also got the weirdest withdrawal effects everrrr - normally i can stop taking stims no problem. i felt like i could barely move when i wasn't taking them.

mentally: the mental side effects made me feel extremely dissociated/paranoid when it kicked in. just this inevitable feeling that something was HORRIBLY wrong. then after 3 hours the anxiety would fade (i assume thats when the ir would stop releasing and the xr kicked in) and i became a depressed zombie who couldnt do anything but ruminate on how horrible everything was around me and not in a cathartic way. i focused on writing pages and pages of my depressing thoughts because it's all i could fixate on it felt like my depression was all that existed. i was even a little bit frustrated with one of my friends who ive known for like 4 years messaging me and just felt apathetic and bored. i'm rereading those entries and it's hard for me to believe i have those kind of thoughts at all.

i had loss of appetite & insomnia so like hypothetically it is a stimulant but an AWFUL one- 0.01% real with 99.9% fake sprinkled in. i woke up smelling like a skunk too lmaoooo.

i was wondering if it was a variation in my cycle or something when i took the first 3 over the course of 7 days but i took it a week later no tolerance and it was not anything to do with my routine.

how tf is this a stimulant? yeah it keeps me awake and i dont eat but how am i SO tired and SO so so depressed?

A couple days after I moved in and especially the most recent weeks (I've been here for almost a month), I started experiencing weird things.

One of the first weirdest things that happened was a giant 3 foot poster board I made in middle school that is nostalgic for me wasn't there when I initially entered the apartment.

I stared at the wall where I last saw it when I lived here a couple years ago and was wondering and curious where it went, assuming my parens who had lived here recently had dumped it out. I thought about it a few times over the weeks and wondered.

All of a sudden I got back from work one day and it was suddenly there. I even asked my mom if it was some prank they played on me and she said that it was there the WHOLE TIME. I would ahve 10000% noticed it was there because I have such emotional memories tied to it , and what's super annoying is all the photos I have of the area cut off where the poster was by fraction of centimeters!!!

and yes I have a carbon monoxide detector and it's underneath where the poster boar was hahahah!!!

Some other things:

- saw a shadowy figure at 2am while up on my computer at night about 5'10 tall (havent had this happen to me in years)

- small things appearing and reappearing that have questionable doubt, quantities of things changing (for example i look at my water bottle one minute and then it has way less or more water than it did before without me moving). thoroughly cleaning the floor when my cats pooped, i put my cats in the bathroom while i clean, and 12 hours later there's fresh cat poop on the same floor when my cats have been in the bathroom the whole time

- two episodes of sleep paralaysis (i barely had any in 2025) , one of which where it felt like someone was holding me

- my cats looking out into the same spot where i saw the shadowy figure like something was There BEFORE i saw it

- when i woke up one day, my cats being in a totally different room than where i put them when i fell asleep (i attributed this to sleep walking although ive never done that, or moving them and forgetting)

- my hair being pulled when i got up when it turns out to be a curtain rod when i wasn't sitting anywhere next to the curtain

- the door handle of my apartment one night sounding like it was being shaken 3x one night but no one was there and the wind never makes that noise

- feeling absolutely drained of all energy and soulless , almost like someone is feeding off of me

- one day i left the apartment for over 12 hours (usually im iside all day because im such a homebody) and felt almost euphoric ??? (very rare for me to experence)

What do you all think???? None of it has made me paranoid or anxious (except for the board because initially I was like W.t.f.!!!!!). even the sleep paralysis stuff doesnt bother me. but it's sort of annoying me because I feel like this entity or whatever you'd like to call it doesn't have good intentions and is feeding off of my pre-existing depression to bring itself energy.

the funny thing is i dont even BELIEVE in ghosts being bothersome like this or anything nor do i fear them or expect to be annoyed by them, so you'd think i'd be spiritually protected- NOPE!!!

taking upwards of 200 mg in a day multiple days in a row (unless ur already on a high dosage of 100+ im judging you for this), lying to your doctors about losing scripts so you can get refills early ??? don't get me started on the amount of you who were extremely defensive about tums/baking soda being a for everyone cure. ive even seen one of u guys saying you've "found the solution yourself and took matters into your hands" by SMOKING METH?

this is an extremely frustrating and stressful situation but it's shameful for the rest of us who are trying the best we can within our perimeters... if you need a higher dosage, tell your doctor or find one who listens, don't make the rest of us look bad.

edit: ive seem further delusional theories like leaving your meds out makes them work better, filtering, etc. i dont think there’s any method to potentiate medication that fundamentally lacks the right amount of the ingredient in it.

edit: how dare yall diss the mod on my post too, dm her or make your own post for her to reply to if you wanna hash things out. it's a big community with lots of crackheads and SHES DOING HER BEST!

