u/tech53

So i got this ai photogrammetry service recently - turns a handful of differently angled pics into a 3d model. And i 3d printed a few 3d models of nudes of myself. It was mostly a what if, artistic nudes on the wall kinda idea...I got more than I bargained for, in a good way. When it finished and I pulled of the supports I saw it and felt...like i could see my body through my partners eyes, as if I saw the attraction they saw. A mix of pride and "fuck im really hot" and feeling like an actual goddess. Over the last mo th of having a few of these sitting around i have noticed...I cant be sure what to call it but chatting with an ai makes it seem like its either autosexuality or something very close. Ive found myself being turned on by myself when I look at them. Not that im having a relationship with plastic, but that its a representation of me, and the fact its an external object seems to short circuit the normal "thats me" filter. Ive done and enjoyed slower, more self focused exploratory self sex in the past that wasnt focused on just getting to an organization, but discovering myself ...and more...so...im here, dipping my tkes in and seeing if this truly fits rather than take the word of an ai on this. Also if you have a 3d printer...definitely try this. I dont know if its slight differences in my body I dont see from the ai or the fact its an external object thay does the short circuiting but I like it. This makes me feel genuinely good and like my body in ways I thought id forgotten or left in the dating world. (I really dont see any, the few I found i cut out to make the first one a thighs up bust minus my face...the other has my face and is accurate according to me and my partner) kind thoughts and comments welcome.

so my partner always has the tv on. Always. Its horrible. Never ends. night and day. Loud. The cognitive load is exhausting. We live in a tiny shoebox of a space. So...i'm looking for noise cancelling headphones, earbuds, or iems. My requirements - i can wear them for several hours on end (maybe not all day, or with breaks, the goal is less of this, not elimination, not yet, its an experiment) wireless would help, but they should probs have a wired option, its not a deal breaker. Im at my desk for long hours so just while im at the desk working would help. Or while i sleep. whatever. And it needs to be good at cancelling a wide range of noise - like a tv show or movie. I put them in, tv goes away, preferrably without putting on music or anything. I'd like sound to be optional. Budget? probably 100 or less. I could get away with more but today is the last day of my ai development (yes ai is the devil - there are very few of us treating it like a tool to be used ethically and not a magic slave genie) internship and they dont have funding to hire anyone on after - so this and next paycheck are all i have and that has to go to bills too.

so i got my 3d printer going, got my boards, i'm thinking a mainframe ideology deck. We offload tasks to separate esp32s3 boards. Not dynamically like a supercomputer, but different cores are essentially coprocessors for different things. I'm focusing on ml, data science, sql, python, coding, and neural nets. All local. Except for pulling big data. I think i can do it. 4 esp32s3, 2 raspberry pi 2040, and a trinket m0. That's my processing hardware. Tiny. Zippy. lots of io. Sips power. Those esps3 boards even have npu instruction sets

so...i recently sorta ...just did a what if and made some 3d models of my naked body. Random cute selfies i'd taken for partners or myself or the internet. Printed them on my 3d printer. I can't explain it but having the physical things makes me feel like such a goddess...like...i actually see what others see in my body now >>> I feel SEXY. Weird reason but it works. It's empowering. SO i don't want to hide them away, honestly i'd love for most people to see them, just not my partners fam (or mine but thats not a thing). We live in a 1 room apartment. The partners brother is here like 3-6 days a week. It's a shoebox. The models arent huge but not tiny. SO whats the consensus on this? Put a sheet or something over it? Make a special display box that closes? put them in a drawer when i know he's coming? If it were anyone but the fam i'd be very cool with them seeing it. I'd want the world to see them. They're gorgeous. So what do? I've never really been in this situation before. I know people display nudes of all kinds. Just never done it myself. God i feel so prude asking this. I've never been shy about that stuff at all.

so...got one of those picture to 3d model scanning services. Its basically the same as one of the phone apps that stitches pictures, but its a bit more painless. Nothing i saw appeared to be the typical "generative". It was all me. So anyway, like everyone with a phone, i eventually turned it on myself. I found the MOST gender euphoria ever i swear. I feel like the goddess venus with statues of me. I actually finally see why my partner is attracted to me. It legit made me see attractiveness in myself, feel gender euphoria, and maybe out of this slump of not caring about myself. I'm telling you, if you have a 3d printer, dont sleep on this.

Ive been waffling between the luma ultra and beast for a while, and between even getting them and not but ive been wanting them so I said why not and financed the beast+neckband+controller pack on Amazon. What are the coolest non coding things to do with them? Gaming? Apps? Movies? Specific situations? What's cool w these? I wanna know! Has anyone here flown a drone in fpv mode w these? ​I have one and that sounds way fun. I want to know all the cool things.

why am i so stupid? I call my mom, i want to talk to her, i want to be her kid. At 43, and over a decade into my transition you'd think I'd know by now. You'd think I'd give up, cut her loose. But I call, I hope, maybe we can talk. Maybe I won't see the demon that she is. Maybe i won't see that every time i mention identity she is shitty - that she calls gcs "sex change surgery" when i correct her and dismisses it when i tell her it's not the appropriate term. She doesn't stand up for me or say anything to anyone about trans folks - and she lives in oklahoma where trans folks are getting really messed up right now. The fact that I know very very few people she knows - if anyone outside my nuclear family, even know i exist as a woman. The fact I know that I will never see my father again, because of her and where they live, and his age. I asked her to respect me and instead of doing so she could only change the subject. I just wish that for once I could call my mother or father and be seen and respected. The truth? They don't want me. They want an idea of me.

