Recently got accepted and I have no idea what to do
First off, I am going to apologize for the long post. I feel like to get proper advice I have to spill everything. So this also might be a little jumbled. I have 5 more days to give a yes or no. I hate that they only give a week to decide.
I moved from my home town a year ago and I love where I live now. If I go to the DCP, I will be moving back to my home town once I finish the program. Every time I am in my hometown I feel trapped. But it is the only place that offers the program I want to do (like college career program).
Now that that's out of the way, let's get to why this is hard. One of my friends has some pets that I have grown close with. The thought of saying goodbye to them and saying goodbye to my friends makes me want to vomit. I have cried so many times at the thought. I also have so many photography opportunities coming up and I enjoy my current job (the job and the photography go hand in hand). I also have many people asking me to do their graduation photos. And if I go, I'll leave in march which is before graduation.
But I also don't have many friends other than the ones who have the pets. I live in a college town and go to some events on campus and me and this boy go to the same actives. We talked for a little bit, but decided we were better off as friends. But now he has randomly unadded me, unfollowed me and I have no idea why. We saw each other on Tuesday and it was all normal. Planned to go fishing Monday, chatted like normal yesterday and then today I woke up and saw he unadded me and such. I truly have no idea since everything was fine yesterday.
Pros if I leave: meet new people, new opportunities, get to work at disney, get to leave all this boy trouble behind (but with this generation, the boy trouble will be over in like two weeks because everyone will move on).
Cons if I leave: Saying goodbye to the pets, friends, possibly losing photography opportunities, moving 11+ hours from home, and unable to see my therapist (I've gone to her for 4+ years), leave my job, leave the events on campus, and we don't know what position we will have till four weeks before we leave.
Pros if I stay: I get to see the pets, keep my current job and the photography stuff, see my friends, stay at my current place that I enjoy, keep going to on campus events.
Cons if I stay: boy problems, maybe feeling stuck.
I feel like if I knew what position I would be in, I wouldn't feel so scared.
Let me know if you have any questions and all advice is welcome!