I noticed a single tiny very noticeable completely white bead in my XR. It is also a slightly different shape than the rest of the beads. There appears to be only one in the capsule. What is the explanation for this? Seems like awful quality control.

Anyone else found weird random things in their XR capsules?

I moved into my parents old house (they’re away on vacation) two weeks ago. in the house there used to be this poster board for a science project I made in 6th grade about light pollution/ star visibility that was not there. I remember it pretty vividly compared to other objects in my home because my dad, who I don’t have a good relationship with, yelled at me for how bad the poster looked all those years ago (Im in my 20s now)

I know because I remember looking for it everywhere and assuming it got thrown out the past few weeks. I stared at all the walls in the apartment looking for it and curious where it went and assumed it was just gone- whatever, I didn’t have much attachment to it.

After my shift from work one day this week I come back and the first thing I notice is that the poster board is suddenly THERE.

Leaned up against a white wall where I had stared at and zoned at countless hours the past few weeks. The board was 100% not there before - I remember observing the blank space countless times and standing right in front of the wall. I would have noticed the board and had some thoughts on it, this is a fact. The poster board brings up too many memories not to.

I am scared as hell because my first thought is someone broke in. But why would they do that with a poster board and not interfere with any of the other valuables?

A few hours later I notice there is even traces of dust on it, as if it had been there untouched for weeks.

Honestly I’m disturbed and have no logical explanation. I dont think anyone would break onto my house just to mess with me or put the board there, dust and all. There’s so many other things they could have tampered with or taken if so and not much else seems to be out of place. It having a bit of a “celestial” quality of the star theme also makes me wonder….

I texted my mom about it that night and she said she had put it there herself three weeks ago.

Whats EXTRA frustrating is I had tons of pictures on my phone of the living area that just narrowly cut what the wall looked like before by centimeters!!!!!!!!I just wanna know if I’m crazy or not omg.🤣 So funny.

I moved into my parents old house (they’re away on vacation) two weeks ago. in the house there used to be this poster board for a science project I made in 6th grade about light pollution/ star visibility that was not there. I remember it pretty vividly compared to other objects in my home because my dad, who I don’t have a good relationship with, yelled at me for how bad the poster looked.

I know because I remember looking for it everywhere and assuming it got thrown out. I stared at all the walls in the apartment looking for it and curious where it went and assumed it was just gone- whatever, I didn’t have much attachment to it.

After my shift from work one day this week I come back and the first thing I notice is that the poster board is suddenly THERE.

Leaned up against a white wall where I had stared at and zoned at countless hours the past few weeks. The board was 100% not there before - I remember observing the blank space countless times and standing right in front of the wall. I would have noticed the board and had some thoughts on it, this is a fact.

I am scared as hell because my first thought is someone broke in. But why would they do that with a poster board and not interfere with any of the other valuables?

A few hours later I notice there is even traces of dust on it, as if it had been there untouched for weeks.

Honestly I’m disturbed and have no logical explanation. I dont think anuone would break onto my house just to mess with me or put the board there, dust and all. It having a bit of a “celestial” quality also makes me wonder….

Whats EXTRA frustrating is I had tons of pictures on my phone of the living area that just narrowly cut what the wall looked like before by centimeters!!!!!!!!

Any thoughts on specifically this dosage???? I had it in January and it worked okayish (I assume because it was the only one that wasnt recalled) although there was definitely an onboarding anxiety effect., and it gve me insane insomnia. Took it on Friday and I felt pretty physically anxious when I took it on an empty stomach then flat the whole night, but I also was malnourished so IDK.