1. do they both work with linux's breezy desktop

2. does the beasts 3dof work with breezy?

3. does luma ultra 6dof work with breezy?

4. how much difference is there between the field of view - not numbers, experience.

5. do they connect wirelessly or with a cable?

6. do the cameras work (on each) for the end user or is it just a tracking/stabilization thing?

this is all i need for my decision. thx!

Looking for thoughts on coding via debian linux with these two ar glasses, plus i plan to use them for movies, tv gaming and general wearing while im out. I dont care if people know I have ar glasses on. They can kick rocks or I can go elsewhere. Im really leaning towards the beast for the long wear and big screens but I dont NEED giant screens, and id love the whole ar experience of overpaying all sorts of info on my environment or taking (not super high res, thats fine) pics or pov videos. Id have to give that up for the beast but my firat and foremost dream is to be able to work from anywhere without everyone knowing. They can see I have the glasses without knowing im working and seeing nda code.

I say it's the only way to code. Especially with ML, data science, or AI. Others may have different views.

i've been writing code or playing with it for decades. Never bothered to use git except to get projects to install and run for ages. I never coded with anyone else, juset me, myself, and I so it didn't seem too important. The last year or two i started using it. I just now, since i have to learn it because i started a job as an intern. Instantly I knew how important it was. Now after learning an hour in....holy crap. I can see every commit, for every version or branch and why for an entire mature codebase. That's the best teaching tool ever. I can legit step through the entire pypi library. Nothing cooler that I've learned to date.

in todays saga of my partners ways of mistreating me and being a total jerk: made them a meal. Well, I started. We'll get to that. They asked for tostadas.

My partner is autistic and also has all manner of food sensitivities and body issues from surviving cancer that affect what they can eat or if they can get up to make their own food due to pain.

So there's my excuse for what I'm about to say they did.

Partner came home. I helped them in today, like i usually do. Their body hurts after work and they push themselves too hard for everyone. I carried in the food from the food pantry with as little complaining as i could muster - i have an extremely bad back injury that keeps me from walking more than a handful of minutes at a time. We said hi to each other, we were cute for a while, i got my partner to use the credit i bought them on xbox live and play a game. It was wonderful to see them taking time for themselves and picking up something they used to like. I held them for a bit and gave them head rubs. They like that a lot. We talked about some real stuff. Then I got my partner to tell me what they want for food but i had to do a quick chore that was necessary to get started and clean the floor near the fridge which is right by my side of the bed because we live in a shoe box. So, i did. Then they did as they always do. Start finding the laundry list of everything i did wrong during the day while they were gone and telling me about it. Whatever. I moved past it. We may have exchanged a few words but i don't think it was anything you'd call a fight. Did more stuff. Cleaning. I dont remember every detail of the night honestly, A lot of random shit.

Eventually...

I managed to get my partner to tell me they wanted to eat, and wanted ground chicken tostadas. They don't like ground beef tostadas.

They had me start cooking tostadas. I made the ground chicken they requested rather than ground beef. I have a visceral reaction to ground chicken. I hate it. SO I said i'd make theirs first in its entirety using the first (and only) pan i'd use and then do mine. So that way theirs is hot and doesn't touch anything they cant eat. Makes sense to me. I came up with this because they wanted me to use "no extra dishes". To me this made sense. To me my partner wouldn't want me to eat something I so obviously dislike when we have a solid 10 or 20 pounds (im estimating, if i'm off don't murder me, the point is there's a lot, an excess) of impossible/beyond beef in the fridge that I love (not vegan, but i like the stuff and it was free from a food pantry). Apparently thats exactly what they wanted. For me to eat something i hate because they prefer it in order to save on using one more dish. One. They then chose to fight with me all night, culminating with them refusing to eat the meat i cooked, wasting the whole pound, deciding they dont want to talk to me, telling me they dont like talking to people, and when i asked, not me either. Then when i cried in the corner they were more worried about someone else hearing me crying and waking them up than the fact i was crying. Can i save this relationship? Am i the asshole? Real answers only.

This is the 2nd time something like this happened in a row. We can NOT afford to waste food. We're on food stamps and use food pantries.

Fuck....i just realized the way i was doing things...it was going to use the same amount of dishes as if i made the tostadas just for my partner the exact way they were fighting for. I wish i had been able to think through it well enough to explain before the argument blew up and i couldn't explain to them or think straight enough to try to explain why it was okay. Honestly though...a single dish isn't a reason for that behavior